You and I have lived through many things
And if you want to talk about what will be
Come and sit with me and cry on my shoulder, on a friend...
And if you want to talk about it anymore
Lay here on the floor and cry on my shoulder once again...
It's been awhile since I've shown my appreciation for the people in my life. You know the ones... those who make getting up in the morning worth it. They make the pain and suffering feel like blessings, because at least you're alive to be with them. To each of these people I would like to say a little something. (p.s. people who won't read this by any means aren't included, i.e. Allen... but he already knows)
Please ignore typos.
Jenn- Of course you're number one on this list. You're always my number one (and the boys will just deal with it). You have been through so much. I have been through it with you, just as you have been with me through all of my struggles. You are this shining star in the darkness of my life that sometimes blinds me from seeing anything else. No matter how far down, or up high my soul goes, you follow me. Pulling me back down to earth, or out of the depths that I sometimes sink into, it's your hands, your love, and your dedication to this friendship that keeps me fighting. You are destined for glory. You are destined to show the world that it will not break you. I see so much strength in you, and I have to say I'm grateful that you always have some left over to lend me. I love you more than you'll ever know. You are the love of my life.
Steph- Or Kat, whatever lol. God I'm so proud of you. You've become, and you're still becoming the woman I always knew you could be. I have NEVER EVER lost my faith in you, even when sometimes I feel like you've lost faith in yourself. We have a bond that neither time, human intervention, or even distance can break. You are my Dundalk Pirate, you are my neighborhood playmate, and you will always be important to me. I don't know anyone who has stayed as true to themselves as you have. You know everything there is to know about me. You've seen it all. The good, the bad, the ugly, and you still love me. I love the fact that you call me everyday, just for updates. You don't call cause what you have to say is that important, but because you think I'm important enough to be told. That makes my heart burst. You brighten my days, and you calm all my aching feelings of "omg is there anyone out there who really cares?" I love you so much. (now get your ass down here lol)
Chelsea- I know you usually don't read my livejournal. It's not your thing. But that's something I LOVE about you. You've always done YOUR THING, not someone elses. You have been my partner in growing up. The first to know about losing certain things... haha. The first person I had conversations about important things with, like the first time I got drunk, or smoked, etc etc. You have always been my guardian angel. You're my bestest friend, and probably my soul mate. I don't have to tell you how i feel, you just get it, hell I think you prolly feel it. You ARE my sister. You're family is mine and mine yours. You're the person that it REALLY TRULY doesn't matter how often we talk to eachother. We see eachother and pick up right where we left off. It's an amazing feeling to know that you'll always be there for me and right alongside of me. Next to my mom and sister you're the closest thing I have ever known to family. You're smart, beautiful, and full of this radiant energy that I'll never get sick of. I love you, and I miss you everyday we are apart.
Tori- You knew I was getting to you lol. You are the craziest mutha fucka I have ever met, and I swear to the stars in the sky that without you in my life it would all be BLAH. We ain't nothing but canabals anyway, right? Who else could I make fun of cannablism with?! No one! You are such an inspiration to me. I sometimes find myself envious of certain qualities you have. Like your ability to forgive, to look at things optimistically, and to love unrequitedly. But I have to say that it's not the jealousy of these characterisitics that I love, it's the fact that sometimes they rub off on me. You honestly do make me a better person. You make every day a little happier. Being a bridesmaid for you was one of my most cherished experiences, and I feel so blessed that someone like you loves me the way you do. I'm so happy that you love me for me, even though I'm a pain in your ass sometimes. I think you amazing tori gavigan, and I swear to god if you ever leave my life i will go insane from the lack of craziness. I love you my dear.
Rach- You have no clue how uplifting it was to hear that your life is going the way you want it to lately. I've seen you over the past four years searching and waiting for what you deserve from the world, all the time knowing it would come, but never being able to help you obtain it. I want nothing more from this world but for it to make the people I love happy, including and maybe especially you. I've felt so lucky to have made the most out of our friendship. I am so happy that winter break brought us so close, when i'd always felt like there was a gap I wanted to fill between us. There is something that you bring to my life that no one else can. No matter what we're doing, whether it be spreadin crazy rumors about people that fuck us over, sitting around in CVS for no apparent reason, or driving in my shitmobile making up crazy songs about your loving dick, it's always fun. ALWAYS. You can take anything and make it worthwhile. You have so much potential, and I can not wait to see you explode it upon the world. I miss you so very much, and I can't wait to come home and go to the cheap-o movies with you. I love you Rach-burr.
Kate- My Etak. Why is it that two people who have so much in common, such strong wills, and flourished minds can butt heads so much? I'm taking a stand right now. No longer are we allowed to fight. NOT ABOUT ANYTHING. We have been too close for too long. We've been friends with eachother longer than any other group members, and we're still friends for a reason. That reason is because we love eachother. And I do love you. I love you so much that I have been willing to fight for you by fighting with you. You are so intelligent Kate, and you have a great heart with wonderful intentions, and you really think it's important to be the change you want to see in the world and that's so admirable. You've always made me reassess myself. You make me challenge myself and you make sure that I don't rest on my laurels, or take for granted that the choices I make are good ones. You do something for me that no one else can do... you make accept that i'm just as wrong as the next person. This might sound wierd to you, but I think that I love that about you more than I love anything about anyone else. Being humble isn't easy, realizing your fallability is difficult, and you force me to better myself by doing so. You are going to kick this world's ass and become everything you hope to be. I just want you to know that it's hard trying to find that person you want to be, but that I think you're wonderful and amazing just as you are. I always have. That's why I love you, because I know who you are, and that person is perfect just the way she is.
Christa- You're my soulmate. We've already had this discussion. You know I would jump in front of a bus for you. You have the biggest heart I've ever connected with, and your ability to see the goos in this world can not be described with simple words. You understand me, and I understand you. It doesn't matter if we don't see things quite the same way, what matters to us is that we both accept the others opinion. You have always taken what I had to say into more than consideration, but to another level of actual comprehension and appreciation. You have this amazing way of making me feel safe and cared about even from miles away. I want you to know that no matter where you life takes you, you always have a friend at home waiting for you. I love you so much.
Bekah- Everything I have to say to you, is probably what you would expect. From the first day we met, I felt it. I knew we would always be connected. It really sucks that life pulled us apart for awhile. It sucks we weren't able to have the normal simple relationship we deserved. But I think it's better this way. We have come to realize how much one another means to eachother and if it weren't for all of the crappy stuff we probably wouldn't appreciate our friendhsip as much as we do. I know this sounds akward but you're "such an inspiration to the ways that I would never ever choose to be." There is so much about you that I wish I had inside of me. You see the world in this special way that only you can offer. You love freely. You give without expectation. And you forgive with all of your heart. I love the way we can not see eachother, or talk for like ever, but we come back together and it all makes sense. IT JUST FEELS RIGHT. You will always be my friend. I have never, and will never give up on us. You mean so much to me, and I'll always always love you.
Katie Iberle- I miss you. I know I say that alot and it sounds like I'm full of shit sometimes, but it's the truth. I read everyword of your livejournal. I think about you and even talk about you alot. It's always with "Well Katie, my only real friend at Fordham..." and that's because you left an impression on me. There's no way in hell I'll ever be able to forget you. You see in the world these beautiful facets. You describe things the way my mind sees them but cannot put into words. Yet you words so loftily, as if they could never portray the ideas you have. I doubt they could. You are complex and simple. Extroverted and internalized. You are so many amazing things, and you showed me so much about life in such a small period of time. I look forward to the day when I see you again. So just so you know, I miss you, and you're always in my heart.
Roe- You are my roeseph. It doesn't matter what has happened, or what might in the future. You'll always be that red headed, freckle faced kid that I fell in love with as a freshman in highschool. I think it's funny how much intuition you have at that age. It's as if you know that no matter what comes or goes this person means more than all of it. You have always meant more to me than any of it. I have so much faith in you and your abilities. You will succeed. I just know it. Your passion for music and the world of music amazes me. I have never felt so strongly about something that wasn't human as you do. You really do inspire me to go out into the world and have passion, and live for what you love, and give it all you have. You really do hit something inside of me that I've been trying to find for so long. I will always think of you as one of my best friends roe, and I hope you would say the same thing of me. I love you.
Sam Hook- YOU ARE FANTASTIC. I don't think you realize how much I respect you. I have never though of you as the kid who was a year younger than me or any of that crap like I do some of your counterparts. You have always raised yourself up to the same playing field as the rest of us, if not the field above us. You are so dedicated to everything you try to take on, and that includes your friendships. I've never felt like you've strayed from me at all... I just feel as though you're out there achieving all of your dreams. I'm so fucking proud of you. You've always shown me that thinking of you as one of the best of your year was the right decision. You've never ever disappointed me. I swear to god sam there is a girl out there that i'm so jealous of because she's gonna end up with you. You have so much to offer. You're a gorgeous person sam, inside and out, and no matter where in the country we are, or where we end up in the end, you'll always be one of my favs. I love you!
Kadie- Hey crazy lady. I adore you. You seriously inspire the shit out of me. You make me want to go into the world and make something beautiful. You're so incredibly unique, and I respect how you are just yourself and you enjoy every moment of it. And I have to say I enjoy every moment I get to be a part of your life. And you cut hair so fucking well... hrmmm which reminds me, I need a trim, think you might be able to handle that when I get home? And I know I always say I want to spend more time with you, but I mean it! And just so you know, I think you'll find that place you're looking for, the one where you'll be happy and be able to go after all of those things you want from life. I can't wait to go to stores and buy clothes by Sich lol. I LOVE YOU!!!
Sophia- I know this semester has been... well wierd. But I do love you. You've showed how to look at the world in a way I never ever have seen through anyone else. You are yourself, no matter what. You don't care what happens because of it cause you know in the end you're going to be happy with your decision to follow your heart. You have been a great roomate (a pain in the ass once in awhile, but aren't we all) and I'm going to miss you. But I'll always remember all the amazing time we spent together. I love you.
Mardee- Yes you! I just wanted to tell you that your persistence and determination to say fuck the world I'm going somehwhere is a breath of fresh air. For someone who has taken life's curve balls numerous times, your ability to fall seven times and get up eight shows me that anyone can succeed in life if they really do put their mind to it. Your talent is insurmountable. I'm so glad that I'll be able to tell people I know you when you become a star. I'm gonna name drop you like a hot patato. And YES, that's a compliment. You fucking rock and I love you.
Mal Mal- February 17, what else can I say. When you share a birthday with someone, you also share alot more. I love your honesty and you're ability to be comfortable in your own skin. You are the most imperfect piece of perfection I have ever seen. You make everything about yourself beautiful and you look at the world and say, "Bitch, you should be grateful I'm here." And you're right. We should be, and I am. Like I said to Mardee, I can't wait till your famous so I can tell everyone we're friends. i'm so proud of you and your ambition and drive. If being awesome was a contest, you'd win. I love you Mal.
Courtney- DOn't be surprised I have you on this list. Just because we don't spend time together, and haven't for a long time, the fact that you took the time to say "Hey, I found you! And I'm gonna keep up with your life now." shows alot about your character. It also shows me that even as an 8 year old I made pretty good friend decisions. I think you've turned out to be a great women. You have a free spirit and a very unique point of view about the world around. I love the way you say things matter-of-factly but without any of the fanciful demands that usually accompany said ideas. I think you're great, and I would like to spend some time with you when I get back to Maryland. IM and I'll give you my cell #.
Rachel- I know it hasn't been that long that we've been friends, and I don't want you to take any offense to being close to the bottom of this list, it's only because I don't really know how to tell you what I feel and I had to think about it for a little while lol. That in itself is a compliment to you. You make me think. You make reconsider what's important, and you constantly remind me that there is much more to the world that just what I think or have experienced. You introduced me to your family, your way of life, and your whackiness(i love whacky, it's my fav). All of which have been beautiful. I love the way we agree on so many things and have alot in common(especially Ol' George and pottery lol). I think you're great. You have so much to offer the world, and sometimes I think you forget that. I have confidence in you. I know you're able to leap over hurdles, and climb to the top. I want you to have that much faith in yourself. I wish you luck in everything you do and I want you to know that I have really enjoyed being your friend this year, and that next year will be so wierd without you around. But remember, just because you won't see me, or talk to me all of the time, doesn't mean you're rid of me. I make friendships that I want to last forever. I want our friendship to last forever and therefor it will. I'll always be here for you, regardless of the situation. I see that you have a journey ahead of you, and so much room to grow, and I hope you take that and use it to your advantage. I'm eager to see how wonderful you turn out, because I know you will. Thank you for being my friend, you've made this year worthwhile, I love you.
Janine- As I said to Rachel, I think you're great although I haven't known you for that long. But what we lack in time we make up for in understanding. I often feel when we talk it's automatically understood by the other where the conversation is going, and often enough I find that I don't have to finish sentences when I talk to you. No matter where you end up next year I know you'll be happy, and you'll succeed in everything you attempt. And also like I said to Rachel, I want you to know that just because we won't be able to communicate like we do now after we leave, I'll always be around. You have my number, don't hesitate to use it. I want you to know I've enjoyed all of the time we've had together, and I'll miss you and toad. You're an awesome chick Janine, and I really do hope that everything you want from life comes to you. If ever I'm in Boston, you're getting a phone call. Love ya.
Liz- Lizzard, I saved one of the best for last. I remember when I started doing things like this- you know, telling people what I think and feel (sometimes good, sometimes bad) that you were always on the list. You have helped make me the person I am today in so many ways. You have inspired me, challenged me, and loved me in every way I could possibly ask for and that means the world to me. You have been close to what I think the perfect friend should be. You are like no one I've ever met, or evem HEARD OF. You have helped me laugh, let me cry, and always told me that I have what it takes inside. You have always believed in me. Even when I have faile dmiserably you have expected me to get back up and try again, because you knew I could. And just those simple things have made you forever unreplacable. I will never meet anyone in this world who will allow me to be as much of myself as you have. You never ever cease to amaze me, and I love you so much.
Will you be my shoulder when I'm gray and older?
I'm sure most of you will.
And to those I didn't write anything completely personal to, like Brittany, Stacy, Brain, Agey, Karen, Tim, Erin, and Melissa (yea you) and others, it's not that I don't love you all, because I do, it's just that our futures are still open for these things to be built. For most of you there are already things that I appreciate and that I view as blessings in my life. I'm just happy to be alive, and to have the chance to get to know all of you better, and to get to the point in which I know we can one day be.
Life isn't easy. Love isn't easy. But sometimes, people show us the light where we thought it might never glow. And with that I'll go back to studying.
I LOVE YOU ALL!
Come and sit with me and cry on my shoulder, on a friend...
And if you want to talk about it anymore
Lay here on the floor and cry on my shoulder once again...
It's been awhile since I've shown my appreciation for the people in my life. You know the ones... those who make getting up in the morning worth it. They make the pain and suffering feel like blessings, because at least you're alive to be with them. To each of these people I would like to say a little something. (p.s. people who won't read this by any means aren't included, i.e. Allen... but he already knows)
Please ignore typos.
Jenn- Of course you're number one on this list. You're always my number one (and the boys will just deal with it). You have been through so much. I have been through it with you, just as you have been with me through all of my struggles. You are this shining star in the darkness of my life that sometimes blinds me from seeing anything else. No matter how far down, or up high my soul goes, you follow me. Pulling me back down to earth, or out of the depths that I sometimes sink into, it's your hands, your love, and your dedication to this friendship that keeps me fighting. You are destined for glory. You are destined to show the world that it will not break you. I see so much strength in you, and I have to say I'm grateful that you always have some left over to lend me. I love you more than you'll ever know. You are the love of my life.
Steph- Or Kat, whatever lol. God I'm so proud of you. You've become, and you're still becoming the woman I always knew you could be. I have NEVER EVER lost my faith in you, even when sometimes I feel like you've lost faith in yourself. We have a bond that neither time, human intervention, or even distance can break. You are my Dundalk Pirate, you are my neighborhood playmate, and you will always be important to me. I don't know anyone who has stayed as true to themselves as you have. You know everything there is to know about me. You've seen it all. The good, the bad, the ugly, and you still love me. I love the fact that you call me everyday, just for updates. You don't call cause what you have to say is that important, but because you think I'm important enough to be told. That makes my heart burst. You brighten my days, and you calm all my aching feelings of "omg is there anyone out there who really cares?" I love you so much. (now get your ass down here lol)
Chelsea- I know you usually don't read my livejournal. It's not your thing. But that's something I LOVE about you. You've always done YOUR THING, not someone elses. You have been my partner in growing up. The first to know about losing certain things... haha. The first person I had conversations about important things with, like the first time I got drunk, or smoked, etc etc. You have always been my guardian angel. You're my bestest friend, and probably my soul mate. I don't have to tell you how i feel, you just get it, hell I think you prolly feel it. You ARE my sister. You're family is mine and mine yours. You're the person that it REALLY TRULY doesn't matter how often we talk to eachother. We see eachother and pick up right where we left off. It's an amazing feeling to know that you'll always be there for me and right alongside of me. Next to my mom and sister you're the closest thing I have ever known to family. You're smart, beautiful, and full of this radiant energy that I'll never get sick of. I love you, and I miss you everyday we are apart.
Tori- You knew I was getting to you lol. You are the craziest mutha fucka I have ever met, and I swear to the stars in the sky that without you in my life it would all be BLAH. We ain't nothing but canabals anyway, right? Who else could I make fun of cannablism with?! No one! You are such an inspiration to me. I sometimes find myself envious of certain qualities you have. Like your ability to forgive, to look at things optimistically, and to love unrequitedly. But I have to say that it's not the jealousy of these characterisitics that I love, it's the fact that sometimes they rub off on me. You honestly do make me a better person. You make every day a little happier. Being a bridesmaid for you was one of my most cherished experiences, and I feel so blessed that someone like you loves me the way you do. I'm so happy that you love me for me, even though I'm a pain in your ass sometimes. I think you amazing tori gavigan, and I swear to god if you ever leave my life i will go insane from the lack of craziness. I love you my dear.
Rach- You have no clue how uplifting it was to hear that your life is going the way you want it to lately. I've seen you over the past four years searching and waiting for what you deserve from the world, all the time knowing it would come, but never being able to help you obtain it. I want nothing more from this world but for it to make the people I love happy, including and maybe especially you. I've felt so lucky to have made the most out of our friendship. I am so happy that winter break brought us so close, when i'd always felt like there was a gap I wanted to fill between us. There is something that you bring to my life that no one else can. No matter what we're doing, whether it be spreadin crazy rumors about people that fuck us over, sitting around in CVS for no apparent reason, or driving in my shitmobile making up crazy songs about your loving dick, it's always fun. ALWAYS. You can take anything and make it worthwhile. You have so much potential, and I can not wait to see you explode it upon the world. I miss you so very much, and I can't wait to come home and go to the cheap-o movies with you. I love you Rach-burr.
Kate- My Etak. Why is it that two people who have so much in common, such strong wills, and flourished minds can butt heads so much? I'm taking a stand right now. No longer are we allowed to fight. NOT ABOUT ANYTHING. We have been too close for too long. We've been friends with eachother longer than any other group members, and we're still friends for a reason. That reason is because we love eachother. And I do love you. I love you so much that I have been willing to fight for you by fighting with you. You are so intelligent Kate, and you have a great heart with wonderful intentions, and you really think it's important to be the change you want to see in the world and that's so admirable. You've always made me reassess myself. You make me challenge myself and you make sure that I don't rest on my laurels, or take for granted that the choices I make are good ones. You do something for me that no one else can do... you make accept that i'm just as wrong as the next person. This might sound wierd to you, but I think that I love that about you more than I love anything about anyone else. Being humble isn't easy, realizing your fallability is difficult, and you force me to better myself by doing so. You are going to kick this world's ass and become everything you hope to be. I just want you to know that it's hard trying to find that person you want to be, but that I think you're wonderful and amazing just as you are. I always have. That's why I love you, because I know who you are, and that person is perfect just the way she is.
Christa- You're my soulmate. We've already had this discussion. You know I would jump in front of a bus for you. You have the biggest heart I've ever connected with, and your ability to see the goos in this world can not be described with simple words. You understand me, and I understand you. It doesn't matter if we don't see things quite the same way, what matters to us is that we both accept the others opinion. You have always taken what I had to say into more than consideration, but to another level of actual comprehension and appreciation. You have this amazing way of making me feel safe and cared about even from miles away. I want you to know that no matter where you life takes you, you always have a friend at home waiting for you. I love you so much.
Bekah- Everything I have to say to you, is probably what you would expect. From the first day we met, I felt it. I knew we would always be connected. It really sucks that life pulled us apart for awhile. It sucks we weren't able to have the normal simple relationship we deserved. But I think it's better this way. We have come to realize how much one another means to eachother and if it weren't for all of the crappy stuff we probably wouldn't appreciate our friendhsip as much as we do. I know this sounds akward but you're "such an inspiration to the ways that I would never ever choose to be." There is so much about you that I wish I had inside of me. You see the world in this special way that only you can offer. You love freely. You give without expectation. And you forgive with all of your heart. I love the way we can not see eachother, or talk for like ever, but we come back together and it all makes sense. IT JUST FEELS RIGHT. You will always be my friend. I have never, and will never give up on us. You mean so much to me, and I'll always always love you.
Katie Iberle- I miss you. I know I say that alot and it sounds like I'm full of shit sometimes, but it's the truth. I read everyword of your livejournal. I think about you and even talk about you alot. It's always with "Well Katie, my only real friend at Fordham..." and that's because you left an impression on me. There's no way in hell I'll ever be able to forget you. You see in the world these beautiful facets. You describe things the way my mind sees them but cannot put into words. Yet you words so loftily, as if they could never portray the ideas you have. I doubt they could. You are complex and simple. Extroverted and internalized. You are so many amazing things, and you showed me so much about life in such a small period of time. I look forward to the day when I see you again. So just so you know, I miss you, and you're always in my heart.
Roe- You are my roeseph. It doesn't matter what has happened, or what might in the future. You'll always be that red headed, freckle faced kid that I fell in love with as a freshman in highschool. I think it's funny how much intuition you have at that age. It's as if you know that no matter what comes or goes this person means more than all of it. You have always meant more to me than any of it. I have so much faith in you and your abilities. You will succeed. I just know it. Your passion for music and the world of music amazes me. I have never felt so strongly about something that wasn't human as you do. You really do inspire me to go out into the world and have passion, and live for what you love, and give it all you have. You really do hit something inside of me that I've been trying to find for so long. I will always think of you as one of my best friends roe, and I hope you would say the same thing of me. I love you.
Sam Hook- YOU ARE FANTASTIC. I don't think you realize how much I respect you. I have never though of you as the kid who was a year younger than me or any of that crap like I do some of your counterparts. You have always raised yourself up to the same playing field as the rest of us, if not the field above us. You are so dedicated to everything you try to take on, and that includes your friendships. I've never felt like you've strayed from me at all... I just feel as though you're out there achieving all of your dreams. I'm so fucking proud of you. You've always shown me that thinking of you as one of the best of your year was the right decision. You've never ever disappointed me. I swear to god sam there is a girl out there that i'm so jealous of because she's gonna end up with you. You have so much to offer. You're a gorgeous person sam, inside and out, and no matter where in the country we are, or where we end up in the end, you'll always be one of my favs. I love you!
Kadie- Hey crazy lady. I adore you. You seriously inspire the shit out of me. You make me want to go into the world and make something beautiful. You're so incredibly unique, and I respect how you are just yourself and you enjoy every moment of it. And I have to say I enjoy every moment I get to be a part of your life. And you cut hair so fucking well... hrmmm which reminds me, I need a trim, think you might be able to handle that when I get home? And I know I always say I want to spend more time with you, but I mean it! And just so you know, I think you'll find that place you're looking for, the one where you'll be happy and be able to go after all of those things you want from life. I can't wait to go to stores and buy clothes by Sich lol. I LOVE YOU!!!
Sophia- I know this semester has been... well wierd. But I do love you. You've showed how to look at the world in a way I never ever have seen through anyone else. You are yourself, no matter what. You don't care what happens because of it cause you know in the end you're going to be happy with your decision to follow your heart. You have been a great roomate (a pain in the ass once in awhile, but aren't we all) and I'm going to miss you. But I'll always remember all the amazing time we spent together. I love you.
Mardee- Yes you! I just wanted to tell you that your persistence and determination to say fuck the world I'm going somehwhere is a breath of fresh air. For someone who has taken life's curve balls numerous times, your ability to fall seven times and get up eight shows me that anyone can succeed in life if they really do put their mind to it. Your talent is insurmountable. I'm so glad that I'll be able to tell people I know you when you become a star. I'm gonna name drop you like a hot patato. And YES, that's a compliment. You fucking rock and I love you.
Mal Mal- February 17, what else can I say. When you share a birthday with someone, you also share alot more. I love your honesty and you're ability to be comfortable in your own skin. You are the most imperfect piece of perfection I have ever seen. You make everything about yourself beautiful and you look at the world and say, "Bitch, you should be grateful I'm here." And you're right. We should be, and I am. Like I said to Mardee, I can't wait till your famous so I can tell everyone we're friends. i'm so proud of you and your ambition and drive. If being awesome was a contest, you'd win. I love you Mal.
Courtney- DOn't be surprised I have you on this list. Just because we don't spend time together, and haven't for a long time, the fact that you took the time to say "Hey, I found you! And I'm gonna keep up with your life now." shows alot about your character. It also shows me that even as an 8 year old I made pretty good friend decisions. I think you've turned out to be a great women. You have a free spirit and a very unique point of view about the world around. I love the way you say things matter-of-factly but without any of the fanciful demands that usually accompany said ideas. I think you're great, and I would like to spend some time with you when I get back to Maryland. IM and I'll give you my cell #.
Rachel- I know it hasn't been that long that we've been friends, and I don't want you to take any offense to being close to the bottom of this list, it's only because I don't really know how to tell you what I feel and I had to think about it for a little while lol. That in itself is a compliment to you. You make me think. You make reconsider what's important, and you constantly remind me that there is much more to the world that just what I think or have experienced. You introduced me to your family, your way of life, and your whackiness(i love whacky, it's my fav). All of which have been beautiful. I love the way we agree on so many things and have alot in common(especially Ol' George and pottery lol). I think you're great. You have so much to offer the world, and sometimes I think you forget that. I have confidence in you. I know you're able to leap over hurdles, and climb to the top. I want you to have that much faith in yourself. I wish you luck in everything you do and I want you to know that I have really enjoyed being your friend this year, and that next year will be so wierd without you around. But remember, just because you won't see me, or talk to me all of the time, doesn't mean you're rid of me. I make friendships that I want to last forever. I want our friendship to last forever and therefor it will. I'll always be here for you, regardless of the situation. I see that you have a journey ahead of you, and so much room to grow, and I hope you take that and use it to your advantage. I'm eager to see how wonderful you turn out, because I know you will. Thank you for being my friend, you've made this year worthwhile, I love you.
Janine- As I said to Rachel, I think you're great although I haven't known you for that long. But what we lack in time we make up for in understanding. I often feel when we talk it's automatically understood by the other where the conversation is going, and often enough I find that I don't have to finish sentences when I talk to you. No matter where you end up next year I know you'll be happy, and you'll succeed in everything you attempt. And also like I said to Rachel, I want you to know that just because we won't be able to communicate like we do now after we leave, I'll always be around. You have my number, don't hesitate to use it. I want you to know I've enjoyed all of the time we've had together, and I'll miss you and toad. You're an awesome chick Janine, and I really do hope that everything you want from life comes to you. If ever I'm in Boston, you're getting a phone call. Love ya.
Liz- Lizzard, I saved one of the best for last. I remember when I started doing things like this- you know, telling people what I think and feel (sometimes good, sometimes bad) that you were always on the list. You have helped make me the person I am today in so many ways. You have inspired me, challenged me, and loved me in every way I could possibly ask for and that means the world to me. You have been close to what I think the perfect friend should be. You are like no one I've ever met, or evem HEARD OF. You have helped me laugh, let me cry, and always told me that I have what it takes inside. You have always believed in me. Even when I have faile dmiserably you have expected me to get back up and try again, because you knew I could. And just those simple things have made you forever unreplacable. I will never meet anyone in this world who will allow me to be as much of myself as you have. You never ever cease to amaze me, and I love you so much.
Will you be my shoulder when I'm gray and older?
I'm sure most of you will.
And to those I didn't write anything completely personal to, like Brittany, Stacy, Brain, Agey, Karen, Tim, Erin, and Melissa (yea you) and others, it's not that I don't love you all, because I do, it's just that our futures are still open for these things to be built. For most of you there are already things that I appreciate and that I view as blessings in my life. I'm just happy to be alive, and to have the chance to get to know all of you better, and to get to the point in which I know we can one day be.
Life isn't easy. Love isn't easy. But sometimes, people show us the light where we thought it might never glow. And with that I'll go back to studying.
I LOVE YOU ALL!