Baby, Everything's Gonna Be Alright..
Yesterday was one of the longest days on entire life! I watched Tess from 8 until 5:30 and then Jack and Mads from 7 until 2:30 at night. Yeah, LONG day. I was exhausted and had bad cramps, and I felt nauseated..but I made it! And I made good money. And they are adorable. I watch Anna Bear tonight. I am so excited!!
My summer classes start on Monday. I sure as hell hope I am making the right decision about all of this. I keep praying that God will give me kind of signal that this is what I am supposed to do. He probably just wants me to make the decision and then laugh at me, He likes to do that. It's cool though. haha. When I was there on Thursday, I felt a little sad. Maybe I'm not as ready to leave CMU as I thought. We'll see.
I am in a good mood today, despite that I feel like I am going to die from pain. Lately, I have been realizing more and more just how blessed I am. I really am. I have the best boyfriend in the entire world. He means the world to me, and I mean the same to him. I love him more and more every day. I have awesome parents who would do anything in the world for me, and who are now becoming more like friends too. But I know that they are my parents first. That's why we still argue. I have the world's greatest twin and little sisters ever and best friends! I might not see them as much as we want to, but I know that they are just a phone call away. I have the best roomies for next year! I love my cousins more than ever and my extended family too. My job is playing with an adorable 3 month old, and then the loves of my life under the age of 5 who make me feel more special than anyone else. I have the greatest neighbors that I love like old family friends. I have school and the fact that my whole life is ahead of me and that I can make anything out of it. I'm healthy. I have my faith in God. Wow, I have almost everything! Sure, I have bad days and I forget it all, but thank God, today is not one of those days. I love these kinds of days.
I love it!!
But I hate cramps more than anything!!!!
It's hard to imagine how I was 2 summers ago. That was the worst. I was in a very scary place then. It's a complete 180 of where I am at right now. I might sound like the queen of corn like I always do, but when you find true, real happiness after being almost dead inside for awhile, you just can't help but thank God for it everyday and gloat about what makes you live each and every day. I should write a long entry about that one day. Maybe once I don't feel drunk from pain meds! haha.
My summer classes start on Monday. I sure as hell hope I am making the right decision about all of this. I keep praying that God will give me kind of signal that this is what I am supposed to do. He probably just wants me to make the decision and then laugh at me, He likes to do that. It's cool though. haha. When I was there on Thursday, I felt a little sad. Maybe I'm not as ready to leave CMU as I thought. We'll see.
I am in a good mood today, despite that I feel like I am going to die from pain. Lately, I have been realizing more and more just how blessed I am. I really am. I have the best boyfriend in the entire world. He means the world to me, and I mean the same to him. I love him more and more every day. I have awesome parents who would do anything in the world for me, and who are now becoming more like friends too. But I know that they are my parents first. That's why we still argue. I have the world's greatest twin and little sisters ever and best friends! I might not see them as much as we want to, but I know that they are just a phone call away. I have the best roomies for next year! I love my cousins more than ever and my extended family too. My job is playing with an adorable 3 month old, and then the loves of my life under the age of 5 who make me feel more special than anyone else. I have the greatest neighbors that I love like old family friends. I have school and the fact that my whole life is ahead of me and that I can make anything out of it. I'm healthy. I have my faith in God. Wow, I have almost everything! Sure, I have bad days and I forget it all, but thank God, today is not one of those days. I love these kinds of days.
I love it!!
But I hate cramps more than anything!!!!
It's hard to imagine how I was 2 summers ago. That was the worst. I was in a very scary place then. It's a complete 180 of where I am at right now. I might sound like the queen of corn like I always do, but when you find true, real happiness after being almost dead inside for awhile, you just can't help but thank God for it everyday and gloat about what makes you live each and every day. I should write a long entry about that one day. Maybe once I don't feel drunk from pain meds! haha.