a tribute to you Jii-Chan
This past week has probably been one of the most emotional and hardest weeks of my life. Last Monday I got a call from my Grandma that my Grandpa had passed away. =*( And to make matters worse it was all over the media for the past week, but really who's business is it of theirs to keep putting all this shit in the newspaper and on tv, just make our loss more apparent and keeping throwing it in our face. SO FUCK THE MEDIA.
Then of course it was all the planning and getting things arranged sucked, but of course needed to be done. You don't understand how much this weekend i've heard "you should do it, it's good for you" ... my dad and his brothers are way too much alike even if they don't want to admit it. haha... But yea, so I spent a lot of time with family, and true colors came out with certain people and at the moment I don't really give a fuck about them because honestly how selfish can you get and what's worse is not realizing it. And that's one of my biggest pet peeves, people who are so selfish yet don't realize it and think that there is nothing wrong with them or what they're doing. argh.
But yea, spent a lot of time with Baa-chan and tried to keep her company because like everyone else in the family we're all hard asses who don't like to show emotions. haha... the thing about my family is that we're all really prideful, stubborn,hot headed, and hard headed. haha... I guess not the best qualities to always have but that's us.
However, I did learn a lot of interesting history about my Jii-chan's side of the family and realized how much I don't know about him. But damn my Jii-chan was fucking awsome. Not only was he a WWII veteran who recieved 3 purple hearts, he organized the Modesto Throttlers the third oldest car club, was pretty much the all american dad who was his sons troop leader, in the dad's club, and was a race car drag racer, and deputy sheriff at the lake. Then the history of his family was just insane, apparently my Great Grandfather wasn't killed by a black man on the farm, but my jii-chan's oldest brother accidently shot him in the head when he was making wine with his friends and was really drunk, and didn't move back to japan because he didn't like america, but was disowned by the family and was exiled to canada. And then there was just other random drama and what not within the family, and apparently our swords weren't stolen by a random person but someone in the family. wtf. But yea I guess our family in Japan was pretty influnencial as well, we had samurai's in our family but we also owned a silk farm and had close ties with the emperor and were really well off and powerful. But yea our family crest I guess is still in Japan and no one here has seen it.
But yea, it was a very stressful and emotional week to say the least. But I guess I'm happy for my Jii-chan because I know he's in a better place now and that he's probably a lot happier then he was here. It's just that I miss him so much...
I love you Jii-chan...
Then of course it was all the planning and getting things arranged sucked, but of course needed to be done. You don't understand how much this weekend i've heard "you should do it, it's good for you" ... my dad and his brothers are way too much alike even if they don't want to admit it. haha... But yea, so I spent a lot of time with family, and true colors came out with certain people and at the moment I don't really give a fuck about them because honestly how selfish can you get and what's worse is not realizing it. And that's one of my biggest pet peeves, people who are so selfish yet don't realize it and think that there is nothing wrong with them or what they're doing. argh.
But yea, spent a lot of time with Baa-chan and tried to keep her company because like everyone else in the family we're all hard asses who don't like to show emotions. haha... the thing about my family is that we're all really prideful, stubborn,hot headed, and hard headed. haha... I guess not the best qualities to always have but that's us.
However, I did learn a lot of interesting history about my Jii-chan's side of the family and realized how much I don't know about him. But damn my Jii-chan was fucking awsome. Not only was he a WWII veteran who recieved 3 purple hearts, he organized the Modesto Throttlers the third oldest car club, was pretty much the all american dad who was his sons troop leader, in the dad's club, and was a race car drag racer, and deputy sheriff at the lake. Then the history of his family was just insane, apparently my Great Grandfather wasn't killed by a black man on the farm, but my jii-chan's oldest brother accidently shot him in the head when he was making wine with his friends and was really drunk, and didn't move back to japan because he didn't like america, but was disowned by the family and was exiled to canada. And then there was just other random drama and what not within the family, and apparently our swords weren't stolen by a random person but someone in the family. wtf. But yea I guess our family in Japan was pretty influnencial as well, we had samurai's in our family but we also owned a silk farm and had close ties with the emperor and were really well off and powerful. But yea our family crest I guess is still in Japan and no one here has seen it.
But yea, it was a very stressful and emotional week to say the least. But I guess I'm happy for my Jii-chan because I know he's in a better place now and that he's probably a lot happier then he was here. It's just that I miss him so much...
I love you Jii-chan...