its too late
Can some one slap me please? Why do I have to say bad things that would probably come true?! I'm really damn shit headed.
And, I'm aching all over, I'm coughing, my throat's damn itchy, I'm sniffing my nose, I'm FEVERISH.
Next thing you know is I'm going to be sent to the hospital, probably, tomorrow morning.
No, I ain't faking. I'm absolutely serious.
End up that I'm still gonna die soon, although H1N1's CFR isn't high at all, but there is THAT possibility what.
Yes, you've got it, H1N1. Although nothing's confirmed, but it seriously sucks. Infected with a damn disease and not knowing how is it going to change your life.
How do you explain all the disappointments I'm going to get? All those plans that was set long ago and put in hard work for. What would become of it now?
Oh, its just the Zoo, just a tiny field trip that all of your closest friends are going. Best thing is that this has been planned since the holidays, and set to be July 11 during the holidays.
Oh well, its nothing. Its just the 5th month you guys are getting together, it doesn't matter anyway. There'd be lots of 5 months to come if I survive this.
Damn. If I survive this. I don't know how long would it take.
You probably think I'm thinking too much, well, I could be. Thanks for all the love and care and concern that everyone gave. Appreciated it loads.
At this point of time, I shall say that I'm not pessimistic, even the majority reading this would think I am the biggest pessimist on Earth. I don't care! I need to whine, I'm getting H1N1 damn it.
H1N1. Researching about it only now is all too late. I guess that's the general mentality with everyone.
Oh, Won't so suay lah. Whole Singapore even say small also got 4 million people, how to kena me?
Oh well. I had this too. Until now. I feel damn stupid for not taking precautions.
Coming home on the train was a torturing task today. I made myself not talk to Ding Chao on the train because I took temp at Dover and found I was down with fever.
Oh oh. 37.7 degrees.
Made it a point to text Ken, Zaki and Jonathan to inform them about it, and getting them to take care of themselves. Zaki's so sweet when he tried to make me feel better. "Its okay. If all kana then class outing at hospital lor."
So sweet of you Zaki. Thanks, that did a lot to comfort me. (:
Getting myself to shut up is a difficult task, especially when I have to cough. I didn't even dare to cough, darn lah. Keep drinking water to try keep the coughing down. I don't want to infect more people.
Not talking really kills, good thing is dingchao was sleepy too. Alighted at Sengkang while he sat to Punggol to find his friend.
Called home and Mum told me to stay outside at the door until she passed me a mask. Good thing we bought them yesterday, so much for my social responsibility.
How would it exactly feel when your parents treated you as a disease. Bad feeling right?
Studio recordings would have to be pushed back too, and that sucks. Thoned the whole of monday night to book it, and if I don't get to use it, I'd get very grumpy. ): Already got Chu to help me write down more names so that they can still use it if I'm not in school.
2 freaking slots! Supposed to use for drum recording, and Averil even helped us book another slot. Okay lor, like that how?!
Only if I didn't get this damn fever. Only if H1N1 didn't find me.
Oh well oh well. Now how?! Like that lor. Everything depends on the damn report tmr. I hope I don't have to wait for too long. I hope I don't kena H1N1.
Four freaking hours of Studio! Cannot see VIP play drums! No Zoo! ): ): WASTED WASTED WASTED WASTED. Gahhh. I'm damn pek chek now.
that's enough whining for the day. Good night.
and this isn't ordinary.