never lose your grip, don't trip, don't fall...you'll lose it all.....the sweetest way to die.
I was finally allowed to do something last night....my mom let me go to the football game! trouble is no one wanted to go but me...they said i could stay and they'd pick me up and take me home but on my one night out i wanted to be with my girls so we did nothing exciting. the highlight of my night was sticking my head out of the sun roof with Makealla while she was driving and dancing in the car to some awesome rap music. i love being with the girls but i'm really tired of "getting fucked up" i do like drinking and everybody knows i like smoking but i wanted to go to the game and see everyone...i wanted to watch the game because i love football...especially high school football....i have freakishly scary school spirit when it comes to this stuff! now i'm not saying that i'm going to completly quiet doing everything but i don't want to spend my one night out getting wasted...i want to spend time with my girls, eat junk food, make dumb jokes, i wanna be sober. so i did choose not to drink last night.
I love my high school but i'm getting a little tired of everybody...i've moved around alot in my life and i'm used to relocating every few years so i think my biological move away time clock has gone off about fifty times. i want something new because this place is getting old. i want to live by a beach...i've lived in the desert, i've lived in the cold now i wanna live at the beach...i wanna cute surfer boy to be my boyfriend and i want to walk around in board shorts, tank tops and hemp necklaces! i wanna feel the wind on my face and hear the waves crash. i want out of here...i've got two years...my mom has made it very clear that i can not move out until high school is over or i continue to smoke weed in her house....but i wouldn't be moving out i'd be kicked out. not a good idea!
so it turns out i didn't get a part in the musical which didn't surprise me at all...i forgot every thing when i auditioned and i really really didn't want to audition but i wanted to show people i am serious about acting....even though i think musicals have very little to do with acting...or atleast the kind of acting i'm interested in. i'm actually very happy i didn't get a part. i'm going to be getting a job soon and well i can't sing or dance so i'm not dissapointed at all.
my yearn for wanted a serious relationship keeps running through my head. i want to be serious with some one...but not just anyone someone that takes me serious and believes in me and encourages me. i need a good influence in my life not a bad one....every guy i've gone to has been a bad influence. either with drugs or sex or just not doing what i'm supposed to do. i want the opposite of that...i'm truly tired of the party scene or atleast the consistency of the the party scene....there is such thing as too much of a "good" thing.
<3MeL
I love my high school but i'm getting a little tired of everybody...i've moved around alot in my life and i'm used to relocating every few years so i think my biological move away time clock has gone off about fifty times. i want something new because this place is getting old. i want to live by a beach...i've lived in the desert, i've lived in the cold now i wanna live at the beach...i wanna cute surfer boy to be my boyfriend and i want to walk around in board shorts, tank tops and hemp necklaces! i wanna feel the wind on my face and hear the waves crash. i want out of here...i've got two years...my mom has made it very clear that i can not move out until high school is over or i continue to smoke weed in her house....but i wouldn't be moving out i'd be kicked out. not a good idea!
so it turns out i didn't get a part in the musical which didn't surprise me at all...i forgot every thing when i auditioned and i really really didn't want to audition but i wanted to show people i am serious about acting....even though i think musicals have very little to do with acting...or atleast the kind of acting i'm interested in. i'm actually very happy i didn't get a part. i'm going to be getting a job soon and well i can't sing or dance so i'm not dissapointed at all.
my yearn for wanted a serious relationship keeps running through my head. i want to be serious with some one...but not just anyone someone that takes me serious and believes in me and encourages me. i need a good influence in my life not a bad one....every guy i've gone to has been a bad influence. either with drugs or sex or just not doing what i'm supposed to do. i want the opposite of that...i'm truly tired of the party scene or atleast the consistency of the the party scene....there is such thing as too much of a "good" thing.
<3MeL