it's a crazy world out there
Hm..I'm not too sure if i want things to work out though.
I didn't lose anyone..they lost me If anything.
It's so hard because im completely aware of whats going on and i dont want anyone to do any fixing.I dont even want to do any fixing myself.I just want to live life..without worries and stress and all that bullshit.
I didn't want anything like this to happen either.And change really DOES stink, but things only change on account if you make them.Because you can do anything, if you really want to.And the fact that you dont care is what tears me apart the most.I dont mean to sound all mushy and stuff cus i dont like it all that much myself, but it really does hurt.
All this change is changing me..I have like nothing to say anymore.I just sit there and keep quiet.I dont even want to talk to you, and it's hard to look at you.
And with all this on my mind all this leads to is thinking.And the more i think the deeper i fall and the sadder i feel.
Thank's for everything though guys. It really means alot to me.Especially you Stef.Thanks go out to you the most simply because you keep me aware of things that are going on and yea,i wanna put it all in the back of my mind and not even go back to it, but i have to.Thats the only way i'll get through all this.
And angela .. You help me smile .. You're so funny i donno what i'd do without you and im only like this on account of your humour and crazy idea's...and ofcourse, your thrist.
and melissa hamelin .. We've been pals since day 1.We've been through so much together and if i lost you,i'd be devistated cus sure we fight but it only makes us close*wink*
we're going to make a fortune off eachother.lol.BFF!
* and i dont even miss you at all.
I didn't lose anyone..they lost me If anything.
It's so hard because im completely aware of whats going on and i dont want anyone to do any fixing.I dont even want to do any fixing myself.I just want to live life..without worries and stress and all that bullshit.
I didn't want anything like this to happen either.And change really DOES stink, but things only change on account if you make them.Because you can do anything, if you really want to.And the fact that you dont care is what tears me apart the most.I dont mean to sound all mushy and stuff cus i dont like it all that much myself, but it really does hurt.
All this change is changing me..I have like nothing to say anymore.I just sit there and keep quiet.I dont even want to talk to you, and it's hard to look at you.
And with all this on my mind all this leads to is thinking.And the more i think the deeper i fall and the sadder i feel.
Thank's for everything though guys. It really means alot to me.Especially you Stef.Thanks go out to you the most simply because you keep me aware of things that are going on and yea,i wanna put it all in the back of my mind and not even go back to it, but i have to.Thats the only way i'll get through all this.
And angela .. You help me smile .. You're so funny i donno what i'd do without you and im only like this on account of your humour and crazy idea's...and ofcourse, your thrist.
and melissa hamelin .. We've been pals since day 1.We've been through so much together and if i lost you,i'd be devistated cus sure we fight but it only makes us close*wink*
we're going to make a fortune off eachother.lol.BFF!
* and i dont even miss you at all.