fhvkhvjkyksj the Pope thing is weird too: an ex-Nazi?
i am back from crazyweekX1.5 . Florida was nice. i did 1 homework assignment, which was reading Things Fall Apart by Chinua Achebe. it was sort of interesting. the plot was good. i did no Anatomy assignments, H-less did not e-mail me the case studies i asked for, and i'm generally screwed school-wise unless i can summon up the energy to do everything today. that's not gonna happen. i wouldn't mind, actually, getting like a 20 in each class(other than gym & Xtian Service) for the quarter & only having to show up for Xtian Service on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, gym, and exams. i would still pass everything. and i may not to Cornell anyway.
when i got home today, the second thing i did was get my 'Case for Cornell' folder & look at the acceptance/withdrawal cards they gave me. i stared particularly hard at the withdrawal card, and it made me sad. very sad. i can't picture myself filling it out and putting a stamp on it, signing it, mailing it... no, that is unthinkable. Cornell is where i wanted to go. it's where i want to go. but not freshman year. the thing is, if i don't go in September, i have this nagging voice saying "You won't ever go." i want to go. but there are two sides to this.
side one: It's Cornell... it really doesn't get much better than that. i'll be set & i can go wherever to do whatever the fuck i want. i won't be looking for a job--employers will be looking for me. O.O THE FOOD. Ithaca is great, aside from the whole isolation bit & it's all hunky-dory. plus, i already know some of my classmates. plus, i can study abroad another year. plus, i'm semi-familiar with the campus now. plus, money isn't too much of a problem if i'm assertive.
side two: Am i being selfish? i can't even give up one year to see that my family's settled in & such? it's a conscience thing. and then there's the whole pre-med sucks ass shit. ugh. i want to finally have fun & not have school run my life. on the other hand, i remember my godmother said that going to medical school in DR is extremely time-consuming too. i dunno about the program for freshmen though. i need to find out about it, but fuck nobody in my family is a medicine major. the weather, enough said. THE FOOD. beach!
(o.O) a handful of people are telling me to do what will make me happy... but how the fuck do i know whether being in a place i've never lived around people i don't know is better than being in a place i've barely lived in & around an equal number of new people but also people i know. then there's the whole cultural adjustment. i'll be doing sooooo many things at once if i go, with an unpredictable workload & a dearth of friends & a wealth of relatives that may not understand the way i think. AHHHHHHHH. =\
Cornell vs. PUCMM
snowstorms for months vs. hurricanes for weeks & maybe some mild-medium earthquakes
i am gonna have to do some dietary adjustments either way
massive walking vs. massive looking-over-my-shoulder
guaranteed cool people in either place
study what i want & know vs. flounder, big time
the nightlife will be fine either way, unless the workload is too much
have no close family to visit vs. have no close friends to visit
i will have to move & do a fair amount of traveling either way
no summer school vs. 2 English composition courses this summer [other than being time-consuming & maybe even annoying, this should not be a problem]
i will have mail & tax conflicts either way
dealing with American cultural deficiencies vs. dealing with elitist Dominican culture
i'll be studying with people like me in either place
high suicide rate vs. high homocide rate [not in the college, but in the city]
MLB fans either way
detestable classmates vs. detestable classmates & relatives....
i'll be estranged from my old friends either way, but to what extent?
may be tied to US vs. may be tied to DR
my love life [if it exists within this realm of time]will be difficult to manage either way.
money easier to find, but harder to access vs. money easier to access, but harder to find
if you, reader, have an evaluation to give me, please do. i'd appreciate input.
when i got home today, the second thing i did was get my 'Case for Cornell' folder & look at the acceptance/withdrawal cards they gave me. i stared particularly hard at the withdrawal card, and it made me sad. very sad. i can't picture myself filling it out and putting a stamp on it, signing it, mailing it... no, that is unthinkable. Cornell is where i wanted to go. it's where i want to go. but not freshman year. the thing is, if i don't go in September, i have this nagging voice saying "You won't ever go." i want to go. but there are two sides to this.
side one: It's Cornell... it really doesn't get much better than that. i'll be set & i can go wherever to do whatever the fuck i want. i won't be looking for a job--employers will be looking for me. O.O THE FOOD. Ithaca is great, aside from the whole isolation bit & it's all hunky-dory. plus, i already know some of my classmates. plus, i can study abroad another year. plus, i'm semi-familiar with the campus now. plus, money isn't too much of a problem if i'm assertive.
side two: Am i being selfish? i can't even give up one year to see that my family's settled in & such? it's a conscience thing. and then there's the whole pre-med sucks ass shit. ugh. i want to finally have fun & not have school run my life. on the other hand, i remember my godmother said that going to medical school in DR is extremely time-consuming too. i dunno about the program for freshmen though. i need to find out about it, but fuck nobody in my family is a medicine major. the weather, enough said. THE FOOD. beach!
(o.O) a handful of people are telling me to do what will make me happy... but how the fuck do i know whether being in a place i've never lived around people i don't know is better than being in a place i've barely lived in & around an equal number of new people but also people i know. then there's the whole cultural adjustment. i'll be doing sooooo many things at once if i go, with an unpredictable workload & a dearth of friends & a wealth of relatives that may not understand the way i think. AHHHHHHHH. =\
Cornell vs. PUCMM
snowstorms for months vs. hurricanes for weeks & maybe some mild-medium earthquakes
i am gonna have to do some dietary adjustments either way
massive walking vs. massive looking-over-my-shoulder
guaranteed cool people in either place
study what i want & know vs. flounder, big time
the nightlife will be fine either way, unless the workload is too much
have no close family to visit vs. have no close friends to visit
i will have to move & do a fair amount of traveling either way
no summer school vs. 2 English composition courses this summer [other than being time-consuming & maybe even annoying, this should not be a problem]
i will have mail & tax conflicts either way
dealing with American cultural deficiencies vs. dealing with elitist Dominican culture
i'll be studying with people like me in either place
high suicide rate vs. high homocide rate [not in the college, but in the city]
MLB fans either way
detestable classmates vs. detestable classmates & relatives....
i'll be estranged from my old friends either way, but to what extent?
may be tied to US vs. may be tied to DR
my love life [if it exists within this realm of time]will be difficult to manage either way.
money easier to find, but harder to access vs. money easier to access, but harder to find
if you, reader, have an evaluation to give me, please do. i'd appreciate input.