just stuff
last night was pretty much, awful =P i couldn't tell you why, but i kept having these terrible dreams, and i felt so weird that i kept waking up. it was just one of those nights where i couldn't sleep. i'd wake myself up thinking about shit, and stuff that i have to do and just everything, something i thought i had almost grown out of. i have predominantly been sleeping not so bad lately, but last night was like a blast from the past. just everything was bothering me. it was VERY weird...
and lately i've been feeling really dizzy or light headed randomly. like yesterday, when i started working in the pharmacy, i was fine and then all of a sudden it was a lot of effort to stand up, and i felt like i had a fever. everything was wobbly and it was almost impossible to make out anything type of writing. like my eyes just couldn't focus. and my head felt kind of the way it does when you sit up too fast, or hold your breath too long. i've been getting these random "dizzy spells" a lot lately and i can't figure out why, but they always come at the most random moments. i had one this morning and i almost fell right over =(
i'm going out to Joppa Flats today so this should be interesting. hopefully i won't get dizzy and fall in the mud!! =P then i'd have to take ANOTHER shower again ><. i really don't want to go to class today, i feel like there is something else i should be doing. not that i can think of anything that would technically be more important than school right now but hey.
the weather is absolutely perfect today!! not too hot, and cool enough (although i think it's mostly because of this AWSOME WIND!!!) and it's not directly sunny, but it's not cloudy either ^^. i'd really LOVE to get some pictures today, i might still. i have photography tonight, but we're just critiqueing our projects and i don't have much of anything to turn in...so maybe i'll make better use of my time and take some photos or something, although it does look like there are some rain clouds rolling in... =(
i WANT to go visit my Christopher today, but his mum is being psycho bitch and he has to go see vince (sounds like a foreign affair ^^) and then he has to go to work =(. lol i get yelled at for hanging out with him too much at work apparently. although i think yesterday was just a bad day for him.
Mike and Ghia might be coming out this weekend i think??? that would be entertaining =D i've had a couple people actually kind of show up from the past this week. My friend Adelle in Ohio got in touch with me recently which was awsome because i really miss her!!! (she needs to be online more often now that she can be ><) and Benny in fact was talking about how much he missed going into Boston with me around Christmas time, and that he REALLY wanted lobster rolls ^^ lol silly kid. he said if he could come up with the thousand dollars for a ticket he might come out for a visit ^^ and then of course there's mike and ghia again =D <3 i haven't been to Salem in a REALLY REALLY long time!!! and the last time i was in Boston wasn't exactly a happy occasion. lucky Chris got to go though =P i think i'm going to see if i can schedual a campus tour and an interview with someone at BU though, because i'd still really like to go and if i can pull off another good semester i should stand a decent chance of getting in, despite my mom's insistence that i go to school in Florida.
Speaking of which, i guess she might not even move now. Something about pay steps being changed up here and her new "license" to teach highschool biology. she says she could potentially be making a little more money up here in eight years than she could down there teaching. who knows. all i hear for four years is that we're moving and now no one knows! she should find out soon though because last i heard if they did it would be during this coming summer.
i don't really want to go to Florida, i hate it down there. there is a really awsome school i'd love to go to, but it's in Florida =P. I guess California isn't happening. my mom isn't to keen on the idea, so much so that she is toying with threatening not to help pay for school if i go out there. Chris can't go which is a big deal, and who knows what Eric is planning on doing =( *hugs* damn i'd really really miss you guys!!!!!!! T_T i've also concidered BU and Tufts, but Tufts closes November 1st i think, so that's not much of an option. i guess as of right now i'd REALLY like to go to BU, and i'd consider North Eastern too because it has a decent Marine Bio program for the area, and it's still in Boston. I didn't get to see much of the campus but what i did see didn't impress me and i've heard more nice things about BU. beggars can't be choosy though =P.
see? what it comes down to is that i really have no idea what i'm doing or where i want to go *shrugs* o well. guess i'll just have to pick something and hope it goes ^^ jesus i've had like, twenty years to figure this out now =P
BIRTHDAY TOMORROW!!!! =D =D =D =D =D =D =D TWENTY!!! OO
ah well it's getting time to start getting ready for my lab so i guess i'm heading out soon... =P
and lately i've been feeling really dizzy or light headed randomly. like yesterday, when i started working in the pharmacy, i was fine and then all of a sudden it was a lot of effort to stand up, and i felt like i had a fever. everything was wobbly and it was almost impossible to make out anything type of writing. like my eyes just couldn't focus. and my head felt kind of the way it does when you sit up too fast, or hold your breath too long. i've been getting these random "dizzy spells" a lot lately and i can't figure out why, but they always come at the most random moments. i had one this morning and i almost fell right over =(
i'm going out to Joppa Flats today so this should be interesting. hopefully i won't get dizzy and fall in the mud!! =P then i'd have to take ANOTHER shower again ><. i really don't want to go to class today, i feel like there is something else i should be doing. not that i can think of anything that would technically be more important than school right now but hey.
the weather is absolutely perfect today!! not too hot, and cool enough (although i think it's mostly because of this AWSOME WIND!!!) and it's not directly sunny, but it's not cloudy either ^^. i'd really LOVE to get some pictures today, i might still. i have photography tonight, but we're just critiqueing our projects and i don't have much of anything to turn in...so maybe i'll make better use of my time and take some photos or something, although it does look like there are some rain clouds rolling in... =(
i WANT to go visit my Christopher today, but his mum is being psycho bitch and he has to go see vince (sounds like a foreign affair ^^) and then he has to go to work =(. lol i get yelled at for hanging out with him too much at work apparently. although i think yesterday was just a bad day for him.
Mike and Ghia might be coming out this weekend i think??? that would be entertaining =D i've had a couple people actually kind of show up from the past this week. My friend Adelle in Ohio got in touch with me recently which was awsome because i really miss her!!! (she needs to be online more often now that she can be ><) and Benny in fact was talking about how much he missed going into Boston with me around Christmas time, and that he REALLY wanted lobster rolls ^^ lol silly kid. he said if he could come up with the thousand dollars for a ticket he might come out for a visit ^^ and then of course there's mike and ghia again =D <3 i haven't been to Salem in a REALLY REALLY long time!!! and the last time i was in Boston wasn't exactly a happy occasion. lucky Chris got to go though =P i think i'm going to see if i can schedual a campus tour and an interview with someone at BU though, because i'd still really like to go and if i can pull off another good semester i should stand a decent chance of getting in, despite my mom's insistence that i go to school in Florida.
Speaking of which, i guess she might not even move now. Something about pay steps being changed up here and her new "license" to teach highschool biology. she says she could potentially be making a little more money up here in eight years than she could down there teaching. who knows. all i hear for four years is that we're moving and now no one knows! she should find out soon though because last i heard if they did it would be during this coming summer.
i don't really want to go to Florida, i hate it down there. there is a really awsome school i'd love to go to, but it's in Florida =P. I guess California isn't happening. my mom isn't to keen on the idea, so much so that she is toying with threatening not to help pay for school if i go out there. Chris can't go which is a big deal, and who knows what Eric is planning on doing =( *hugs* damn i'd really really miss you guys!!!!!!! T_T i've also concidered BU and Tufts, but Tufts closes November 1st i think, so that's not much of an option. i guess as of right now i'd REALLY like to go to BU, and i'd consider North Eastern too because it has a decent Marine Bio program for the area, and it's still in Boston. I didn't get to see much of the campus but what i did see didn't impress me and i've heard more nice things about BU. beggars can't be choosy though =P.
see? what it comes down to is that i really have no idea what i'm doing or where i want to go *shrugs* o well. guess i'll just have to pick something and hope it goes ^^ jesus i've had like, twenty years to figure this out now =P
BIRTHDAY TOMORROW!!!! =D =D =D =D =D =D =D TWENTY!!! OO
ah well it's getting time to start getting ready for my lab so i guess i'm heading out soon... =P