First Kaylee runs, then Jayne fights.

[simon_tam]

Last night was a night I think I would like to forget.

I just had all that anger built up. This is unbecoming of me.

First I see all that. Then I try to discuss it with Kaylee. She is hurting so much inside that it shows... too much. I think she is about to have a break down sometimes. This hurts me.

I should have been more objective and separated what goes on outside the infirmary with what goes on in it though. I did not, and now Jayne will probably be looking for me when he wakes since I doped him up.

The force of the one good punch he landed almost knocked me out. My mouth bled for a while. I think I am going to have to reseat one of my own teeth... not looking forward to that. Many more would have beaten me down, and he may not have stopped until he realized I was dead. I took the cheap way out of having my neck broken I know, but right now my neck isn't broken.

I may be the next he kills... just delaying what is to come to pass.

If that is to happen, who will be here for River? I need to prepare so she will be ok if I am gone.