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Dear Friends,
Please don't think that I forget. I do know that I am not alone. I do know that I am loved. I do know that I am not the only one who feels this way. I do not mean to belittle this. Only, our busy-ness keeps us from each other, and I have no stories to share other than my work and the relative lonliness of this dark room. I don't mean to be the cause of my own sorrow. I don't mean to be the cause of yours.
I don't even know what I'm saying anymore. I wish I had something more than this. My initiating heart is tired of being shot down. Morbid thoughts follow me around. It wouldn't make a difference if I wasn't here. It wouldn't change anything, would it? Maybe I'll do that.
~ Gin
Please don't think that I forget. I do know that I am not alone. I do know that I am loved. I do know that I am not the only one who feels this way. I do not mean to belittle this. Only, our busy-ness keeps us from each other, and I have no stories to share other than my work and the relative lonliness of this dark room. I don't mean to be the cause of my own sorrow. I don't mean to be the cause of yours.
I don't even know what I'm saying anymore. I wish I had something more than this. My initiating heart is tired of being shot down. Morbid thoughts follow me around. It wouldn't make a difference if I wasn't here. It wouldn't change anything, would it? Maybe I'll do that.
~ Gin