I sure wish i could do a backflip
im feeling pretty good.
at a time in my life where there is a wild lack of anything eventful, today made me feel like i acomplished something worth noting. ive been in this weird creative rut for a while, where things just werent flowing how i felt they shouldve. an array of emotions and ideas out of the ass gave me plenty of things to express, there was just no way of putting together any of the pieces to do so. so everything sat in my head jumbling together to form a few mths worth of uneasiness. (pain in the ass) after numerous failed attempts to write, i began avoiding it all together because it would only frustrate me more. which only dug me deeper in rut. but fret not, cornfritters, i believe i shattered that rut completely today! (whoop)
i actually managed to get some pretty concrete ideas translated to paper and i have 2 really good pieces completed that i am proud of. one of which, came from a portal of a new kind. i had no control over that piece. a bit hard to explain, but it was magical. i wish i wasnt as hesitant to sharing as i am. not because im like selfish and wouldnt offer you an oreo or 2 if had some, i swear i would. its moreso my introversion. my pieces are like my tears, and not just anybody can view my sobbings. yknow? anywho, one day ill be able to flaunt my babies proudly and share the experience with you all without hyperventilating hehe. the piece of a new brees were entitiled "Insecurity", just so youre not completely in the dark.
i am also getting prettty dang good at geetar if i do say so myself (:. i already have a band formed in my head. i am just waiting for it to manifest in this reality.
at a time in my life where there is a wild lack of anything eventful, today made me feel like i acomplished something worth noting. ive been in this weird creative rut for a while, where things just werent flowing how i felt they shouldve. an array of emotions and ideas out of the ass gave me plenty of things to express, there was just no way of putting together any of the pieces to do so. so everything sat in my head jumbling together to form a few mths worth of uneasiness. (pain in the ass) after numerous failed attempts to write, i began avoiding it all together because it would only frustrate me more. which only dug me deeper in rut. but fret not, cornfritters, i believe i shattered that rut completely today! (whoop)
i actually managed to get some pretty concrete ideas translated to paper and i have 2 really good pieces completed that i am proud of. one of which, came from a portal of a new kind. i had no control over that piece. a bit hard to explain, but it was magical. i wish i wasnt as hesitant to sharing as i am. not because im like selfish and wouldnt offer you an oreo or 2 if had some, i swear i would. its moreso my introversion. my pieces are like my tears, and not just anybody can view my sobbings. yknow? anywho, one day ill be able to flaunt my babies proudly and share the experience with you all without hyperventilating hehe. the piece of a new brees were entitiled "Insecurity", just so youre not completely in the dark.
i am also getting prettty dang good at geetar if i do say so myself (:. i already have a band formed in my head. i am just waiting for it to manifest in this reality.