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I suck.
As was totally evident in my dreams.
The best was when I was visiting my high school at some absurd time like one in the morning, and I just looked at the athletic fields. For some reason I was actually wearing sneakers and my pilates pants. I started running. Legit, man. I ran around those fields, pushing myself. When I finally stopped I had gone around four times. I collapsed into a hysterical mess.
Amanda was there. She helped me to my feet and told me that I was strong. Stronger than most people could imagine. Really? Because I feel like I just give excuses all the time, and I'm actually quite weak. She told me I could do it.
Then I wake up to my lovie's message for me.
"people like you. wonderful adorable happy giving caring outrageously fun people like you that i happen to love."
Yeah, I know there was a whole bunch of other stuff in there.
But that. Well I needed that.
Thank you sunshine.
And I know you're going through a really rough time right now. A terrifying, I don't want to deal with this but I have to, time. I wish I could be right there, holding your hand. In spirit I am.
Meanwhile today fucking sucks already.
I slept in so I don't have time to finish my speech (I know this already). I have a meeting with him at ten am to discuss receiving an incomplete.
Then I have work eleven am to seven pm.
With that man. Fuck that.
And Brittany at one, Thank God.
Then over to Brittany's to study Abnormal Psychology and write out my speech outlines.
Back here. Two exams on Tuesday, one to three and three-thirty to five-thirty. Then over to Tabi's to help her study.
And write my Child and Adolescent take home exam.
Wednesday...
Okay I'm just stopping there.
Plus, my loan hasn't even been refilled out, let alone sent in. I don't see when that's going to happen either.
The money I've deposited into my account takes five days to go through, so my balance fucking sucks.
And I hate being late for work.
Whatever, it's time to shower.
As was totally evident in my dreams.
The best was when I was visiting my high school at some absurd time like one in the morning, and I just looked at the athletic fields. For some reason I was actually wearing sneakers and my pilates pants. I started running. Legit, man. I ran around those fields, pushing myself. When I finally stopped I had gone around four times. I collapsed into a hysterical mess.
Amanda was there. She helped me to my feet and told me that I was strong. Stronger than most people could imagine. Really? Because I feel like I just give excuses all the time, and I'm actually quite weak. She told me I could do it.
Then I wake up to my lovie's message for me.
"people like you. wonderful adorable happy giving caring outrageously fun people like you that i happen to love."
Yeah, I know there was a whole bunch of other stuff in there.
But that. Well I needed that.
Thank you sunshine.
And I know you're going through a really rough time right now. A terrifying, I don't want to deal with this but I have to, time. I wish I could be right there, holding your hand. In spirit I am.
Meanwhile today fucking sucks already.
I slept in so I don't have time to finish my speech (I know this already). I have a meeting with him at ten am to discuss receiving an incomplete.
Then I have work eleven am to seven pm.
With that man. Fuck that.
And Brittany at one, Thank God.
Then over to Brittany's to study Abnormal Psychology and write out my speech outlines.
Back here. Two exams on Tuesday, one to three and three-thirty to five-thirty. Then over to Tabi's to help her study.
And write my Child and Adolescent take home exam.
Wednesday...
Okay I'm just stopping there.
Plus, my loan hasn't even been refilled out, let alone sent in. I don't see when that's going to happen either.
The money I've deposited into my account takes five days to go through, so my balance fucking sucks.
And I hate being late for work.
Whatever, it's time to shower.