Whatever it takes, I know i could make it through.
even after all these years, degrassi still has to be the most intense, screwed up, eventful, train wreck that the world cant help but keep their eyes glued to. from middle school and beyond high school its been in and out of my life and i realize how relaxed it makes me when it is. it allows me to revisit a time where things werent ok, but i was comfortable there. content in a place i (thought) i had no choice but adjust to. it feels good.
and here i am once more in a similar predicament. watching a hurricane accumulate over and over again. lost in intoxicating sights and feelings unable to turn away. a seemingly, inescapable state of my mind. theres very little i can do to calm the storm, for it will blow over when it will - but i have every chance in the world to get away. to turn around and walk away. and after years in a trance my back is turned. ignoring the calls, the promise of commitment, the beauty in the security of the storm. ill cry and whisper my goodbyes.
but i am choosing to leave.
and here i am once more in a similar predicament. watching a hurricane accumulate over and over again. lost in intoxicating sights and feelings unable to turn away. a seemingly, inescapable state of my mind. theres very little i can do to calm the storm, for it will blow over when it will - but i have every chance in the world to get away. to turn around and walk away. and after years in a trance my back is turned. ignoring the calls, the promise of commitment, the beauty in the security of the storm. ill cry and whisper my goodbyes.
but i am choosing to leave.