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I'm sorry for the lack of updates... i meant to update but honestly i just didn't have the energy to piss and moan about the same old shit. but here it goes. last friday i went to madison and stayed over at malloris, which was pretty cool. then on saturday me and lindsey stayed at stans with some people. we drank, smoked, the usual. joe asked me for my number, he's cute. i'm not sure if we really "click" though. and honestly, i dont know if i have the energy right now to try to start a relationship. he texts me nonstop during school though, which makes the day go by faster. I hate hearing about other couples, except for jenni and wes because theyre adorable and dont bother me, but a lot of couples make me angry. im just jealous. I applied to be a DECA officer today, I hope i get it. Brouxinellis hasn't called me back about the job yet, hopefully I'll find out sometime this week whether or not I got the job. Also, CJ called me last night. I guess he's had a really bad week and is moving back to his dad's house. he also told me that he got in a huge fight with his brother and the cops were involved. oh boy, I'm just not sure what to say anymore. He makes me think that he really cares about me, and I know he does, but I need more out of a relationship. I'm raising my standards, I deserve someone who is amazing and makes me happy. I regret being depressed through much of my relationship with cj because I was always down, even though he always understood when I was being a bitch/guilt-tripper. Well my medication makes me feel better, but I'm not completely at a neutral state of happiness (my best way to describe "normal"). I would liek to believe ethat I'm getting there though, but the thing about clinical depression--it never goes away, you jsut learn to treat it. Anyways, on a whole new subject-the oc is done this season (tear). Lindsey gets to stay at my house this weekend, her parents are going up north. I hope for a wild weekend. I'll feel better once I get some rest and relaxation time.