late new year resolutions?

Jan 22, 2006 14:03

these past couple weeks have extra rough. i haven't and never am getting along with my mom. the count down until she rents the house is still on. i almost lost the most important person in my life and that is what scared me the most. i've haven't been taking care of myself or treating my body right and that has taken a toll on me also. plus the stress of picking up another job and trying to balence that with school. i dunno this is alot that i need to do and have been procrastinating on. but today i start changing. i'm gonna start taking care of my body and not harming it. eating regularly and eating good food, working out and such. i'm gonna focus on getting a another job, but after i'm through with my school work. i wanna sell my car, and buy something more economical, save the profit i gain on that, and give the rest to my mom. i'm gonna try pay off my debt to my mom which is around 400 now i think. saving money is the biggest commitment i have to make. the time is coming close that i'm going to be moving out and i need to save for my apt. 200 is not going to get me anywhere. i just want to be indepedent and responsible. i want to show my mom that so she will be proud of me, i want to show nick that so we will be able to move in together and get along, and i want to prove to myself that i'm not a failure and i can do what i set out to do. i think the real change i'm gonna make this year is to start beliving in myself. not just start out with doubt. i really want this change to come along, hopefully this is a fresh start for me and a new found happiness i can find once again.
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