Lacking focus
I just don't have the focus that I need. Is it the ambien I started taking after my mothers death? Is it the stress of being a single mother and trying to make ends meet when I accepted all the debt at the divorce? All I know for sure is any mess I have made, I made myself and that means I should be able to clean it up, right? But I can't focus on anything long enough to figure anything out and I need a win. A life win, a career win, a mommy win. Just a win.
As my kids grow up and move on, what am I, if not a mother? How do I get a life of my own, all own my own?