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God...im soo mad right now. No one even did ne thing and Im not PMSing...i have like no fuckin time to do ne thing...and yet i regret not tryin out for the play...GOD!!! im so pissed off...i just got mad @ my mom cuz she called me while i was driving and listening to a good song that woulda cheered me up to ask me what i fuckin wanted for dinner. I DONT FUCKIN MAKE DECISIONS!!!!!!!!!! I told her to fuckin pick something and make it or i just wont eat cuz i dont have time to screw around w/ dinner when i have this stupid ass choir concert tonight and i had to go to work cuz im broke as hell....I just feel like slapping someone across the face cuz im so pissed. I dont even kno what triggered it...i was sad b4 cuz someone keeps not fuckin callin me back or callin when they said that they wernt gonna not talk to me...Hypocracy pissed me off even tho im not totally free from bein a hypocrite at times either. None of my good friends ever call me to do ne thing either...actually no one calls me besides Amy and my fuckin Mom....WHAT THE FUCK? Im sick of puttin in all this effort to make everyone else happy and add a little bit of fun to their bad days...but i have the feeling that every fuckin person in this whole damn world is takin me for granted. NO ONE FUCKIN DOES NE THING TO TRY AND MAKE ME FEEL BETTER WHEN IM SAD/MAD!! and yet I do....when i was sick a while ago...none of my friends asked me if i was feelin better or ne thing and i got my hair cut yesterday and only 3 people said something to me w/o me pointing it out. I leave nice messages and tell people i like their hair(I notice too, what a concept)...and i always try to b happy. What if i walked around all day being gloomy and dismal...not many of my friends would like me ne more. when my friends r depressed i try to cheer them up and hope theyre better soon, but if i came to school all mad or depressed i dont think hardily ne of my friends would try to cheer me up...they would just get pissed that im mad. Basically my friends need to start giving back friendship to me as much as im giving to them. Its supposed to b a give and take relationship and its only give right about now. And actually i should clear this up...some of my friends have been there for me...and u guys should kno who u r and i thank u for that...otherwise i woulda been goin psyco like this a lot sooner. The ones who r slackin should kno who they r too...if u r one of them...please do something about this cuz im tired of it...and i dont wanna bring it up to u personally...but if it keeps goin on like this i will b forced to...