So, again a long time....
So, again it's been a long time since I've posted and a lot has changed...well, not a lot but...Well, my dad died. He had a heart attack on January 2nd and he died. I guess I'm in the stage of 'denial'. It's weird because I don't live anywhere near any of my family. I can get on and go to work and act normal most of the time. I can hang out with friends and laugh. But no one seems to want to talk about it. I don't know if I want to talk about it either, honestly, but I wish people would stop hiding from it. It's the strangest, most absurd feeling I have ever felt, I can't even explain it. I'm getting pressure to move home to be with my mom because she has disabilities. Mostly pressure from my sister. I don't know what I want to do. I honestly don't even know if I'm happy here or not. I like it, and I have a lot of fun times. But I have a lot of lonely times too. Mostly, I'm just a whole lot of sadness and a whole lot of confusion all balled into one angsty little body.