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So, I'm actually kind of tired for it being so early, but...
I don't know what it is, I can't put my finger on it exactly, but there is something in my life that I am not happy with. I have been feeling extra nostalgic lately, for everything pretty much...senior year, when I started USM, the summer Ryan and I were broken up but I still had the best summer ever, Lex, the old apartment, Portland Hall even. I guess maybe its because I pretty much don't talk to any of those people anymore. I don't talk to anyone from high school. I don't talk to Kate or Justine or Cary, I don't talk to Ryan or Brandon or Lex, or George or anyone from Gorham, I don't talk to Ben or Julie or Stacy really and I hardly even talk to Simon, and when I do, I don't know, it's weird.
I guess, and I don't know, it is very likely just me being crazy, but I just feel like halfway through the time we lived together he just kind of stopped liking me...and then we didn't see each other pretty much the whole time I was at Shaun's mom's, and I hardly talk to him now and when I do I feel like its days of me trying several routes to get in touch with him, and then us hanging out for like 3 minutes.
So I don't know if its the fact that pretty much the only people I ever talk to are Shaun, RaRyan and my mom, or that I am not in school, or something else, but it's kind of lame. I should be pretty happy because I like my apartment, my job is alright, I get paid, and nothing really bad or stressful is happening, but I feel like a middle-aged ex-jock who peaked at age 17 and now spends his days wishing he were back there again, which is sooooo lame.
But...technically, everything is good.
Oh, and someone from dell tomorrow is supposed to come fix my computer because the guy who just replaced my keyboard called them about the fact that my battery no longer charges, and so they sent more stuff.
Oh, and I think I am getting a different car soon, and I think I saw the one I am getting today.
I spent the ENTIRE day today doing laundry at my mom's, cause I had a ton and wanted to do it for free since I don't have $70 to spend doing a million loads of laundry. The entire day. I went there straight from work with my car so full of laundry it was actually really comical, and came straight back to work from there. Thats 2 hours of driving and 12 hours of laundry. Good times. I have a little bit left, but I actually got most of it done. I am going to do the rest when my mom gets back from her vacation. I am watching her dog and he makes me so sad because he is so skinny and so scared of everything. Also, he isn't Maggie. I miss Maggie. All the time.
I don't know what it is, I can't put my finger on it exactly, but there is something in my life that I am not happy with. I have been feeling extra nostalgic lately, for everything pretty much...senior year, when I started USM, the summer Ryan and I were broken up but I still had the best summer ever, Lex, the old apartment, Portland Hall even. I guess maybe its because I pretty much don't talk to any of those people anymore. I don't talk to anyone from high school. I don't talk to Kate or Justine or Cary, I don't talk to Ryan or Brandon or Lex, or George or anyone from Gorham, I don't talk to Ben or Julie or Stacy really and I hardly even talk to Simon, and when I do, I don't know, it's weird.
I guess, and I don't know, it is very likely just me being crazy, but I just feel like halfway through the time we lived together he just kind of stopped liking me...and then we didn't see each other pretty much the whole time I was at Shaun's mom's, and I hardly talk to him now and when I do I feel like its days of me trying several routes to get in touch with him, and then us hanging out for like 3 minutes.
So I don't know if its the fact that pretty much the only people I ever talk to are Shaun, RaRyan and my mom, or that I am not in school, or something else, but it's kind of lame. I should be pretty happy because I like my apartment, my job is alright, I get paid, and nothing really bad or stressful is happening, but I feel like a middle-aged ex-jock who peaked at age 17 and now spends his days wishing he were back there again, which is sooooo lame.
But...technically, everything is good.
Oh, and someone from dell tomorrow is supposed to come fix my computer because the guy who just replaced my keyboard called them about the fact that my battery no longer charges, and so they sent more stuff.
Oh, and I think I am getting a different car soon, and I think I saw the one I am getting today.
I spent the ENTIRE day today doing laundry at my mom's, cause I had a ton and wanted to do it for free since I don't have $70 to spend doing a million loads of laundry. The entire day. I went there straight from work with my car so full of laundry it was actually really comical, and came straight back to work from there. Thats 2 hours of driving and 12 hours of laundry. Good times. I have a little bit left, but I actually got most of it done. I am going to do the rest when my mom gets back from her vacation. I am watching her dog and he makes me so sad because he is so skinny and so scared of everything. Also, he isn't Maggie. I miss Maggie. All the time.