Truth is what stands the test of experience.
I haven't posted for a long time. Truth be told, I just didn't know what to say. I've been doing some adjusting in my life... adjusting that was long overdue.
I've come to a better place in my life. For the first time in a very long time, I am happy. I'm laughing again. I'm smiling more. And I've been singing in the shower. Life is good.
Jon and I are not breaking up. We're not getting married, but we have decided that some things in life are worth fighting for--and our relationship is one of them. We've had a few long, very constructive talks, in which we were able to clear the air, touch base, and formulate a plan for the future. We are... incredibly different. Not in the "he likes Fruit Loops and I like Coco Puffs" way, but in a way that makes it difficult to really understand where the other is coming from. But... we've been talking and making an effort to get to know each other--really know each other--better, and I think we're making progress. We are making progress. We're not ignoring things in hopes that they'll just magically get better any more. We're conscientiously trying to make things work. And when there's a will, there's a way, right?
I'm also still planning to go to school. Not this fall... but either in the spring or next fall. I have a lot of work to do in this area. I might even have to get my GED again, due to a stupid mistake on my paperwork. But I'm determined to major in English Writing and later get my master's in Fine Arts, English Writing. I might have to move to Marquette for a while, but Jon is being very supportive, and I'm convinced that we can find a way to make everything work. I'm an extremely selfish person, but I haven't done something that's truly been good for me in a long, long time. I'm doing this for me.
As far as online things go... I have to admit that I've been enjoying my break from it all. I'd been stressing myself out over things that I really didn't need to stress over. And... I've stumbled into a new fandom: Supernatural. I'm in love with it. I posted my first fic for it a few days ago, and it's gotten really good reviews. So... I'm excited for that. I said I'd never get into Supernatural, and I did. I said I'd never get into RPS, and I did. It seems I have the willpower of a bag of flour.
Also... Jon and I are going to England in a week. We're leaving the 21st and coming back on the 29th. We'll be staying with ratherbe4gotten, and I am sooo excited to see her and get to see a bit of the UK. We're also going to Amsterdam for a day, to meet a friend that Jon and I know from Guild Wars. Jon's never been on a plane before, and the only country he's been to besides the US is Canada... so I'm really excited to share this experience with him. I can't wait!
I know disappearing for a month and a half was a crappy thing to do, but I'm not going to apologize. In the last month and a half I've turned my life around. Instead of wanting to stay in bed and hide from the world, I now get up and can't wait to start my day. I'm going for walks every day with my mom, I'm eating better, I'm working out, I'm in love with my man, and I have my best friend back. Things are good. Things are great, actually, and if taking a month and a half off was the only way to get to this place, I think it was worth it.
I've come to a better place in my life. For the first time in a very long time, I am happy. I'm laughing again. I'm smiling more. And I've been singing in the shower. Life is good.
Jon and I are not breaking up. We're not getting married, but we have decided that some things in life are worth fighting for--and our relationship is one of them. We've had a few long, very constructive talks, in which we were able to clear the air, touch base, and formulate a plan for the future. We are... incredibly different. Not in the "he likes Fruit Loops and I like Coco Puffs" way, but in a way that makes it difficult to really understand where the other is coming from. But... we've been talking and making an effort to get to know each other--really know each other--better, and I think we're making progress. We are making progress. We're not ignoring things in hopes that they'll just magically get better any more. We're conscientiously trying to make things work. And when there's a will, there's a way, right?
I'm also still planning to go to school. Not this fall... but either in the spring or next fall. I have a lot of work to do in this area. I might even have to get my GED again, due to a stupid mistake on my paperwork. But I'm determined to major in English Writing and later get my master's in Fine Arts, English Writing. I might have to move to Marquette for a while, but Jon is being very supportive, and I'm convinced that we can find a way to make everything work. I'm an extremely selfish person, but I haven't done something that's truly been good for me in a long, long time. I'm doing this for me.
As far as online things go... I have to admit that I've been enjoying my break from it all. I'd been stressing myself out over things that I really didn't need to stress over. And... I've stumbled into a new fandom: Supernatural. I'm in love with it. I posted my first fic for it a few days ago, and it's gotten really good reviews. So... I'm excited for that. I said I'd never get into Supernatural, and I did. I said I'd never get into RPS, and I did. It seems I have the willpower of a bag of flour.
Also... Jon and I are going to England in a week. We're leaving the 21st and coming back on the 29th. We'll be staying with ratherbe4gotten, and I am sooo excited to see her and get to see a bit of the UK. We're also going to Amsterdam for a day, to meet a friend that Jon and I know from Guild Wars. Jon's never been on a plane before, and the only country he's been to besides the US is Canada... so I'm really excited to share this experience with him. I can't wait!
I know disappearing for a month and a half was a crappy thing to do, but I'm not going to apologize. In the last month and a half I've turned my life around. Instead of wanting to stay in bed and hide from the world, I now get up and can't wait to start my day. I'm going for walks every day with my mom, I'm eating better, I'm working out, I'm in love with my man, and I have my best friend back. Things are good. Things are great, actually, and if taking a month and a half off was the only way to get to this place, I think it was worth it.