wow...
It's night like tonight that make me just envy everyone else in the world...
I could be places tonight... got invited to a party... but I dunno...
well I do know... I want that "someone" - ya know... a boyfriend... a love interest... someone to hang out with and just have a kicka ss time... wow.... he'll never know that I find him attractive and a fun person in general... (this is not the same person - I am over him... :-D) - wow... that sounded a little skanky... is it okay if I change who I like so much? Really it just goes around in a circle between three guys... none of which would ever date me... so why I like them... I dunno.... damn you human nature!
Oh well... it happens to the best of us... ya know?
focus on my classes... no one NEEDS a relationship....
:::EDIT:::
I am feeling a lot better now... sorry about the minor depressive ranting.... Probably my most favorite football player gave me a cllas to see what I was doing.. so he came over and hung out for a while - which cheered me up! He's a crazy kid... he was attempting to teach me how to speak with a New York accent... which failed horribly!
I've realized something... I am not ready for a relationship.... there's a whole psychological reasoning behind it... that'd I'd rather not put in here... I could foster a relationship... and it would be wonderful.... but I'd have to have a good long talk with the person.. expressing concerns... So right now... I am taking the stand that I've taken all year...
"A relationship is something that interests me right now... not something that I need.... I can live without it... and I am NOT going to go out on ANY limbs to tell ANYONE that I like them... I hate to say it.. but they would ahve to make the first move.... it happens!"
wow....
I could be places tonight... got invited to a party... but I dunno...
well I do know... I want that "someone" - ya know... a boyfriend... a love interest... someone to hang out with and just have a kicka ss time... wow.... he'll never know that I find him attractive and a fun person in general... (this is not the same person - I am over him... :-D) - wow... that sounded a little skanky... is it okay if I change who I like so much? Really it just goes around in a circle between three guys... none of which would ever date me... so why I like them... I dunno.... damn you human nature!
Oh well... it happens to the best of us... ya know?
focus on my classes... no one NEEDS a relationship....
:::EDIT:::
I am feeling a lot better now... sorry about the minor depressive ranting.... Probably my most favorite football player gave me a cllas to see what I was doing.. so he came over and hung out for a while - which cheered me up! He's a crazy kid... he was attempting to teach me how to speak with a New York accent... which failed horribly!
I've realized something... I am not ready for a relationship.... there's a whole psychological reasoning behind it... that'd I'd rather not put in here... I could foster a relationship... and it would be wonderful.... but I'd have to have a good long talk with the person.. expressing concerns... So right now... I am taking the stand that I've taken all year...
"A relationship is something that interests me right now... not something that I need.... I can live without it... and I am NOT going to go out on ANY limbs to tell ANYONE that I like them... I hate to say it.. but they would ahve to make the first move.... it happens!"
wow....