i'm still on "groundation"!
yes folks i'm still on "groundation" as so wonderfully said by bear! but i'm babysitting right now! i love it! these kids are adorable....well their asleep right now but they are just too cute!
Lately i've been having a craving for a boy.....not any boy imparticular but a boyfriend would be nice...not saying i'm gonna date anything that comes by but i miss having that little crush where when you see that guy you get butterflys in your tummy and your knees get weak...hmmm. i want some one i can kiss in the hallways and i want someone that will put his arms around me and tell me i'm beautiful and really truly mean it and believe it...i've never had that.. there was a guy that use to tell me i was beautiful but he only said it so he could sleep with me...wow awesome! ok well thats my little dream world but its hard to have a boyfriend when your GROUNDED! arrggg
so my fav person ever...AMY KODMAN is an Cali this weekend! i miss ya hunny! i hope your having a blast...i truly love this girl she understands every emotion i have and doesn't make me feel like i'm a crazy person when i tell her how i feel...she also has east coast love like me! she really is one of my best friends.......her and bear are the two people that truly respect me and know me....:)
tonight i was laying down and i was thinking...i was thinking about this person(same one that said i was beautiful but didn't mean it) and i realized i wasted so much time on this guy and i got nothing out of "us" we would talk on the phone for hours and i realized i did all the talking...he took my virginity and that was really super duper important to me and i honestly felt like he liked me and he didn't i just feel like a wasted so much time on him and it wasn't worth it at all...i made an effort and he didn't grrr on guys bt hes out of my life completly gone and i'm much happier....i think i continued to talk to him because i liked having someone there even if he really wasn't there mentally he was there physically and that was good enough....uhhh stupid girl stupid girl....
well i'm off to watch t.v.
<3MeL
Lately i've been having a craving for a boy.....not any boy imparticular but a boyfriend would be nice...not saying i'm gonna date anything that comes by but i miss having that little crush where when you see that guy you get butterflys in your tummy and your knees get weak...hmmm. i want some one i can kiss in the hallways and i want someone that will put his arms around me and tell me i'm beautiful and really truly mean it and believe it...i've never had that.. there was a guy that use to tell me i was beautiful but he only said it so he could sleep with me...wow awesome! ok well thats my little dream world but its hard to have a boyfriend when your GROUNDED! arrggg
so my fav person ever...AMY KODMAN is an Cali this weekend! i miss ya hunny! i hope your having a blast...i truly love this girl she understands every emotion i have and doesn't make me feel like i'm a crazy person when i tell her how i feel...she also has east coast love like me! she really is one of my best friends.......her and bear are the two people that truly respect me and know me....:)
tonight i was laying down and i was thinking...i was thinking about this person(same one that said i was beautiful but didn't mean it) and i realized i wasted so much time on this guy and i got nothing out of "us" we would talk on the phone for hours and i realized i did all the talking...he took my virginity and that was really super duper important to me and i honestly felt like he liked me and he didn't i just feel like a wasted so much time on him and it wasn't worth it at all...i made an effort and he didn't grrr on guys bt hes out of my life completly gone and i'm much happier....i think i continued to talk to him because i liked having someone there even if he really wasn't there mentally he was there physically and that was good enough....uhhh stupid girl stupid girl....
well i'm off to watch t.v.
<3MeL