i hate waiting for calls...
so today i kinda fucked up. not so bad to the point where its so horrible but to the fact that nick is ignoring my calls. ugh we bicker all the time so whatever, but he's actually mad right now and its dumb to say but it kills me knowing he won't talked to me cause i fucked up. i'm probably over exaggerating but for some reason when he does it, it hurts more than usual. its like i'm so far head over heels that i actually care that he doesn't wanna talk to me. yeah i guess its dumb to say cause i do the same shit to him. i get pissed stop talking to him and ignore him. yeah its not healthy but the more i talk to him the more vunerable i become to him. and its wierd to dive into that again. i really care about him alot. fuck i hate myself, i'm such a sucker. i fall in love so easily. i tell myself guys don't matter, and as soon as he's upset with me, i wanna give the world just to make him feel better. i'm so immature, peace out. here i go to wait by the phone:(