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im just really in a very numb like mood. Im kinda down on how my life is playing out. I feel as though everything i touch turns do duck shit. It becomes smelly and dull. Its not fun. Im not having fun. Your not making this any better. Your probably making this worse. My life is such a let down. I dont know how to escape it. It just follows me around and harasses me. I was so close. SO CLOSE. Now look at me, im 400 feet from even the middle-just the middle.I woke up this morning and i had brown rings around my eyes. I spend half of my night waiting and the other half thinking which just leads to sheer torment. I guess you have ur opinions but keep them to yourself. You barely know me. You make no effort to KNOW me. You turn your back. You exclude. Never once a special thought. I am like any other piece of shit you met in your life. And when i say you, i mean you. Theres not secret person or meaning. My life is sad and pathetic. We are all fake posers who are so selfish that we actually hate ourselves for it. Its sick. I hate it. I hate being a human. I rather have been a flower. At least i couldve been beautiful, colorful, and been dependant on only water. Ive become so dependant on you and look where thats gotten me. Your gone. Your not even here. Such a hypocrite. Such a waste of my time, and energy. You sold out on me. You are bigger then your ego now. Make it ring again
As the book says-
You are not the exception, you are the rule.
seriously who do i think i am?
I AM NOTHING
As the book says-
You are not the exception, you are the rule.
seriously who do i think i am?
I AM NOTHING