Are we dogs when we cut?...

[sin_angel]

i promised my mother, my friends and myself that i would never cut myself again. its been about 2 months though, and although i thought about picking up a knife or razor or something i kept my promise. and it wasnt until monday night that i cut myself. after i heard what a bad person i was just blaming others for my mistakes i began to cry. my "friend" said these words to me, telling me that i should either die now or think about it because i would always be hated. in the back of my head, i feel as though i REALLY am a bad person, and i just wanted someone to tell me that this wasnt true! that i was indeed good. but i found no one . so i just took the razor blade that was right next to my bed and i just ran it through my arms. it was as a relief, to let out the pain that i was holding in. that i HAD BEEN HOLDING IN for years now. ubt at the same time i felt that i was punishing myself... for being so bad. for being such a hated person.... in the end i just suffocated myself until i fell asleep. in the morning the blood was still there and nothing had changed.

am i so bad that i must die each night before i wake??