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Okay, so the only thing I look forward to now is Lyric coming back to Cali! OMG, i'm so happy because without that thought I would be lost!! Hubby's still on his "thing" he has going! I miss Lyric a lot though and I can't wait to see her! I have so much fun when she's here! Anywayz, I got an "A" on my essay I wrote last week and I'm proud of it!!! School has been going really good even though it's lots of work. My brother said I'm losing lots of weight. I don't see it but maybe I am. Quanzell made me mad yet again yesterday before I went to school. I had to sit through class with my mind wondering and couldn't focus on anything the professor was saying! When I got home he apologized and and said he wishes I wouldn't have this "i don't care, whatever" attitude with him. I wish I didn't have to have that attitude either but that's what he's pushing me to. I try and I try to make everything better but seems like when things start to look up, he does something to bring them back down. Maybe he doesn't want to be in the relationship anymore...... but if that's the problem I wish he would just say something. Work has been going pretty good too even though I got a virus on my cpu so bad the people had to come take it and fix it and clean all files out of it and bring it back. I felt bad so I didn't download any messengers or anything for that matter when I got it back. Well life is life and I have nothing more to say....
Random thoughts:
Was I ever in your thoughts?
Was I there to lead the way?
Was I there to fill a void?
Was I there as a salutary voice?
When I am gone, will you feel me further?
will you miss me? will it hurt?
will you wonder where I am?
will you imagine who stands besides me?
will you cry alone at night?
will you miss my kiss? My touch?
will you miss my smell?
Deny it, say it was all fake. I dare you!
To say my love was fixated, is to deny the person you are!
With hostility, I write this, with fear...I let go.
You leave me nothing but a bitter and cold memory...
I, well, I leave you the replenishment of my sweet and warm memory...
And that is more than I can ever give...
Random thoughts:
Was I ever in your thoughts?
Was I there to lead the way?
Was I there to fill a void?
Was I there as a salutary voice?
When I am gone, will you feel me further?
will you miss me? will it hurt?
will you wonder where I am?
will you imagine who stands besides me?
will you cry alone at night?
will you miss my kiss? My touch?
will you miss my smell?
Deny it, say it was all fake. I dare you!
To say my love was fixated, is to deny the person you are!
With hostility, I write this, with fear...I let go.
You leave me nothing but a bitter and cold memory...
I, well, I leave you the replenishment of my sweet and warm memory...
And that is more than I can ever give...