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So I don't know what I feel like writing... I have a test in an hour, and well, I have been "supposivly studying" for like 2 days, but really I've actually looked at the material for like 5 minutes.... Lately I just don't know how I feel... and I feeling lazy? depressed? tired? annoyed? restless? I just feel blah! Is "blah" a way to describe how you feel? I wanna say I'm depressed, but really I'm not unhappy. Like I don't feel like doing what I'm suppose to be doing, but I feel like doing something just... I dont know what I wanna do??... Like when I try to talk to people about how I feel, I say "depressed" but really I just dont know how to describe how I feel. I just wanna jump in my car, drive for a while, find an open field, and scream??? Then drive all around some more, do something crazy and completly fuck up my routine/life for about a week or two, and then come back... get out all my restlessness out and then go back to my routine of school and class and studying and work...
I now have anxiety about not being prepared for this test... Damn me!
And I'm kinda sick of people always bashing our country, our government, our president, etc... what ever happen to having pride in your nation? And how the fuck is anyone suppose to be completlyyyy prepared for a huge disaster? How fast is fast enough in responding? If response teams were prepared and in there, taking care of business in 48 hours, people would bitch and say "what the fuck, they should have been here a day ago", if response teams were prepared and in there in 24 hours, people would bitch and say "what the fuck, they should have been here this morning"... no matter how fast, or how prepared, people will bitch, because hey "it's not good enough!!" Apparently everyone always has someone to blame for misfortune, it's this person, it's that person, no wait, it's so-and-so's damn fault for not having thousands of houses and hundreds of planes set aside to wisk unfotunate victims of a horrible catastrophe to at ANY time.
(Sorry reading MSN.com now) And I'd also like to say that people who not only try to gain publicity in the midst of a horrible catastrophe but then also go on to fuel the never-ending "battle of the races" and promote ignorance such as Kanye West, no matter how talented the musician, will NEVER get a single penny for me. Some people always have their own agenda. And it seems shameful to me that someone would use an emotional event such as Hurricane Katrina to not only further their own career but to promote racist bigotry in the United States and encourage the ongoing of this "racial war". Seriously people! You dont see me out here still parading the fact that hundreds of years ago, this land was stolen from my Indian ancestors?? Come on! And I would also like to say that if it were thousands of Hispanics (the true minority) who had lost their homes and etc. in the wake of such a horrible natural event, I seriously doubt the racial card would have been thrown into play. Gees...
Well that's all I've got to say about that...
Wish me luck on this fucking test!
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I now have anxiety about not being prepared for this test... Damn me!
And I'm kinda sick of people always bashing our country, our government, our president, etc... what ever happen to having pride in your nation? And how the fuck is anyone suppose to be completlyyyy prepared for a huge disaster? How fast is fast enough in responding? If response teams were prepared and in there, taking care of business in 48 hours, people would bitch and say "what the fuck, they should have been here a day ago", if response teams were prepared and in there in 24 hours, people would bitch and say "what the fuck, they should have been here this morning"... no matter how fast, or how prepared, people will bitch, because hey "it's not good enough!!" Apparently everyone always has someone to blame for misfortune, it's this person, it's that person, no wait, it's so-and-so's damn fault for not having thousands of houses and hundreds of planes set aside to wisk unfotunate victims of a horrible catastrophe to at ANY time.
(Sorry reading MSN.com now) And I'd also like to say that people who not only try to gain publicity in the midst of a horrible catastrophe but then also go on to fuel the never-ending "battle of the races" and promote ignorance such as Kanye West, no matter how talented the musician, will NEVER get a single penny for me. Some people always have their own agenda. And it seems shameful to me that someone would use an emotional event such as Hurricane Katrina to not only further their own career but to promote racist bigotry in the United States and encourage the ongoing of this "racial war". Seriously people! You dont see me out here still parading the fact that hundreds of years ago, this land was stolen from my Indian ancestors?? Come on! And I would also like to say that if it were thousands of Hispanics (the true minority) who had lost their homes and etc. in the wake of such a horrible natural event, I seriously doubt the racial card would have been thrown into play. Gees...
Well that's all I've got to say about that...
Wish me luck on this fucking test!
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