Wow...
I'm just sitting here, trying to remember the last time I was truly happy. I think it was around second grade, or third. My innocence was hurt by painful friends who turned everyone on me in fourth, and I've been distrustful of people ever since and have problems opening my true self up.
So, I binged on cereal. blah blah, I still went climbing and achieved something huge for me: my first 5.10d. EVER! It was a great accomplishment and food can't ruin it. I'll do a water fast tomorrow and fruit all day Moday, so hopefully everything will be ok.
I haven't binged in forever, so why today? Is it because my past keeps repeating in my head, and my sad present is so bothersome? The thing is, I really believe its my fault I don't stand up for myself, or can't talk to all people openly.
So, I binged on cereal. blah blah, I still went climbing and achieved something huge for me: my first 5.10d. EVER! It was a great accomplishment and food can't ruin it. I'll do a water fast tomorrow and fruit all day Moday, so hopefully everything will be ok.
I haven't binged in forever, so why today? Is it because my past keeps repeating in my head, and my sad present is so bothersome? The thing is, I really believe its my fault I don't stand up for myself, or can't talk to all people openly.