A New Start
SO much has changed since I first started this journal, I need a place to put whats been happening in my life with these new changes and these new beginnings. I leave for college next Friday and i am very nervous for that but that's the future, and I need to start with the past.
After breaking up with my boyfriend of almost two years I decided my life needed to change, my image and everything else in my life. I got into drugs for a long while and finally my mom had enough and sat me down and told me that if i didn't change my lifestyle i was going to be put into rehab. That hit me hard and after that talk i really started thinking. For the first time ever really i went out and spent some money on myself getting new clothes getting a new image. after being taken for long I wanted to finally enjoy single life. I wanted t be the object of those I come into contact with desires. I was the ugly ducking growing up and finally Ive morphed into something worth looking at. I started making changes in my appearance and I started noticing more people becoming attracted to me. Its started a spark in me. I want to be that hot chick, the sexy person that everyone wants. I fake my confidence and guys fall for that confident person they think i am. People from both of my jobs started becoming interested in me. at first it was strange. not many have ever even looked twice at me and now here i am getting hit on and finally i can enjoy it. the only problem... everyone who seems to be attracted to me are older guys. There Rob who i work with at teds, hes 28ish i think and has a kid! that's insane. and then at my other job there's this guy rich. Im attracted to rich so much but hes 30! im only 17 Why are these older guys attracted to me..?
Soo after being a horny person for a while now, after all its been forever since i had been laid, and I have needs to! I hooked up with the first guy rob from work in the parking lot of our job after hours. I think he could sense just how horny I was. After a hot session in his car i was set. but then rich starts texting me after hitting me up on facebook and we started getting on the topic of sex. I was really looking for a fwb and this guy seemed to be the perfect one for that only problem was that he was 30. but it seemed like he was the one who could lead me to where i want to go in my dull sex life. we flirted back and forth and one night at a work party we had a make-out session in the kitchen and a few people saw. and BAM there started the drama at work. people calling him a pervert for hooking up with someone whose 17 but this is like high school shit. cmon people grow the fuck up your at work work is not a place for drama. at this point both rich and I are like what ever they can all fuck there-selves. after that rich and i have made out a few times, and finally had sex in my car. it wasn't what I expected really cramped super hot but we didn't have many options.. but It seems i am far more attracted to him... his cute freckles deep brown eyes and his attraction in me. This Friday we got a hotel room, and I cannot wait I want him so bad.
But that wasn't where i was going with this. Guys have finally started taking an interest in me but it all happens the week before I leave for college. WHERE WERE THESE GUYS IN THE BEGINNING OF THE SUMMER! lol
I hope college I can find guys who want me also..Its starting to give me a big ego tho.. Like today at work was quite entertaining. I blew off job 1 during the day it was the first night in a while and I needed my sun but rich decided he wants to spend as much time with me as he can get before i leave for college so he wanted to hang out. It was nice we went to the mall then got bored went to the pet sore on central and then just drove around got ice cream and I showed him where I grew up and we got ice cream and just sat and talked and kissed a little. It was so nice. and then at job two It was me working with rob this guy teddy and this guy Joeseah. now joesaih is this tall sexy italin guy with muscles. hes yummy but sadly hes taken and he was talking to me and we were talking about his wedding and he goes sorry im taken and i laughed and said its ok your to old for me and hes like I was gonna say you're to young for me, but i got the impression if he wasn't taken he would've been interested in me. that was interesting.. but later on this customer came in and Ive seen him before and he caught my eye and i gave him a smile.. later on as i was cleaning tables he struck up a conversation with me hitting on me hardcore. he asked me my age and a lie popped off my tongue. twenty I said and i asked him and he said he was 26. old enough to have to ask he said. and mentally I was like what is up with all these older guys interested in me. but hes asking me all these questions and lie after lie flows off my tongue and I was like wow I am a great bullshitter I told him I was in my third year of college and we talked about a bunch of stuff. He was just in the area doing construction work at home depot and was staying across the street and tonight was his last night and he decided to stop by because he was hoping I was working. We ended up talking for half an hour and it was super slow at work. and i finally said I had to go and maybe I'll see him around. but when i went into the back teddy was like so I see you've made a new friend and I told him it would appear so. But then the guys kinda gave me a cold shoulder the rest of the night. it was strange. maybe they were jealous?
Later as I was leaving Rob came up to me and I was teasing him bit during work and he came with me in the parking lot and I countuied to tease him and hes like lets go to my car and I told him I really didnt want to and he kept pestering hardcore begging and begging. but I said no and stuck to it. Im just not in the mood tonight but he was soo mad I gave him blue balls. But its a game to me. How horny can I get these guys and just leave them. I know im a horrible person for doing this. Buts its fun..Its my turn to use guys instead of letting them use me. And i deff plan on using this new kind of sexual power I seem to have over these guys to my advantage.
After breaking up with my boyfriend of almost two years I decided my life needed to change, my image and everything else in my life. I got into drugs for a long while and finally my mom had enough and sat me down and told me that if i didn't change my lifestyle i was going to be put into rehab. That hit me hard and after that talk i really started thinking. For the first time ever really i went out and spent some money on myself getting new clothes getting a new image. after being taken for long I wanted to finally enjoy single life. I wanted t be the object of those I come into contact with desires. I was the ugly ducking growing up and finally Ive morphed into something worth looking at. I started making changes in my appearance and I started noticing more people becoming attracted to me. Its started a spark in me. I want to be that hot chick, the sexy person that everyone wants. I fake my confidence and guys fall for that confident person they think i am. People from both of my jobs started becoming interested in me. at first it was strange. not many have ever even looked twice at me and now here i am getting hit on and finally i can enjoy it. the only problem... everyone who seems to be attracted to me are older guys. There Rob who i work with at teds, hes 28ish i think and has a kid! that's insane. and then at my other job there's this guy rich. Im attracted to rich so much but hes 30! im only 17 Why are these older guys attracted to me..?
Soo after being a horny person for a while now, after all its been forever since i had been laid, and I have needs to! I hooked up with the first guy rob from work in the parking lot of our job after hours. I think he could sense just how horny I was. After a hot session in his car i was set. but then rich starts texting me after hitting me up on facebook and we started getting on the topic of sex. I was really looking for a fwb and this guy seemed to be the perfect one for that only problem was that he was 30. but it seemed like he was the one who could lead me to where i want to go in my dull sex life. we flirted back and forth and one night at a work party we had a make-out session in the kitchen and a few people saw. and BAM there started the drama at work. people calling him a pervert for hooking up with someone whose 17 but this is like high school shit. cmon people grow the fuck up your at work work is not a place for drama. at this point both rich and I are like what ever they can all fuck there-selves. after that rich and i have made out a few times, and finally had sex in my car. it wasn't what I expected really cramped super hot but we didn't have many options.. but It seems i am far more attracted to him... his cute freckles deep brown eyes and his attraction in me. This Friday we got a hotel room, and I cannot wait I want him so bad.
But that wasn't where i was going with this. Guys have finally started taking an interest in me but it all happens the week before I leave for college. WHERE WERE THESE GUYS IN THE BEGINNING OF THE SUMMER! lol
I hope college I can find guys who want me also..Its starting to give me a big ego tho.. Like today at work was quite entertaining. I blew off job 1 during the day it was the first night in a while and I needed my sun but rich decided he wants to spend as much time with me as he can get before i leave for college so he wanted to hang out. It was nice we went to the mall then got bored went to the pet sore on central and then just drove around got ice cream and I showed him where I grew up and we got ice cream and just sat and talked and kissed a little. It was so nice. and then at job two It was me working with rob this guy teddy and this guy Joeseah. now joesaih is this tall sexy italin guy with muscles. hes yummy but sadly hes taken and he was talking to me and we were talking about his wedding and he goes sorry im taken and i laughed and said its ok your to old for me and hes like I was gonna say you're to young for me, but i got the impression if he wasn't taken he would've been interested in me. that was interesting.. but later on this customer came in and Ive seen him before and he caught my eye and i gave him a smile.. later on as i was cleaning tables he struck up a conversation with me hitting on me hardcore. he asked me my age and a lie popped off my tongue. twenty I said and i asked him and he said he was 26. old enough to have to ask he said. and mentally I was like what is up with all these older guys interested in me. but hes asking me all these questions and lie after lie flows off my tongue and I was like wow I am a great bullshitter I told him I was in my third year of college and we talked about a bunch of stuff. He was just in the area doing construction work at home depot and was staying across the street and tonight was his last night and he decided to stop by because he was hoping I was working. We ended up talking for half an hour and it was super slow at work. and i finally said I had to go and maybe I'll see him around. but when i went into the back teddy was like so I see you've made a new friend and I told him it would appear so. But then the guys kinda gave me a cold shoulder the rest of the night. it was strange. maybe they were jealous?
Later as I was leaving Rob came up to me and I was teasing him bit during work and he came with me in the parking lot and I countuied to tease him and hes like lets go to my car and I told him I really didnt want to and he kept pestering hardcore begging and begging. but I said no and stuck to it. Im just not in the mood tonight but he was soo mad I gave him blue balls. But its a game to me. How horny can I get these guys and just leave them. I know im a horrible person for doing this. Buts its fun..Its my turn to use guys instead of letting them use me. And i deff plan on using this new kind of sexual power I seem to have over these guys to my advantage.