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I'll tell you one thing. I'm glad my twenties are over. I just re-gained access to this account after being gone since 2009 and what an eye opener it is to go back and re-read some of my previous entries. The last entry was made a little over a month before I OD'd and seeing it now breaks my heart for the woman I was back then. So sad, so emotional and so confused for such a long time. I can sense the insincerity in my happier posts - an attempt at convincing myself that I was really not with the wrong person and in the wrong place in my life.
I'm glad my twenties are over because my thirtieth year has been a great year. I've been very level headed emotionally, and while there are still those ups and downs that we all experience in life - they all seem very normal to me. I've really come back to center. I know who I am now and I'm happy. I've re-built my relationship with my family and friends and I've also recently given up Diet Coke, which if you knew me you would know that it was a terrible habit of mine...like six pack a day habit. It was my first major push at self improvement. Now that I've regained my whole self its time to start letting go of the bad parts of me. One thing at a time, there, though.
In October I made a move down to Orem, UT. What an experience that has been. I've gained a new roommate that is fabulous and loads of fun to be around, I'm only 10 minutes from work and....nope that's it. The only real benefits of the move :D Orem is a small town, really, that has grown a lot in recent years but hasn't really changed its essence. There isn't much to do for someone like me around town. There is one local bar called The Hitching Post and it's a crazy little dive bar. Not the kind of place to go kick back and have a good beer. If I wanted something different I would have to go to Provo to a small bar there (ABGs) that seems to be trying to be Provo's version of Burt's Tiki Club in Salt Lake. I don't know if you've ever been there, but its definitely a seedy underbelly kind of place, so I've been reluctant to check out ABGs.
I have more to say, but its been a long time since I've exercised my writing muscles and I'm getting a cramp.
I'm glad my twenties are over because my thirtieth year has been a great year. I've been very level headed emotionally, and while there are still those ups and downs that we all experience in life - they all seem very normal to me. I've really come back to center. I know who I am now and I'm happy. I've re-built my relationship with my family and friends and I've also recently given up Diet Coke, which if you knew me you would know that it was a terrible habit of mine...like six pack a day habit. It was my first major push at self improvement. Now that I've regained my whole self its time to start letting go of the bad parts of me. One thing at a time, there, though.
In October I made a move down to Orem, UT. What an experience that has been. I've gained a new roommate that is fabulous and loads of fun to be around, I'm only 10 minutes from work and....nope that's it. The only real benefits of the move :D Orem is a small town, really, that has grown a lot in recent years but hasn't really changed its essence. There isn't much to do for someone like me around town. There is one local bar called The Hitching Post and it's a crazy little dive bar. Not the kind of place to go kick back and have a good beer. If I wanted something different I would have to go to Provo to a small bar there (ABGs) that seems to be trying to be Provo's version of Burt's Tiki Club in Salt Lake. I don't know if you've ever been there, but its definitely a seedy underbelly kind of place, so I've been reluctant to check out ABGs.
I have more to say, but its been a long time since I've exercised my writing muscles and I'm getting a cramp.