from my myspace blog
i put this in my myspace blog, then i was like hey, i have other peeps in lj that would love to hear about how things are going, please help me!
well everything sucks, and im not saying that to ruin your day. but, why is it so hard to understand how serious i am. maybe im a little sarcastic at times, i dont know, but when i say something serious, i mean it. for example, whats been bothering me for the past week... well... i told a girl, you know who, i like her... actually, ive always liked her and not a day goes by that i dont think of her. and yeah, she doesnt feel the same way anymore about me, so im screwed.
but you cant help who you like and i would give anything to be with her. but even though she says she understands, she begs me to just move on...
just move on? did she not hear what i just said? here i am spilling my guts on all the feelings that ive kept from her, being completley serious in every word i said and im suppose to move on. just find another girl, go on a date with someone else. as simple as it sounds, for me its not. why would i want to just move on to some other girl when i just spent 3 hours explaining how much i couldnt stand being without her. if i could easily move on to someone else then obviously i didnt mean what i confessed to her earlier, RIGHT?! i dont know, maybe im stupid, I AM! i know its not gonna happen, why? cause she says it wont. yet i still cant let go of it...
i let go of it for years, i cant let go of it now. i had the chance, but i tried to avoid it, for way too long.
so now im here, at home, refreshing my myspace page and switching between aim and my cell phone, hoping, praying to God that my wish will come true, even though it wont. I have no control of it, because she doesnt understand how serious i am. im here, trying to move on just to make her happy, but its making me feel like shit
so is this post the first step in moving on? not really, its a confession to my friends that all of you, all 222 of you were right. no matter how i horribly tried to hide it, you saw through my lies and covering up how much i really love that girl . and at least one of you weekly reminds me of what you want for me, for us, so thanks for not giving up while at times i did.
so here's my question, should i give up now? is this the end of the line? i dont really have to go into detail cause if you know me well enough, you know exactly who and what im talking about. it may be what i want or dont want to hear, but i need to here it, i need help.
and to the girl i like... your probably gonna be mad at me for posting this, you might just think im a freak, but this isnt a fling, you know it. at work, at home, going out, trying to have fun, all i can think about is you. YOU! you must be tired of hearing it but you know what sucks, i dont want to stop thinking about you, because no matter what you do to to make me mad...your the most amazing person in the world
and thats coming straight from the heart, no sarcasm here.
well everything sucks, and im not saying that to ruin your day. but, why is it so hard to understand how serious i am. maybe im a little sarcastic at times, i dont know, but when i say something serious, i mean it. for example, whats been bothering me for the past week... well... i told a girl, you know who, i like her... actually, ive always liked her and not a day goes by that i dont think of her. and yeah, she doesnt feel the same way anymore about me, so im screwed.
but you cant help who you like and i would give anything to be with her. but even though she says she understands, she begs me to just move on...
just move on? did she not hear what i just said? here i am spilling my guts on all the feelings that ive kept from her, being completley serious in every word i said and im suppose to move on. just find another girl, go on a date with someone else. as simple as it sounds, for me its not. why would i want to just move on to some other girl when i just spent 3 hours explaining how much i couldnt stand being without her. if i could easily move on to someone else then obviously i didnt mean what i confessed to her earlier, RIGHT?! i dont know, maybe im stupid, I AM! i know its not gonna happen, why? cause she says it wont. yet i still cant let go of it...
i let go of it for years, i cant let go of it now. i had the chance, but i tried to avoid it, for way too long.
so now im here, at home, refreshing my myspace page and switching between aim and my cell phone, hoping, praying to God that my wish will come true, even though it wont. I have no control of it, because she doesnt understand how serious i am. im here, trying to move on just to make her happy, but its making me feel like shit
so is this post the first step in moving on? not really, its a confession to my friends that all of you, all 222 of you were right. no matter how i horribly tried to hide it, you saw through my lies and covering up how much i really love that girl . and at least one of you weekly reminds me of what you want for me, for us, so thanks for not giving up while at times i did.
so here's my question, should i give up now? is this the end of the line? i dont really have to go into detail cause if you know me well enough, you know exactly who and what im talking about. it may be what i want or dont want to hear, but i need to here it, i need help.
and to the girl i like... your probably gonna be mad at me for posting this, you might just think im a freak, but this isnt a fling, you know it. at work, at home, going out, trying to have fun, all i can think about is you. YOU! you must be tired of hearing it but you know what sucks, i dont want to stop thinking about you, because no matter what you do to to make me mad...your the most amazing person in the world
and thats coming straight from the heart, no sarcasm here.