its been awhile!
woo hoo!! its summer! well for just a lil bit longer! but its been like the BEST summer EVER!!! i did like everything i wanted to. except go to cedar point.. dissappointment.. but oh well. i guess i can just wait till next year. then get dissappointed again then too. lol. yea. its something about my parents not trusting the drivers.. bullshit. and that i would be too tired to drive home after but like i dont get it. cuz im like almost 18. kinda sorta. and i kno wht im doing and ppl dont get killed everytime they drive so yea. whatever. ill just keep bugging them until i get to go or ill just go by myself when they cant tell me what to do. aka college. lol. or summer before sounds better. yea. that sounds good. just gotta wait another year. lol. thats not a every long time. exspeically since its senior year!! omg! i cant believe its finally here. i mean after all of highschool im finally l l < this close from graduating. i mean i remember when i first got in highschool and i felt soo cool for finally being with all the cool older kids n i just wanted to fit n and wanted everyone to like me. but as the years went by i realized that i dont wanna be like the kids that go to my school. i love being me, myself and if they dont like it. thats just too bad for them. i have made the greatest friends ever and just have the bestest time with them and wish everything could freeze and i could just enjoy everything more b/c its just too fucking great to end. Being a freshmen 3 years ago i was all unsecure and self concious and never thought i would ever be so lucky to find a guy that would like me for me. and i finally have. and it has worked out soo perfectly that im speechless. all through highschool you had to pick classes that sounded fun and ones that ur friends were gonna take too so you could be in their class and have fun while attempting to learn something from ur teachers. now i havta pick the rest of my life. what college im gonna go to. and what classes i wanna take so i can succeed for the rest of my life. its a hard decision and im having soo much trouble trying to pick a school that i actually really want to go to. during highschool you just cant wait to leave and go to college and live ur life. but as you get closer to it. it just keeps getting scarier b/c u have no idea what is going to happen to you in the next 10 years. thats what makes life great you never can predict what is going to happen to you. elementary school, middle school and highschool are the years that you learned from ur mistakes, anywhere from breaking ur friends stuff to getting a ticket for speeding or for partying to hard and getting caught, got introuble with ur parents, lied to a friend, talked about them behind ur back. but all that doesnt matter anymore. all those mistakes and lessons you learned makes you who you are. i remember when i thought i was cool for putting my cd player in a fanny pack and riding my rollarblades down the street, or having a large collection of stuff for my american girl dolls or getting a nintendo 64, n playing kick the can and hide n go seek. then i moved n made new friends and learned to drive, learned to get my way out of getting introuble by my parents n bullshitting my classes and still pull off good grades. but once ur in college no one knows u for tripping down the stairs or puking in the middle of class. you get a fresh start and get to make urself who you want to be without forgetting exactly where you came from. if i could change anything that happened to me i wouldnt change anything b/c i kno everything happens for a reason. if everything was perfect and the same the world wouldnt be as exciting and diverse as it is right now and i cant wait to get out and find out exactly who i am.