kissing the lipless

[simple_me]

i am good for nothing in this country.
i feel like.
what?

there's scary thoughts wandering around the hallways of my brainy.
i have to decide what happiness means to ME.
certainly not wealth, or fame, or status.. or well, maybe I'm not so certain.
thank you society for fucking up my perspective.
i just want to do good and recieve some sort of fair reward for this.
(and logic yells back: "it's not that simple, stupid".)
how will this dream machine ever be fulfilled?

hopeless is an empty feeling.
helpless is a stingy one.

I just need someone to convince me that it will be okay.