Maybe, Maybe not....
Whatever happened to Live Journal? I remember back in high school it was the shit and everyone used to write in it all day. We all talked about it and it was the "My Space" of that era.... Now it just hides in the shadows of our past....
I miss this thing.. I have been thinking about it lately and I could not remember my password...but Now i remember it. I think im going to write in this thing more often than not. Society must know whats going on in my head once again....
For about two years now i have been on a confused trip trancending to my adulthood.... and may i add it was very confusing. I lived better than a rockstar!! Drugs alcohol...minus the sex bc its just plain uncomfortable based on my past experiances....
My family thinks I am sleeping around with this boy and that.... oh if they only knew i was a complete lesbian! lol.... I had a boyfriend the other day and i got dumped sorta.... I was a jerk to him.. but not on purpose. It sorta just happens...thats why i have been single since the steven times. i was 19!! i mean ive seen boys here and there.... first there was val..then tony... then alex...
those were the only serious relationships ive had since steven...
althought i dont love him anymore or even care for him at all he is still in my head but only bc i wish to share with someone what i had with him.
i was happy sometimes, and other times i was NOT. anyways i dont want to talk about him. thats why i labeled him "the one we dont speak of" lol
I spent half my life writing page after page about him. Literally half my life! since like 6th grade.... omg im such a loser.
so yeah.... i was datin this guy and now its over.... i have been sad for the past 2 days bc he was actually perfect for me. I mean I couldn't find anything wrong with him except that sometimes he was a little loud but he always made me happy. but then again i only knew him for like 4 months or less....
I was looking for someone to be with and potentially marry someday. He wasn't. I remember him saying, and i quote "I hope I'm not married by 28"
so that right there told me we werent going anywhere. I guess its a good thing we broke things off. I want to get married by 25. and have kids at like 27. *sigh*
One day, after a long struggle, I will find the real PERFECT guy... or girl... I don't care. I just wanna love someone.
My new neighboorhood is pretty lonely. I dont know anybody out here. I miss my friends really bad. I had a dream about my pretend brother miggi. I hate him for doing what he did to me which was BETRAY ME!!! that jerk.... but i still miss all the fun we had together. He knocked up some bitch whore that doesnt deserve him but fuck it. all he wanted to do was love someone too, just like i want.
he moved to alabama or something. I know he doesnt love her though. I know he is going to divorce her in a few. Thats if he even does marry her....
Val keeps ruining my life. I can't stand him sometimes. My life was great until he showed up at my birthday party and we became sorta friends again. He ruined My relationship with alex and now he ruined my life. But i suppose its my fault too for letting this happen. Im just afraid of what he is capable of. He always does this.... even since when i was 16.
I made lots of new friends this year... but not ones where i live!!
i kissed another girl this friday. it was fun. she touched my boob...then she told me she was married... that bitch. my love ended there when her husband came out of NO WHERE n smiled.
i fall for chicks way too fast.
that lisa bitch.... grrr
what else...???
i wanna move back to chicago!!
I miss this thing.. I have been thinking about it lately and I could not remember my password...but Now i remember it. I think im going to write in this thing more often than not. Society must know whats going on in my head once again....
For about two years now i have been on a confused trip trancending to my adulthood.... and may i add it was very confusing. I lived better than a rockstar!! Drugs alcohol...minus the sex bc its just plain uncomfortable based on my past experiances....
My family thinks I am sleeping around with this boy and that.... oh if they only knew i was a complete lesbian! lol.... I had a boyfriend the other day and i got dumped sorta.... I was a jerk to him.. but not on purpose. It sorta just happens...thats why i have been single since the steven times. i was 19!! i mean ive seen boys here and there.... first there was val..then tony... then alex...
those were the only serious relationships ive had since steven...
althought i dont love him anymore or even care for him at all he is still in my head but only bc i wish to share with someone what i had with him.
i was happy sometimes, and other times i was NOT. anyways i dont want to talk about him. thats why i labeled him "the one we dont speak of" lol
I spent half my life writing page after page about him. Literally half my life! since like 6th grade.... omg im such a loser.
so yeah.... i was datin this guy and now its over.... i have been sad for the past 2 days bc he was actually perfect for me. I mean I couldn't find anything wrong with him except that sometimes he was a little loud but he always made me happy. but then again i only knew him for like 4 months or less....
I was looking for someone to be with and potentially marry someday. He wasn't. I remember him saying, and i quote "I hope I'm not married by 28"
so that right there told me we werent going anywhere. I guess its a good thing we broke things off. I want to get married by 25. and have kids at like 27. *sigh*
One day, after a long struggle, I will find the real PERFECT guy... or girl... I don't care. I just wanna love someone.
My new neighboorhood is pretty lonely. I dont know anybody out here. I miss my friends really bad. I had a dream about my pretend brother miggi. I hate him for doing what he did to me which was BETRAY ME!!! that jerk.... but i still miss all the fun we had together. He knocked up some bitch whore that doesnt deserve him but fuck it. all he wanted to do was love someone too, just like i want.
he moved to alabama or something. I know he doesnt love her though. I know he is going to divorce her in a few. Thats if he even does marry her....
Val keeps ruining my life. I can't stand him sometimes. My life was great until he showed up at my birthday party and we became sorta friends again. He ruined My relationship with alex and now he ruined my life. But i suppose its my fault too for letting this happen. Im just afraid of what he is capable of. He always does this.... even since when i was 16.
I made lots of new friends this year... but not ones where i live!!
i kissed another girl this friday. it was fun. she touched my boob...then she told me she was married... that bitch. my love ended there when her husband came out of NO WHERE n smiled.
i fall for chicks way too fast.
that lisa bitch.... grrr
what else...???
i wanna move back to chicago!!