"yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away.."
I miss being so sure of everything. I miss playing silly little games with my brother. I miss friends from long ago that I never see anymore. I miss when being sick meant a day of bed and tv, not a day of worrying about what I'm gonna have to make up for school. I miss when 10:00 meant The Wonder Years was on nick at night. I miss The Wonder Years itself. I miss watching Saved by the Bell and thinking how I couldn't wait to grow up and go to high school and meet a guy and be like zach and kelly. I miss being completely innocent. I miss playing man hunt every night of summer on my old block with old friends who I never talk to anymore. I miss wearing little mermaid nightgowns and dancing around the house singing and pretending I was different movie characters. I miss being fearless and singing the sun will come out tomorrow at the top of my lungs to anyone who would listen (or who was forced to, haha). I miss jumping on my parents' bed with my brother and trying to do flips. I miss doing that with joanna too on her parents' bed. I miss lemonade stands and flips off the lifeguard hills. I miss playing with dolls and making up stories and games. I miss putting my gymnastics mat out on the lawn and practically breaking every bone in my body trying to do areals and other flips. I miss when Bryan would make things up and trick me into believing them. I miss how everything was just so free. life was fun. now we're all forced to grow up so fast and I just wish I could freeze time and remember that solid feeling of security and happiness.
ever get that feeling like you wasted all that time? like you were too young to realize how great everything was that it's almost impossible to fathom anyone truly appreciating those years. everything seemed so much better. even now looking back, maybe it's the fact that I was seeing it all through innocent eyes, but it just seems like life itself was more innocent then. music was better, tv was better, things were more fun, people's intentions seemed so much more genuine. (but then again, as I've said before, I just don't like living in the time period we are now. that could be part of it.) It just makes me so sad when I think that all that's over and it's never coming back. damn, I'm gonna make a really depressing woman when I'm in my 50s if I feel this way now.
ever get that feeling like you wasted all that time? like you were too young to realize how great everything was that it's almost impossible to fathom anyone truly appreciating those years. everything seemed so much better. even now looking back, maybe it's the fact that I was seeing it all through innocent eyes, but it just seems like life itself was more innocent then. music was better, tv was better, things were more fun, people's intentions seemed so much more genuine. (but then again, as I've said before, I just don't like living in the time period we are now. that could be part of it.) It just makes me so sad when I think that all that's over and it's never coming back. damn, I'm gonna make a really depressing woman when I'm in my 50s if I feel this way now.