The people you hurt along the way....
I've been thinking a lot recently about the people I've hurt in my life unintentionally up to this point, mostly throughout college. Case in point, when I was sophomore, I went with IV to Cocoa Beach on Spring Break. While there, we met a group of guys who ended up staying to play with us for a few days. Josh, this one kid, and I hit it off really well. My friend Erin really liked him, and so we all spent a lot of time together. After we got back to VA and he went back to school in FL, he and I kept talking and wasting hours upon hours on the phone. Well, when I started seeing Glenn a year later, we lost touch. I haven't talked to him in three years, and a whole lot has changed. He was always a really awesome guy, and he was cute. But I got into school, my friends, and Glenn. I've never erased him from my buddy list, but he disappeared for about two years. He was on over the weekend and had in his profile that he was on MySpace. So, being me who never lets an old friend go by without saying hello, dropped him a quick message. Well, imagine my surprise when he posted that I "looked as gorgeous" as ever. Then, in the next message sent me, " My plan? My plan is to come visit you up North and sweep your off your Irish feet and bring you down here with me :). " I meant life plans of course. But seriouslyh, I just love a guy who doesn't play games and is clear about his intentions. He called me today and I realized that I really hurt him when I started getting "sketchy" with Glenn. He told me that I got "sketchy" straight up. He was an awesome guy back then, and I don't think I ever realized how into me he was. I kind of liked him, but he was in Florida, who was I kidding? We've grown up, he's more mature now. I was just blown away, that's all, that he would say those things to me after three years. I don't know, it's just wierd to get in touch with people from your past in silly and random ways. I'm sure we'll pick up right where we left off, but we'll see where we get taken this time around. I'm not interested in really dating anyone now, or even being pursued by someone so serious. I like playing around, I like having men around, but who am I kidding.... ??? This can't last forever.