Just Ranting
I'm mad because my cousin cancelled Corpus on me at last minute. What a waste of vacation time. I'm mad because nothing like waking up only to hear people talking about you. I'm mad because she hasn't made an effort to hang out since the other one quit... didn't even respond to a comment I made. I'm mad because I am tired of being treated like shit. I try to do as much as I can for everyone else, but I don't get much in return. Well, i've probably become a little more selfish with my time the last couple of years because of that. I get tired of doing for everyone else and nothing for myself; and I get tired of them always wanting something from me, but never do anything for me when I ask (which is very, very little). I often do what I do because that is what friends/family are suppose to do. I guess I am on my own with that one. I am mad that I get called lazy, but yet I work and go to school. I guess there is a crime in wanting to relax a while after spending 6-9 hours on your feet or putting in 10 hours a day between leaving for school and coming home. If that's the case, then there is also a crime in having to put chores & other activities as a second priority to homework/studying. Heaven for bid if I want to succeed in school and not waste thousands of dollars. Excuses? No. Apparently people just don't understand the physical AND mental exhaustion that comes with my current life-style.
I'm mad because none of events that full under the "major" category ever work out. EVER! Like, getting a shot at booking a show for Fat Daddy's back in the day. Failed. How about the benefit show that Debbie, Kirk, Kenny/Sarah from Fat Daddy's were going to do for me? Failed. Man, oh, man... I try to plan a trip to Austin for SXSW with Audrey & wanted to take Kaitlin to surprise her with Jack's Mannequin. That one blew up in my face big time. Audrey was down with whatever, but that is when I knew for fact I caught Kaitlin in a web of lies. Failed. I planned a surprise birthday dinner for my mom & it actually worked out, however, she got mad because I didn't tell her to dress up or whatever. She let it be known when we got there. Boy didn't I feel like shit after that. Why do I even try? Some-what failed. In middle school, I attempted to plan a surprise birthday party for my best friend at the time. A few people came, but it was a mess. Failed. I've tried planning my own birthday outing a couple of times. I thought I had a huge circle of "friends" (because of all the promoting I did) and that several of them would actually come. I had between 12 & 16 people say they were going to join me, but in reality only 5-6 showed up. Hell..some of them it was probably only because Rockett Queen was playing. Some what failed & embarrasing too.
Speaking of birthdays... if there is something I know someone will absolutely love, I try my best to come up with the money to get it for them. For example, I took Donnie and Nathie to see Flaming Lips & Muse because I knew it would make there entire year (and I was right!). I've gotten tickets for my sister to Tori Amos because she was her absolute faaaave. I got Walter tickets to Butch Walker (for his bday)when he opened for Avril. Walter had never gotten to see him live as much as he loves him. Gypsy, Jamie, Suzanne all surprise eachother with tix they would love I don't do this expecting anything in return, however, it would be nice if someone would think to do it for me. . Well..... now that I think about it, Mark did that for me once. He surprised me with tickets to The Submarines. I hadn't seen them live and heard them for the first time when he and I were at Starbucks one time. It was faint over the speakers, but the music really caught my attention. Since then, their music has been featured on Nick & Noras Infinite Playlist and the IPhone commercials. That was super sweet of him.
I'm mad because none of events that full under the "major" category ever work out. EVER! Like, getting a shot at booking a show for Fat Daddy's back in the day. Failed. How about the benefit show that Debbie, Kirk, Kenny/Sarah from Fat Daddy's were going to do for me? Failed. Man, oh, man... I try to plan a trip to Austin for SXSW with Audrey & wanted to take Kaitlin to surprise her with Jack's Mannequin. That one blew up in my face big time. Audrey was down with whatever, but that is when I knew for fact I caught Kaitlin in a web of lies. Failed. I planned a surprise birthday dinner for my mom & it actually worked out, however, she got mad because I didn't tell her to dress up or whatever. She let it be known when we got there. Boy didn't I feel like shit after that. Why do I even try? Some-what failed. In middle school, I attempted to plan a surprise birthday party for my best friend at the time. A few people came, but it was a mess. Failed. I've tried planning my own birthday outing a couple of times. I thought I had a huge circle of "friends" (because of all the promoting I did) and that several of them would actually come. I had between 12 & 16 people say they were going to join me, but in reality only 5-6 showed up. Hell..some of them it was probably only because Rockett Queen was playing. Some what failed & embarrasing too.
Speaking of birthdays... if there is something I know someone will absolutely love, I try my best to come up with the money to get it for them. For example, I took Donnie and Nathie to see Flaming Lips & Muse because I knew it would make there entire year (and I was right!). I've gotten tickets for my sister to Tori Amos because she was her absolute faaaave. I got Walter tickets to Butch Walker (for his bday)when he opened for Avril. Walter had never gotten to see him live as much as he loves him. Gypsy, Jamie, Suzanne all surprise eachother with tix they would love I don't do this expecting anything in return, however, it would be nice if someone would think to do it for me. . Well..... now that I think about it, Mark did that for me once. He surprised me with tickets to The Submarines. I hadn't seen them live and heard them for the first time when he and I were at Starbucks one time. It was faint over the speakers, but the music really caught my attention. Since then, their music has been featured on Nick & Noras Infinite Playlist and the IPhone commercials. That was super sweet of him.