why hello LJ heres my dramaaaaa
this year in a nutshell:
started college-car accident-tattoo-boy problems-smoekd too much weed-quit smoking weed
so i'm done with my freshman year of college. this year was fucking ridiculous. everything is NOTHING like i had thought it would be...i hated dorming. absolutely despised it. i came home every thursday night and went back every sunday night. there was nothing to do noone was friendly and idk i just hated it. my roommate was the coolest though and we kept each other entertained although both of us went home on theweekends. i just wish i did some shit differently but oh well. im commuting next year so that should be better and by then hopefully ill get my new mazda 3 bc my lease for the jetta is up in a couple of months. this year was NUTS when it came to boys...met some jerks...hurt some people...me and meximelt broke up because he was secretly in love with his best friend the whole time blah blah blah fucking six months ofmy life downnn the drainnn. oh well he was a straight up loser anyway. then there was peter who i actaully liked alot...i actually got in my accident coming home from his apartment in howard beach. hmmmmmm after i got in my car accident he NEVER called me again. and i havent talked to him since. im proud of myself i didnt do sanything but kiss him because he turned out to be a dick. then there was fucking aj. hmmmm what to say about AJ...grimey dirtbag drugdealer much? dont even askkkk how i met him....some girl im friends with at school it was her bfs friend...i never liked him tohugh he was pretty okay at times but i saw his true colors veryyy quickly. at that point in my lfie i smoked weed WAY too much like every day. it was bad. thennnnnn chris happened.(which my weed smoking habits got even WORSE bc thats all that kidever wanted to fuckin do) i thought i was in love with him the whole time but i realize now i just convinced myself that bc i didnt have anyone else who lvoed me that much and i figured i wud just try it out? sounds FUCKED up but idk im fucked up i guess. i dont care. he was just choosing weed over me all the time...like valentines day he chose what we would eat so he would have enough money to buy weed after for us? i tihnk after that night i really began to realize i was living a lie. i really tried to stick it out though...then that night i hungout with tom for the first time since god knows when happened. i never cheated on chris at all. i dont do that shit. but something about tom made me realize even more that i didnt want to be with chris. it was the craziest thing ever. tom had just changed so much its ridiculous. and he was just...fun. he didnt wanna go smoke and chill and watch movies all night like chris would want to. he wanted to go out and do things...well to sum it up...i winded up breaking up with chris because i was lyingto myslef and now im with tom and ive never been happier. even though alot of people dont like him for there own reasons- i truely love him. i never had this typeo f relationship with someone before. we just have so much fun together. and we even got a kitten together whose name is kix and shes fucking adorable. we named her kix because shes black with white feet so it looks like shes wearing little white "kicks" . we keep her at toms house becasue im there everyday anyway but shes ours. no one gets us and i dont expect them to. and personally i dont care what anyone has to say about me, about him especially or about us. theyre not us they dont get it...hes just amazing like the kid texted me just now and told me "i got you an avocado because i know you love them" hahah like honestly if thats not love then idk what it is...out of all my boyfriends ive had he has given me the most gifts and hes very thoughtful. i just love him for who he is and he loves me for who i am. its great.
oh& i love the fact that im workingat my SCHOOL this summer. i can never fucking get away from this place i swear. but oh well ten dollars an hour changes my thinking a bit so fuck it.
i miss my friends i havent seen them in a whileeeee=[
hopefully ill see them two!
but besides that i lost two friends this year becase they werE GRIMEY CUNTS
no seriously....worst friends EVER. im so much better without them its not even funny...they make me laugh at how pathetic they are. they prank my phone and shit because they hav nothing better to do with there livessss hahahaha
welllll talk to you...idk when?
doubt anyone reads this anyway...
<3 melanie ann
oh and i realized today that one of my favorite things to do is smoke a 27 in my backyard while drinking a caramel iced latte. that is all.
started college-car accident-tattoo-boy problems-smoekd too much weed-quit smoking weed
so i'm done with my freshman year of college. this year was fucking ridiculous. everything is NOTHING like i had thought it would be...i hated dorming. absolutely despised it. i came home every thursday night and went back every sunday night. there was nothing to do noone was friendly and idk i just hated it. my roommate was the coolest though and we kept each other entertained although both of us went home on theweekends. i just wish i did some shit differently but oh well. im commuting next year so that should be better and by then hopefully ill get my new mazda 3 bc my lease for the jetta is up in a couple of months. this year was NUTS when it came to boys...met some jerks...hurt some people...me and meximelt broke up because he was secretly in love with his best friend the whole time blah blah blah fucking six months ofmy life downnn the drainnn. oh well he was a straight up loser anyway. then there was peter who i actaully liked alot...i actually got in my accident coming home from his apartment in howard beach. hmmmmmm after i got in my car accident he NEVER called me again. and i havent talked to him since. im proud of myself i didnt do sanything but kiss him because he turned out to be a dick. then there was fucking aj. hmmmm what to say about AJ...grimey dirtbag drugdealer much? dont even askkkk how i met him....some girl im friends with at school it was her bfs friend...i never liked him tohugh he was pretty okay at times but i saw his true colors veryyy quickly. at that point in my lfie i smoked weed WAY too much like every day. it was bad. thennnnnn chris happened.(which my weed smoking habits got even WORSE bc thats all that kidever wanted to fuckin do) i thought i was in love with him the whole time but i realize now i just convinced myself that bc i didnt have anyone else who lvoed me that much and i figured i wud just try it out? sounds FUCKED up but idk im fucked up i guess. i dont care. he was just choosing weed over me all the time...like valentines day he chose what we would eat so he would have enough money to buy weed after for us? i tihnk after that night i really began to realize i was living a lie. i really tried to stick it out though...then that night i hungout with tom for the first time since god knows when happened. i never cheated on chris at all. i dont do that shit. but something about tom made me realize even more that i didnt want to be with chris. it was the craziest thing ever. tom had just changed so much its ridiculous. and he was just...fun. he didnt wanna go smoke and chill and watch movies all night like chris would want to. he wanted to go out and do things...well to sum it up...i winded up breaking up with chris because i was lyingto myslef and now im with tom and ive never been happier. even though alot of people dont like him for there own reasons- i truely love him. i never had this typeo f relationship with someone before. we just have so much fun together. and we even got a kitten together whose name is kix and shes fucking adorable. we named her kix because shes black with white feet so it looks like shes wearing little white "kicks" . we keep her at toms house becasue im there everyday anyway but shes ours. no one gets us and i dont expect them to. and personally i dont care what anyone has to say about me, about him especially or about us. theyre not us they dont get it...hes just amazing like the kid texted me just now and told me "i got you an avocado because i know you love them" hahah like honestly if thats not love then idk what it is...out of all my boyfriends ive had he has given me the most gifts and hes very thoughtful. i just love him for who he is and he loves me for who i am. its great.
oh& i love the fact that im workingat my SCHOOL this summer. i can never fucking get away from this place i swear. but oh well ten dollars an hour changes my thinking a bit so fuck it.
i miss my friends i havent seen them in a whileeeee=[
hopefully ill see them two!
but besides that i lost two friends this year becase they werE GRIMEY CUNTS
no seriously....worst friends EVER. im so much better without them its not even funny...they make me laugh at how pathetic they are. they prank my phone and shit because they hav nothing better to do with there livessss hahahaha
welllll talk to you...idk when?
doubt anyone reads this anyway...
<3 melanie ann
oh and i realized today that one of my favorite things to do is smoke a 27 in my backyard while drinking a caramel iced latte. that is all.