So its been a while since I was here
But things are good.
I've been alcohol free now for 5 weeks and I'm surprised at how easy its all been. Not that I wanted to stop drinking, I was only drinking a bottle of wine a week on weekends, so it hasnt been hard at all. It just kind of happened and I thought I'd run with it, see how long it lasts. Last time I did this it lasted a few years - lol.
It has made my complexion much better : )
My writing is continuing. Book 3 is a 1/3 finished. Have made a committment to myself to get an agent by the end of the year and the manuscripts out. I enjoy it, but when stream of consciousness starts... I get antisocial.
Have had a few good chats with D's lately on the usual lists (polite, intelligent ones to boot) but they all chicken out at the meeting you stage or they simply stop replying. I don't get it.
Dad says Dianna is deteriorating quite badly and becomig a tad bizarre. Today she asked me to tape her recorings of drum solos, tribal ones. I asked why and she said because I've always been into them. But she hasn't, she's a purist, classical music and opera only. She asked Dad to bury her in a mausoleum as befitting. She is retracting back to her family in England.
Her blond hair is going completely jet black. It looks freaky as.
Nikki is doing much better on the Largactil. She is still violent towards Dianna (and only her) which I think has nothing to do with her mental retardation and more to do with her emotional state. There's a lot of suppressed anger in the weaves of her relationship with Dianna who was and is a very difficult person to be around. It's kind of sadly reassuring that my sister also has difficulties with her.
Work is good although financially I'm very strapped. The house is falling apart but I'm determined to have a holiday this year in March to Moreton Island. I've not been on one since Sept 08. It's going to cost me $450 alone to put the cats away safely : ( A few people from D's group are going. Will probably be the only single person there, thank god for my passion for photography - lol. Am also taking hard copies of my novels up there to really scrutinse the storyline and continuity. So will be the usual introverted self again I expect.
And I'm becoming more and more introverted as I age. My soul craves the calmness and lack of drama solitude brings. I recognise it's a coping mechanism in response to my work, that is crisis driven most days, sad and supremely unpredictable. I need quietness around me to restore my energy and spirit.
Cats are fat and happy although Bangs has a case of old man's syndrome. At 15yrs he's allowed to.
Health is okay, ankle is holding up and right knee has given out after carrying body weight for 4 months. But its okay. Am working through it.
Overall things are cruising along. I hope everyone else is cruising as well : )
I've been alcohol free now for 5 weeks and I'm surprised at how easy its all been. Not that I wanted to stop drinking, I was only drinking a bottle of wine a week on weekends, so it hasnt been hard at all. It just kind of happened and I thought I'd run with it, see how long it lasts. Last time I did this it lasted a few years - lol.
It has made my complexion much better : )
My writing is continuing. Book 3 is a 1/3 finished. Have made a committment to myself to get an agent by the end of the year and the manuscripts out. I enjoy it, but when stream of consciousness starts... I get antisocial.
Have had a few good chats with D's lately on the usual lists (polite, intelligent ones to boot) but they all chicken out at the meeting you stage or they simply stop replying. I don't get it.
Dad says Dianna is deteriorating quite badly and becomig a tad bizarre. Today she asked me to tape her recorings of drum solos, tribal ones. I asked why and she said because I've always been into them. But she hasn't, she's a purist, classical music and opera only. She asked Dad to bury her in a mausoleum as befitting. She is retracting back to her family in England.
Her blond hair is going completely jet black. It looks freaky as.
Nikki is doing much better on the Largactil. She is still violent towards Dianna (and only her) which I think has nothing to do with her mental retardation and more to do with her emotional state. There's a lot of suppressed anger in the weaves of her relationship with Dianna who was and is a very difficult person to be around. It's kind of sadly reassuring that my sister also has difficulties with her.
Work is good although financially I'm very strapped. The house is falling apart but I'm determined to have a holiday this year in March to Moreton Island. I've not been on one since Sept 08. It's going to cost me $450 alone to put the cats away safely : ( A few people from D's group are going. Will probably be the only single person there, thank god for my passion for photography - lol. Am also taking hard copies of my novels up there to really scrutinse the storyline and continuity. So will be the usual introverted self again I expect.
And I'm becoming more and more introverted as I age. My soul craves the calmness and lack of drama solitude brings. I recognise it's a coping mechanism in response to my work, that is crisis driven most days, sad and supremely unpredictable. I need quietness around me to restore my energy and spirit.
Cats are fat and happy although Bangs has a case of old man's syndrome. At 15yrs he's allowed to.
Health is okay, ankle is holding up and right knee has given out after carrying body weight for 4 months. But its okay. Am working through it.
Overall things are cruising along. I hope everyone else is cruising as well : )