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Haven't updated in a while, I guess I should...
Not much has changed...still single, kinda. Still wishing I wasn't... Surgery keeps coming closer...I'm scurred. I'm not really scared of the surgery itself, I won't feel a thing, and I think it'll be kinda cool, but I am gonna hate not being able to be independent. I don't like having people do things for me but I like doing things for other people. Like yesterday, I helped Tara set up for gymnastics. That was actually fun, I did get NHS hours for it, but I still would've gone even if I didn't.
So we all have our good days and bad days...
Today was a bad one
I was grumpy today, so I'm sorry to all those who I normally talk to profusely or those who thought I was angry at them, I'm sorry. Fell asleep in Latin...stupid movies boring, but its better than work. Modernism usually makes me happy and if that fails, a certain person in it does, today neither really worked. In comp sci my whole class made fun of me because they are perverts...I was explaining to my teacher that I was going to have a lot of free time because of my surgery, where I either can't go out or won't be allowed to over xmas break, so I'll be online a lot in my gunslinger cast (its called thus because I'll look as if I were in a western duel) and my perverted teacher and classmates thought I was refrencing masturbating a lot over break...it was funny at the time. We all laughed a lot, but the carried it too far. there are eight kids in my comp sci class and by the end of the day, almost everyone knew about it and was calling me gunslinger...NOT COOL. So that upset me, kinda. Nothing really upsets me, just kinda bothers me until I snap, get my anger out, cool down, and then go back to being me. I snapped in physics. I had asked Ms. B for help repeatedly and she claimed that my group wasn't doing any work, which I was trying to and my group kept diverting my attention, but regardless, she wouldn't help me. So finally I settled the group down and we had gotten through about 3 questions and were working quietly when she said to the other group, "well at least you guys are trying to work unlike the other group" I responded, "Ms. B, we are working, 1-3 are finished." To which she replied..."Mhmmmm sure." skeptically. As soon as she turned around I mouthed "fuck you" to her back. The only person that saw me was emily and she nearly flipped out almost getting me in trouble. I'm sure she didn't mean to, but she was like omg, you can get in so much trouble if she had just turned around. To which Ms. B responded, looks like I can't treat you guys like adults any more. Then Emily blurted out that it was me who did it...I wasn't really angry, but with everything else that had happened today, it just wasn't something I needed right then. We are even though, Andy took a picture that I made quite humorously behind emily. It was fun, I'm not angry, nor is she, so everything worked out in the end.
Party tonight at my house
730
Guys are sleeping over
Girls are leaving...dunno when
Emily refuses to come...jk, but I wish she could
Gonna have lotsa food, should be a fun time
I need chapstick...I've never needed it before and now this year all of a sudden my lips are sooo dry and they hurt. It's not cool at all.
Not much has changed...still single, kinda. Still wishing I wasn't... Surgery keeps coming closer...I'm scurred. I'm not really scared of the surgery itself, I won't feel a thing, and I think it'll be kinda cool, but I am gonna hate not being able to be independent. I don't like having people do things for me but I like doing things for other people. Like yesterday, I helped Tara set up for gymnastics. That was actually fun, I did get NHS hours for it, but I still would've gone even if I didn't.
So we all have our good days and bad days...
Today was a bad one
I was grumpy today, so I'm sorry to all those who I normally talk to profusely or those who thought I was angry at them, I'm sorry. Fell asleep in Latin...stupid movies boring, but its better than work. Modernism usually makes me happy and if that fails, a certain person in it does, today neither really worked. In comp sci my whole class made fun of me because they are perverts...I was explaining to my teacher that I was going to have a lot of free time because of my surgery, where I either can't go out or won't be allowed to over xmas break, so I'll be online a lot in my gunslinger cast (its called thus because I'll look as if I were in a western duel) and my perverted teacher and classmates thought I was refrencing masturbating a lot over break...it was funny at the time. We all laughed a lot, but the carried it too far. there are eight kids in my comp sci class and by the end of the day, almost everyone knew about it and was calling me gunslinger...NOT COOL. So that upset me, kinda. Nothing really upsets me, just kinda bothers me until I snap, get my anger out, cool down, and then go back to being me. I snapped in physics. I had asked Ms. B for help repeatedly and she claimed that my group wasn't doing any work, which I was trying to and my group kept diverting my attention, but regardless, she wouldn't help me. So finally I settled the group down and we had gotten through about 3 questions and were working quietly when she said to the other group, "well at least you guys are trying to work unlike the other group" I responded, "Ms. B, we are working, 1-3 are finished." To which she replied..."Mhmmmm sure." skeptically. As soon as she turned around I mouthed "fuck you" to her back. The only person that saw me was emily and she nearly flipped out almost getting me in trouble. I'm sure she didn't mean to, but she was like omg, you can get in so much trouble if she had just turned around. To which Ms. B responded, looks like I can't treat you guys like adults any more. Then Emily blurted out that it was me who did it...I wasn't really angry, but with everything else that had happened today, it just wasn't something I needed right then. We are even though, Andy took a picture that I made quite humorously behind emily. It was fun, I'm not angry, nor is she, so everything worked out in the end.
Party tonight at my house
730
Guys are sleeping over
Girls are leaving...dunno when
Emily refuses to come...jk, but I wish she could
Gonna have lotsa food, should be a fun time
I need chapstick...I've never needed it before and now this year all of a sudden my lips are sooo dry and they hurt. It's not cool at all.