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i don't know what to do with myself. i've been crying all day and nothing's even happened yet. i'm just scared to death to know what he's really thinking. i'm scared that this person who i've cared about so much for the past 5 months might not care about me the way he used to. it would kill me. i need to talk to him, but i think he's at work and he hasn't called yet. i cried right in front of him last night and he was so surprised he didn't know what to do or say. i can't decide whether his lack of comforting me (aside from holding and kissing my hand) was because he was surprised to see that i was upset or because he just didn't care.
i want to wait for him to call me and show some sign of concern but i dont know if i can wait until 9 for him to get off work. and if he doesnt call when he gets off work...i don't know what to do. i wish someone could be here with me right now. but right now, i'm all alone.
every time i dry my eyes from the tears i start crying all over again.
i want to wait for him to call me and show some sign of concern but i dont know if i can wait until 9 for him to get off work. and if he doesnt call when he gets off work...i don't know what to do. i wish someone could be here with me right now. but right now, i'm all alone.
every time i dry my eyes from the tears i start crying all over again.