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im sick again. i started getting sick last night but i didnt realize it and today i woke feeling like total ass. sometimes i think that i have a little black cloud raining down on me and me only. its ok though i'll get over it.
in other business. i don't understand why i love some kids to death when in reality they really don't give a rats cock about me. i hardly ever speak to them and its not that i don't try, but its hard when only one side cares. it's funny cause i thought of all people i wouldn't be one of the ones they would forget about but i guess you have to be a total fuckin asshole in order to get some lovin' your way. some people i can't live without but im learning to adapt because not even do i get a respond to a message that i send, nothing, to them i am of no importance. well im done caring and complaining that's just fine with me. then there are others that i adore but they cant understand what i go through no matter what i tell them or how i explain. they will continue to write messages that don't really seem like they are directed towards me but they are. it makes me soo sad.. soo i give up.
in other news my birthday is coming up OCT. 27 i will be 20 yrs old. dennis will be here ( not that he gives a shit when my bday is ) but i think its lovely that he will be here.
i have so many things running through my head and i love soo many people. and i miss soo many people. so to all of my friends in another state ( and kat ) this is my last i miss you and my last i love you, after this i won't embarass myself anymore. so i miss you guys and i love you guys and i hope to see you all, if you want to.
this is why i don't differ from what i do or hang out with heartbreaks or dissapointments, i'd rather be where everything is carefree.
alot of people just don't understand.
+ i want some good vegan food. ariel come back.
ox e
in other business. i don't understand why i love some kids to death when in reality they really don't give a rats cock about me. i hardly ever speak to them and its not that i don't try, but its hard when only one side cares. it's funny cause i thought of all people i wouldn't be one of the ones they would forget about but i guess you have to be a total fuckin asshole in order to get some lovin' your way. some people i can't live without but im learning to adapt because not even do i get a respond to a message that i send, nothing, to them i am of no importance. well im done caring and complaining that's just fine with me. then there are others that i adore but they cant understand what i go through no matter what i tell them or how i explain. they will continue to write messages that don't really seem like they are directed towards me but they are. it makes me soo sad.. soo i give up.
in other news my birthday is coming up OCT. 27 i will be 20 yrs old. dennis will be here ( not that he gives a shit when my bday is ) but i think its lovely that he will be here.
i have so many things running through my head and i love soo many people. and i miss soo many people. so to all of my friends in another state ( and kat ) this is my last i miss you and my last i love you, after this i won't embarass myself anymore. so i miss you guys and i love you guys and i hope to see you all, if you want to.
this is why i don't differ from what i do or hang out with heartbreaks or dissapointments, i'd rather be where everything is carefree.
alot of people just don't understand.
+ i want some good vegan food. ariel come back.
ox e