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Yes, so its been awhile.
Its an okay summer day.
I just got back from florida. It rained the whole entire time. Oh well UV rays will just give me wrinkles anyways.
So lets update ourselves.
Ive been such a good girl lately. Well except for yesterday, but that was a one time deal. I PROMISE. I like where i am now. I think? I dont really dwell too much on the bad things or depress myself with what i used to have. I have Jim. Yes we are still together. We are 100 times better then we were before. I love him, i really do. I dont know tho. I'm getting so tangled in all of this. He loves me I know he does but I am so young and why be so serious? Why have one boy when i can have four? Sometimes hes worth it. I miss everyone tho. I spend all my time with him. Ive devoted 75% of my exsistance to him. Its almost sad. I know im pathetic for talking about Bret but he still lingers in the back of my mind. Its just that period of my life. Those like 4 months. THEY WERE THE BEST IVE EVER HAD. I cant think about those months without thinking of him too. I was so wrapped up in everything else i never really got to get over him. This is nonsense.
I actually feel kind of sick. Ive been bruising extremely easily too. I just dont feel right.
Its an okay summer day.
I just got back from florida. It rained the whole entire time. Oh well UV rays will just give me wrinkles anyways.
So lets update ourselves.
Ive been such a good girl lately. Well except for yesterday, but that was a one time deal. I PROMISE. I like where i am now. I think? I dont really dwell too much on the bad things or depress myself with what i used to have. I have Jim. Yes we are still together. We are 100 times better then we were before. I love him, i really do. I dont know tho. I'm getting so tangled in all of this. He loves me I know he does but I am so young and why be so serious? Why have one boy when i can have four? Sometimes hes worth it. I miss everyone tho. I spend all my time with him. Ive devoted 75% of my exsistance to him. Its almost sad. I know im pathetic for talking about Bret but he still lingers in the back of my mind. Its just that period of my life. Those like 4 months. THEY WERE THE BEST IVE EVER HAD. I cant think about those months without thinking of him too. I was so wrapped up in everything else i never really got to get over him. This is nonsense.
I actually feel kind of sick. Ive been bruising extremely easily too. I just dont feel right.