Oh lord I haven't updated in forever
Imagine for a second, no fame and no spotlight, no pushy paparazzi chasing you down the street with cameras, lights flashing in your face every point five seconds when all you want to do is some shopping and a stop for lunch on a Saturday afternoon. Nobody knows your name, and nobody gives you a second look. No worries that if you make an appearance at a bar or nightclub it will be the headline in a magazine the next day, nobody cared about who you were dating and whether or not you were making out in the parking lot of the local grocery store, if you wanted to get drunk and high off drugs, nobody gave it a second thought because hey, it's your life. And you'd know for once what that P word meant, the one that is non-existent in our lives, Privacy. It seems like an entirely different world out there for people who aren't household names, I wouldn't change my life for the world, but on occasion it's nice to daydream what it would be like. I grew up like this though, if I didn't want it at any point all I had to do was say the word, and it could have been over. But, I adored it, we both did. Being on set, going to special appearances, being entertainment for kids of our age, we loved it all, there was no way I'd trade it in for anything. All I'd change is to have a possible five seconds of privacy, or maybe more, but hey beggars can't be choosers now, can they?
I am sure there are a myriad of moments that the world would classify as the moment, in fact I've read in numerous places where the media has labeled my sisters lip synching incident is what trashed our "images." To be completely honest, what image, I don't remember signing up for any so called image. I was just me, and the world was expected to take me or leave me the way that I was, not put me under some image category. I can't get hateful though, I would be silly for that considering this is all very much expected of the world today. Back to my point, they have pin-pointed Ashlee’s personal dealings along with my supposed sex scandal(s)??? as the points in our lives when again, our wholesome images. It bothers me for obvious reasons as to why they'd point it out what my sister had to deal with, it's as if to say, 'hey you because you had a health issue you've ruined your career!' Eh, maybe not so extreme, but I can't help but become defensive about the topic because it is such a sensitive and personal one. Perhaps it isn't my place to discuss it, after all, it didn't happen to me but it effected me. What affects my sister, will forever affect me just as much. She hurts, I hurt ten times more, she cries I cry harder, she laughs I laugh harder. She doesn't even have to say anything, I will just always knows, very strong bond. Why it happens and why it occurs between us, I don't care about logistics, I'm just glad it does and life is so much more amazing with her on the ride.
Okay to end this off on a nice note, brunette, blonde or slightly red but not quite***?