For an Hour in Heaven 2
TITLE : For an Hour in Heaven 2
length : Two-Shots ; 4,524 words
pairing/characters : KyuMin
genre : Smut, Drama, Angst
rating : Nc-17
summary : For an hour in heaven, what was he willing to give?
ONE //
I should seriously add "FAIL AT UPDATES" on things about me XD
ah there im sorry it took me forever, writer's block plus i really dont like the ending, but i dont know what to add anymore so ah.. bye ........... /hides
Kyuhyun wiped the drop of sweat that fell from his head as he reached the top of the hill, pausing for a while as he try to catch his breath, too tired to even move an inch. But all of his energy seemed to come back to life as he saw that lovely face from his view. He immediately leaned up and ran towards the man.
“Minnie.” Kyuhyun sighed as he hugged the small man tight in his arms, he nuzzled over the older’s soft hair, sighing as all of his exhaustion seemed to die down and was replaced by gentle comfort and warmth only this man can give.
But his heart suddenly fell from its heaven when Sungmin pushed him away.
“Min, baby why?” Kyuhyun asked as he attempted to caress the older’s face, but his heart cracked a bit as the other rejected it and pushed it away. “Why? What happened?” Kyuhyun asked again, this time full of confusion as he racked his brain on possibilities of him upsetting his small lover.
“Let’s not do this anymore. Let’s stop this.” Sungmin whispered, head bowed down so that Kyuhyun can’t see the others real emotions.
But Kyuhyun didn’t have the time to notice it as his whole world seemed to stop by the others words. Just the mere thought of Sungmin proposing a breakup made his heart clenched that he forgot how to breathe.
“Why?” Kyuhyun croaked trough the sobs that’s flooding inside him.
“My aunt had offered me a job in Seoul and a place to stay in..” Sungmin paused, trying to compose himself. “I already accepted it. I … I’m coming to Seoul tonight.”
“Tonight?! And you’re only telling me this now?! Don’t you even care on what I think about this?!”
“It happened too soon. You know how I badly need this Kyu. I’m in no position to say no.”
“But I can help you! I can take two jobs to support us both.”
“You know that’s impossible Kyuhyun! Even you, are already struggling every day to live! And even if we both take endless jobs all day and night, no one offer any good pay in this rundown city. You know this is a good break for me; I need this with Heechul’s condition worsening every day. Kyuhyun please understand me.”
“Then let me come with you. Sungmin you know I’ll go wherever you are. Just… just don’t leave me please.” Kyuhyun begged.
“Kyu.. you know you can’t, what about your mom? You know that she only have you now.”
“Lee Sungmin please. I love you. I love you so much. I can’t live without you.”Kyuhyun muttered in despair as he clings tight on Sungmin.
“Kyuhyun you’re still young, what you feel is just a shallow affection. You’ll find hundreds of guys, girls even that you’d love with all your heart.”
“Shallow Affection?” Kyuhyun chuckled, through his tears. “Is that just what you feel about me?”
Sungmin froze from his spot, his heart weeping knowing it’s definitely not what he feels. But he already made his decision, he need to do this; he knows that this would be the best for the both of them, so he sighed as he push inside the tears that’s threatening to fall from his eyes before he looked at Kyuhyun, nodding a yes.
Kyuhyun chuckled as he felt his body numb from too much pain, his whole body shaking from the sobs that filled his too heavy heart. “Oh I’m sorry. God! I’m sorry I’m such a fool!”
“I’m sorry I thought you feel the same way towards me.” Kyuhyun muttered as he clench his fist from the unbearable pain. “Well then I hope you’ll find a better life. And maybe a better man that you’ll truly love. Goodbye.”
Kyuhyun muttered as he walked away with a straight face, but once he’s away from Sungmin he felt his body tremble down. He let himself fall in his knees as he clutched his aching heart; sobbing all the hurt and the pain that killed him slowly.
Kyuhyun immediately hit the brake of the car, stopping at the side of the road as he felt his body tremble in tears from the painful memory. He had already learned to throw that memory away as it only gave him misery. He had been such a wreck after the breakup, he had made his life such a mess that he lost all things precious to him. And he had Sungmin to blame that he started to harbour hate towards the man he used to love with all his life, but looks like the love was not completely gone and was just shadowed by the hate that pain brought him that it presented its existence back once the man came back to his life. The image of Sungmin at that bar made his heart skipped in ways more than one that despite of the cold exterior he showed, his heart gushed inside by the sight of the man that it used to love, that it still loved. He thought he had forgotten him but looks like he was wrong as all the feeling resurfaced and hunt him. And it never stopped coming back as he received a call from Sungmin the month after asking him again for his “service”, he sure was shocked, but who was he to complain as deep inside he could feel his heart bounce from excitement, then after always anticipating Sungmin’s call every month.
But he doesn’t want to fall in this trap of love again, he had let himself fell once and he had fallen too deep that it felt like his life was taken away from him when it left.
He sighed as he started the ignition, resolved on his decision to not let the man in his heart again.
*
Kyuhyun rolled his eyes as he came home in the sight of his housemate and friend, Yesung, playing with his member as he speaks with someone on the phone, one of his “clients” most probably. Both of him and Yesung had earned their status of one of the best hookers downtown; however Yesung was one of the lucky ones that gets paid good cash even just by phone sex. Well the man’s voice was sex itself he must admit.
He strolled in the kitchen to get a glass of water, he badly need one by all of these stress all day.
“Came from another service with Sungmin?” Kyuhyun tilted his head and saw Yesung, coming to the sink to wash his hands. He looked at the older man, one eyebrow raised, giving him a glare.
“What? You always have that unexplainable joy whenever you’re doing it with him.” Yesung retorted.
“What? I do not. Stop inventing stories.”Kyuhyun defended.
“Oh C’mon’ Cho! Are you really going to lie to me? Every time you come home from one of your usual customers, you always have this disgusted look on your face. But whenever you we’re with Sungmin you just have this weird smile on your face all day. Seriously man it’s creepy!”
“Of course! Sungmin is different; he’s not like any of those sex-deprived whores!”
“But he pays you for sex.” Yesung deadpanned.
“I..”Kyuhyun tried to explain, but he can’t find any words. It was true, Sungmin was just paying him for sex, but deep inside he just knows it’s different. It’s like..
“What? He’s doing it because of love?”Yesung muttered, finishing the sentence Kyuhyun couldn’t finish.
“He doesn’t love me. Well.. he didn’t loved me. He’s just… I don’t know okay.”Kyuhyun replied as he felt his heart tightened, insecurities dominating inside him.
“Maybe I could just go to Sungmin, even offer myself free.”
“Yah don’t you dare!” Kyuhyun immediately screamed at the older man.
“Possessive much, aren’t we?” Yesung chuckled, loving to tease the younger man. “Why can’t you just admit it? It’s obvious that you still love him.” Yesung added.
He sighed as Kyuhyun just stayed silent, his gaze somewhat far as if in deep thought.
“Goodness Kyuhyun, don’t you think that I don’t know that you’ve been hiding all the money that Sungmin had given you? Knowing you, you have already used that money to buy that game you’re addicted to. You don’t even have it in your heart to use it! Admit it, you wanted every bit of having Sungmin as yours. You’re just using the money because of your damn pride.”
“Shut up. Im just saving it for something.”Kyuhyun grumbled.
“What? Yours and Sungmin’s wedding?” Yesung teased, dodging the apple that immediately came his way after.
*
Kyuhyun fidget as he looks at his phone, waiting for a text message to come. It’s the second of the month, the day of the month Sungmin would ask him for his “service”.
It was already nearing night, and worry starts spreading all over Kyuhyun when he’s still not receiving any text from Sungmin. The young man normally text him by noon to get ready for the night so this was definitely an odd one.
“Oh my goodness Kyuhyun you act like you’re his boyfriend! Maybe he’s just busy; the man has a life other than fucking you, you know.” Yesung teased.
“Or maybe.. he already found someone who actually have the balls to admit he likes him.” Yesung added, teasing the younger more. Kyuhyun just glared at him but he felt something inside him crack from realization. What if Sungmin really found someone that loved him? ..someone that he loved back?
*
Kyuhyun was a walking zombie the day after. He haven’t had any sleep at all last night, worry for Sungmin creeping at every inch of him.
He grumbled as he heard his phone ring, and lifelessly went towards the table to get the annoying device. “Hello.” Kyuhyun said groggily as he picked up his phone.
“K-Kyuhyun?” Kyuhyun’s eyes immediately shot up as he heard a familiar voice that had been flooding his mind all night.“Sungmin?”
“Oh I’m sorry.. I was.. busy last night so I failed to call you. I know it’s out of the schedule, but.. are you free tonight?” Kyuhyun heard Sungmin, pausing in between as if weighing each word.
“Of course!” Kyuhyun answered without hesitance.
“Really?” Kyuhyun heard Sungmin answered, this time his voice filled with much joy, enlightening Kyuhyun’s heart.
“Of course. Same place tonight?” Kyuhyun asked, his heart swelling at excitement.
“Yes. See you.”
“See you.” Kyuhyun replied as he ended the call.
Kyuhyun’s condition went on a 180 degrees turn after the call; it’s as if he went from hell to heaven in a flash as he made sure that he looks fine for the umpteenth time before strolling outside the door.
“Yah! Cho Kyuhyun where are you going?! You have an appointment with Mrs. Jung later! Yah Cho Kyuhyun!”
*
Kyuhyun fidget on the bed as he waits for Sungmin to arrive. He unbuttoned the first two buttons of his polo then sat at the edge of the bed, his hands at his side attempting to look sexy once Sungmin arrives. But creeps crawl in him thinking he looks stupid, he then tried another position but was startled as he heard the door open and just settled on his first position.
He was supposed to croak out a snarky comment, wanting to show the usual cold demeanour his showing the older but it died down his lips as he saw Sungmin’s state.
“You’re sick!” Kyuhyun muttered worriedly as he stood up from his sit and went over the older man.
“I’m not. I’m just tired.” Sungmin reasoned.
“Oh my goodness Min! You’re hot!” Kyuhyun exclaimed as he cradle Sungmin’s face in his hands.
“I’m fine.” Sungmin muttered as he pulled his head away from Kyuhyun’s touch. “The clock is ticking; let’s not waste an hour for this.” Kyuhyun looked hesitant but his head suddenly shot up as he heard Sungmin muttered something. He looked at the other confusedly as if asking if he heard the right thing.
“Kiss me” Sungmin whispered again, looking with Kyuhyun with so much desperation.
Kyuhyun hesitated but his insides burn with the want to feel the other’s lips to his and so he doesn’t even need to be told again as he attached his lips to Sungmin’s, they claimed each other’s lips as if it’s their last time, taking every bit of pleasure they could get as they suck each other hard that their lips could almost mould as one.
Kyuhyun whined as Sungmin broke the kiss, but his heart stopped as Sungmin took off his shirt revealing his perfect white skin, that no matter how many times Kyuhyun laid eyes on, still never fail to amaze him. Kyuhyun shivered as Sungmin grabbed Kyuhyun’s hand and placed it on his chest, trailing it upwards until it reaches the smaller’s cheeks. Sungmin nuzzled his cheek on Kyuhyun’s warm hands, the beautiful affection, making Kyuhyun’s heart melt.
“Could you pretend to make love to me?”Sungmin whispered, his eyes closed as he relished the comfort of Kyuhyun’s hands, as if this was a dream.
Kyuhyun was speechless, he wanted to reason out but Sungmin didn’t give him a chance to find his voice as the elder gently grabbed his head and attached their lips together in a slow mesmerizing kiss.
Kyuhyun wined as Sungmin broke the kiss. But his insides shiver in delight as Sungmin unbuttoned his polo and took it off and then left soft kisses all over his torso.
His heart melts in an overflowing desire as Sungmin took time to shower soft kisses all over his skin, each kiss so gentle that it electrifies every inch of him.
He gasped as Sungmin un-zipped his pants, taking his denim off before gripping his hard member with gentle care and left the same kisses all over it.
“Fuck Min!” Kyuhyun screamed as Sungmin took Kyuhyun’s member in his mouth, his tongue slapping and tasting every inch of the hard shaft that Kyuhyun almost wanted to cry in frustration and thrust inside Sungmin’s mouth, but he didn’t need to as Sungmin started to bob his head to and fro, giving him the most mind-blowing blow-job ever. As he thought about it, no one else had really given him this extreme euphoric feeling other than Sungmin. Sure he has sucked and had been sucked countless of times that it felt like nothing, that it felt like a show where he needs to act. But with Sungmin, it all felt so real, it felt like the first time he felt the other’s hot cavern on his sensitive member.
They we’re so young back then but their curiosity and the burning want for each other had lead them to give in to temptations.
They were so inexperienced, both now knowing what to do, but once they we’re in each other’s arms. Everything just felt right. It’s as if their bodies have known each other for too long that it already knows that right spots to touch.
“Fuck Min!!” Kyuhyun growled as he released his entire cum into Sungmin’s waiting mouth.
He looked down at Sungmin, eyes close as the smaller relish the taste of Kyuhyun inside his mouth. The sight making Kyuhyun lose his breathe that he found himself grabbing the older’s head and attaching their lips in a hot messy kiss.
He gripped Sungmin’s locks hard in an attempt to deepen the kiss, wanting to feel more of those delicious creations that left him breathlessly insane. “Goodness Min.” Kyuhyun gasped from too much pleasure as he sucked Sungmin more.
He let his hands roam all over Sungmin’s smooth back until it reached Sungmin’s pants.
Kyuhyun growled from the fabric that’s hindering his hands to explore Sungmin’s wonders. Sungmin chuckled at the sight and wanting to give his all to Kyuhyun, he unzip his pants and pulled it with his boxers in one go, immediately attaching his lips back to Kyuhyun’s heavenly ones.
Kyuhyun smirked, definitely satisfied as he rest his hands at Sungmin’s soft plump ass. He caressed the globes in his hands, earning a gasp from Sungmin as he squeezed it hard. He pulled the lovely piece up and Sungmin immediately got the message and attached his legs across Kyuhyun’s hips, their hard crotches brushing together by the process. “Oh goodness Min.” Kyuhyun moaned as he gently laid Sungmin’s body on the bed.
He smiled as he looked at the perfection that laid on the bed for him to deavour.
“Kyu.” Sungmin whispered, his cheeks tinting red by the gaze.
Kyuhyun smiled wider, always loving to hear his name roll Sungmin’s tongue. So he immediately let himself be engulfed by the warmth in his heart as he bring Sungmin’s lips in another kiss, there’s just something in the others lips, like a magnet, that he can’t stay away from.
Kyuhyun pulled away from the kiss as he felt his member protest from the lack of attention he’s getting so he left another peck from Sungmin’s swollen lips before trailing his lips downwards, leaving the same kisses Sungmin gave earlier, throwing all of his love and affection in each kisses, showering every inch of Sungmin’s chest downwards until he reached Sungmin’s erect member.
He smiled as the healthy bud twitched as he kissed the tip. “Kyu. Please.” Sungmin muttered breathlessly.
He smirked as he licked the tip of the member before taking the head inside his mouth. Sucking its tip like a kid enjoying his favourite lollipop, and hell did he enjoy it as he sucked the head hard and swirl his tongue on it.
Wanting to taste more, he took Sungmin’s entire member in his mouth and devoured it like a tasty meal. He released the candy in one loud pop, ignoring the whine that came from the beauty beneath him. He grabbed Sungmin’s hips and angled Sungmin’s ass towards his face. Thank goodness for the man’s flexibility.
He kissed the twitching hole before bringing his tongue in effectively turning Sungmin into a loud moaning mess. He thrust his tongue in and out before deeming it covered with saliva and thrust one of his fingers in, and then another until three are stretching Sungmin’s insides. He thrust his fingers in and out until he thinks Sungmin is stretched enough for the real show. He grabbed his member and coated it with lube before pushing it inside Sungmin’s tightness. He heard Sungmin cried from the intrusion and he stopped a bit to shower soft kisses all over Sungmins face.
Sungmin smiled from the action, closing his eyes to relish the blissful affection. He sighed afterwards as he felt his insides craving to be touched, the feeling of half of Kyuhyun’s hard-on inside him not doing any good.
He brought his hand on Kyuhyun’s cheeks, leaving the other a soft peck on the lips before whispering in between the other’s lips. “I’m ready.”
Kyuhyun’s member twitched inside Sungmin’s ass, making Sungmin shiver at the touch. “Kyu please.” The older whined.
Sharing the same desperation, Kyuhyun grabbed one of Sungmin’s legs and gently threw it over his shoulder and then slammed his member all the way in Sungmin’s waiting hole.
Moans and screams filled the room as Kyuhyun thrust in and out of Sungmin’s hole, each thrust going deeper as it abuse the other’s lovely spot. Both came, screaming each other’s name as they reached the peak of their heaven.
Their bodies lay sprawled beside each other as they tried to get down from their high.
“I love you.” Kyuhyun froze from his spot as he heard those three words he haven’t heard for years.
“Min..” Sungmin immediately sealed his lips blocking all of the words he wanted to say.
“Oh looks like my hour is up.” Sungmin muttered as he broke the kiss, he then immediately went up from the bed and slip in his clothes leaving Kyuhyun dumb-founded on the bed.
“Goodbye Kyuhyun, thank you.” Kyuhyun heard Sungmin whispered as the man completely went out of the room.
This seemed to bring Kyuhyun back to his senses and he immediately shot up as he just realized that he let Sungmin slip away without even saying what he feels.
*
Kyuhyun can’t sleep that night, he wanted to find Sungmin and talk to him, he’s not sure if he’s ready to welcome Sungmin back in his heart yet, but his heart clench from regret from letting Sungmin go. He wanted to meet him, he’s not sure what for but he’s dying to see him. So he followed his senses and immediately went up, grabbed his coat and left his pad, hoping he’ll see Sungmin tonight.
Loud music filled Kyuhyun’s ears as he tried to pass through the myriads of people that filled the. He knows that it’s impossible that Sungmin would even come to work after the session they had but he have no idea where the man lives and this is the only place he knows of Sungmin. So he braved his faith, hoping that luck is with him tonight and that he’d at least get some information on where Sungmin is.
“Sungmin? Oh I’m sorry I have no idea where he lives, and I don’t think our boss would give you such information.” The bartender in duty told Kyuhyun whose excitement and hope immediately died down after hearing the words.
The bartender seemed to notice so he sighed, biting his lips as he called Kyuhyun who’s about to leave the bar. “I don’t know where he lives but.. I do know that at morning, he works at that café two blocks from here. The one beside the music shop.”
“Thank you! Thank you so much!” Kyuhyun muttered, grinning wide at the bartender who just smiled back at him.
So that night, Kyuhyun left the bar with renewed determination, now more sure on what he wants to tell the older man.
Kyuhyun immediately went to the café first thing in the morning hoping he’ll find Sungmin in there, but he saw someone different. And it definitely came as a shock to him when said person welcomed him with a slap.
“Heechul!” A man Kyuhyun didn’t know immediately went to Heechul’s side stopping the man from hitting Kyuhyun more.
“What?! How dare that man come here after what he did to Sungmin!”
“Wait. Where is Sungmin?” Kyuhyun immediately asked as he heard Sungmin’s name.
“Hell would I let you see Sungmin after what you’ve done to him!” Heechul growled as he glared at Kyuhyun who just looked back at him confusedly.
He wanted to ask what have he done to Sungmin exactly? Wasn’t he supposed to be the victim here? But before he could asked, the man earlier kneeled beside Heechul so he could look directly at the man.
“Heechul, I think it would be best if we’ll tell him where Sungmin is.”
“What?! Are you out of your mind?! It’s his fault why Sungmin is there!”
“Heechul, you know Sungmin needs him. Please, for your brother. He might be able to help.”
“What are you talking about? Where is Sungmin?” Kyuhyun interrupted the two as worry starts to creep in him. “Please, Heechul I beg you. Please I really need to see your brother. Please.” Kyuhyun begged the man on his wheelchair who looked at him and then to the other man before sighing hard.
“Fine!”
*
“Please forgive Heechul. He’s just being protective of his brother.” Leeteuk, the man earlier, whispered to Kyuhyun, ignoring the scoff from Heechul, as he drove the two to where Sungmin is.
“Where is Sungmin actually?” Kyuhyun asked, but his heart started to tremble in fear as the car stopped in a particular place.
“We’re here.” Leeteuk muttered as he guided Heechul to his wheelchair and nudge Kyuhyun to follow them.
“But.. how - what..” Kyuhyun started not knowing how to grasp his thoughts as millions of questions flood in him.
“He had been over-working himself for these past few months that his body reached its limit and he collapsed.” Leeteuk answered for him.
“Why would he do that?” Kyuhyun asked confusedly.
“He had been having 3 jobs to be able to afford you, you bastard!” Heechul answered this time. He widened his eyes as everything seemed to be much clearer now. He felt his heart clench as realization hit him. He knows it’s impossible that Sungmin could afford his expensive services but he ignored it because deep inside he’s elated to be able to have Sungmin, but he’s too stubborn to admit it thus he used his job as a way to be able to have Sungmin.
“And he even managed to escape last night making his condition worse and even if he won’t admit it, I’m sure he came to you! You heartless brat!” Heechul added.
“I didn’t know. I’m so sorry.. I.. “ Kyuhyun croaked as tears fell from his eyes. His heart clenching in pain as his conscience eat him up.
“Heechul..” Leeteuk started but he stopped mid-way as he looked at the commotion at his front. Kyuhyun saw as his and Heechul’s eyes widened as they run towards the commotion.
Fear suddenly enveloped inside Kyuhyun as he hope against hope that it’s not what he think it is.
“What are you doing?! Where is Sungmin?!” Heechul screamed, panic written all over his face.
“I’m.. I’m sorry, we tried our best.. He started thrashing in his sleep earlier, complaining that it hurts everywhere..”
The doctor’s explanation seemed to be blurred in Kyuhyun’s mind as he saw the nurse wheeled the bed from the room.
His heart thump in fear as he stared at it, his whole body weakening as he prayed to God that it’s not yet too late.
“What’s this?” Sungmin asked as he let Kyuhyun put the necklace on him.
“Nothing, I just saw it in the market and I immediately thought of you. And I was right it looked beautiful on you.”
His knees tremble but he willed himself to walk closer to the figure, each step seemed to take forever as time stopped and all he could hear is the drums in his heart and the loud weeping of his heart.
“It’s beautiful Kyu. I love it.”
“If you love it, then why are you frowning?”
“I just feel so bad that I can’t give you anything.”
He clenched his hand, as he blames himself for everything. He hated Sungmin for leaving him, for causing him endless pain, but because of that, he had failed to remember that Sungmin had given him the best things in life, the best memories, happiness.
“But you don’t have to give me anything you’re more than enough for me. I love you.”
“I love you too. So much.”
Kyuhyun bit his lips, preventing himself from screaming as he felt thousands of swords attack his heart as he finally saw the figure under the sheets. But the pain was too much, much more than that night Sungmin left him. Because this time.. it’s for good.
“I can’t give you all of the riches in this world but I promise to give you my all. My heart, even my life, it’s all yours Kyuhyun.”
length : Two-Shots ; 4,524 words
pairing/characters : KyuMin
genre : Smut, Drama, Angst
rating : Nc-17
summary : For an hour in heaven, what was he willing to give?
ONE //
I should seriously add "FAIL AT UPDATES" on things about me XD
ah there im sorry it took me forever, writer's block plus i really dont like the ending, but i dont know what to add anymore so ah.. bye ........... /hides
Kyuhyun wiped the drop of sweat that fell from his head as he reached the top of the hill, pausing for a while as he try to catch his breath, too tired to even move an inch. But all of his energy seemed to come back to life as he saw that lovely face from his view. He immediately leaned up and ran towards the man.
“Minnie.” Kyuhyun sighed as he hugged the small man tight in his arms, he nuzzled over the older’s soft hair, sighing as all of his exhaustion seemed to die down and was replaced by gentle comfort and warmth only this man can give.
But his heart suddenly fell from its heaven when Sungmin pushed him away.
“Min, baby why?” Kyuhyun asked as he attempted to caress the older’s face, but his heart cracked a bit as the other rejected it and pushed it away. “Why? What happened?” Kyuhyun asked again, this time full of confusion as he racked his brain on possibilities of him upsetting his small lover.
“Let’s not do this anymore. Let’s stop this.” Sungmin whispered, head bowed down so that Kyuhyun can’t see the others real emotions.
But Kyuhyun didn’t have the time to notice it as his whole world seemed to stop by the others words. Just the mere thought of Sungmin proposing a breakup made his heart clenched that he forgot how to breathe.
“Why?” Kyuhyun croaked trough the sobs that’s flooding inside him.
“My aunt had offered me a job in Seoul and a place to stay in..” Sungmin paused, trying to compose himself. “I already accepted it. I … I’m coming to Seoul tonight.”
“Tonight?! And you’re only telling me this now?! Don’t you even care on what I think about this?!”
“It happened too soon. You know how I badly need this Kyu. I’m in no position to say no.”
“But I can help you! I can take two jobs to support us both.”
“You know that’s impossible Kyuhyun! Even you, are already struggling every day to live! And even if we both take endless jobs all day and night, no one offer any good pay in this rundown city. You know this is a good break for me; I need this with Heechul’s condition worsening every day. Kyuhyun please understand me.”
“Then let me come with you. Sungmin you know I’ll go wherever you are. Just… just don’t leave me please.” Kyuhyun begged.
“Kyu.. you know you can’t, what about your mom? You know that she only have you now.”
“Lee Sungmin please. I love you. I love you so much. I can’t live without you.”Kyuhyun muttered in despair as he clings tight on Sungmin.
“Kyuhyun you’re still young, what you feel is just a shallow affection. You’ll find hundreds of guys, girls even that you’d love with all your heart.”
“Shallow Affection?” Kyuhyun chuckled, through his tears. “Is that just what you feel about me?”
Sungmin froze from his spot, his heart weeping knowing it’s definitely not what he feels. But he already made his decision, he need to do this; he knows that this would be the best for the both of them, so he sighed as he push inside the tears that’s threatening to fall from his eyes before he looked at Kyuhyun, nodding a yes.
Kyuhyun chuckled as he felt his body numb from too much pain, his whole body shaking from the sobs that filled his too heavy heart. “Oh I’m sorry. God! I’m sorry I’m such a fool!”
“I’m sorry I thought you feel the same way towards me.” Kyuhyun muttered as he clench his fist from the unbearable pain. “Well then I hope you’ll find a better life. And maybe a better man that you’ll truly love. Goodbye.”
Kyuhyun muttered as he walked away with a straight face, but once he’s away from Sungmin he felt his body tremble down. He let himself fall in his knees as he clutched his aching heart; sobbing all the hurt and the pain that killed him slowly.
Kyuhyun immediately hit the brake of the car, stopping at the side of the road as he felt his body tremble in tears from the painful memory. He had already learned to throw that memory away as it only gave him misery. He had been such a wreck after the breakup, he had made his life such a mess that he lost all things precious to him. And he had Sungmin to blame that he started to harbour hate towards the man he used to love with all his life, but looks like the love was not completely gone and was just shadowed by the hate that pain brought him that it presented its existence back once the man came back to his life. The image of Sungmin at that bar made his heart skipped in ways more than one that despite of the cold exterior he showed, his heart gushed inside by the sight of the man that it used to love, that it still loved. He thought he had forgotten him but looks like he was wrong as all the feeling resurfaced and hunt him. And it never stopped coming back as he received a call from Sungmin the month after asking him again for his “service”, he sure was shocked, but who was he to complain as deep inside he could feel his heart bounce from excitement, then after always anticipating Sungmin’s call every month.
But he doesn’t want to fall in this trap of love again, he had let himself fell once and he had fallen too deep that it felt like his life was taken away from him when it left.
He sighed as he started the ignition, resolved on his decision to not let the man in his heart again.
*
Kyuhyun rolled his eyes as he came home in the sight of his housemate and friend, Yesung, playing with his member as he speaks with someone on the phone, one of his “clients” most probably. Both of him and Yesung had earned their status of one of the best hookers downtown; however Yesung was one of the lucky ones that gets paid good cash even just by phone sex. Well the man’s voice was sex itself he must admit.
He strolled in the kitchen to get a glass of water, he badly need one by all of these stress all day.
“Came from another service with Sungmin?” Kyuhyun tilted his head and saw Yesung, coming to the sink to wash his hands. He looked at the older man, one eyebrow raised, giving him a glare.
“What? You always have that unexplainable joy whenever you’re doing it with him.” Yesung retorted.
“What? I do not. Stop inventing stories.”Kyuhyun defended.
“Oh C’mon’ Cho! Are you really going to lie to me? Every time you come home from one of your usual customers, you always have this disgusted look on your face. But whenever you we’re with Sungmin you just have this weird smile on your face all day. Seriously man it’s creepy!”
“Of course! Sungmin is different; he’s not like any of those sex-deprived whores!”
“But he pays you for sex.” Yesung deadpanned.
“I..”Kyuhyun tried to explain, but he can’t find any words. It was true, Sungmin was just paying him for sex, but deep inside he just knows it’s different. It’s like..
“What? He’s doing it because of love?”Yesung muttered, finishing the sentence Kyuhyun couldn’t finish.
“He doesn’t love me. Well.. he didn’t loved me. He’s just… I don’t know okay.”Kyuhyun replied as he felt his heart tightened, insecurities dominating inside him.
“Maybe I could just go to Sungmin, even offer myself free.”
“Yah don’t you dare!” Kyuhyun immediately screamed at the older man.
“Possessive much, aren’t we?” Yesung chuckled, loving to tease the younger man. “Why can’t you just admit it? It’s obvious that you still love him.” Yesung added.
He sighed as Kyuhyun just stayed silent, his gaze somewhat far as if in deep thought.
“Goodness Kyuhyun, don’t you think that I don’t know that you’ve been hiding all the money that Sungmin had given you? Knowing you, you have already used that money to buy that game you’re addicted to. You don’t even have it in your heart to use it! Admit it, you wanted every bit of having Sungmin as yours. You’re just using the money because of your damn pride.”
“Shut up. Im just saving it for something.”Kyuhyun grumbled.
“What? Yours and Sungmin’s wedding?” Yesung teased, dodging the apple that immediately came his way after.
*
Kyuhyun fidget as he looks at his phone, waiting for a text message to come. It’s the second of the month, the day of the month Sungmin would ask him for his “service”.
It was already nearing night, and worry starts spreading all over Kyuhyun when he’s still not receiving any text from Sungmin. The young man normally text him by noon to get ready for the night so this was definitely an odd one.
“Oh my goodness Kyuhyun you act like you’re his boyfriend! Maybe he’s just busy; the man has a life other than fucking you, you know.” Yesung teased.
“Or maybe.. he already found someone who actually have the balls to admit he likes him.” Yesung added, teasing the younger more. Kyuhyun just glared at him but he felt something inside him crack from realization. What if Sungmin really found someone that loved him? ..someone that he loved back?
*
Kyuhyun was a walking zombie the day after. He haven’t had any sleep at all last night, worry for Sungmin creeping at every inch of him.
He grumbled as he heard his phone ring, and lifelessly went towards the table to get the annoying device. “Hello.” Kyuhyun said groggily as he picked up his phone.
“K-Kyuhyun?” Kyuhyun’s eyes immediately shot up as he heard a familiar voice that had been flooding his mind all night.“Sungmin?”
“Oh I’m sorry.. I was.. busy last night so I failed to call you. I know it’s out of the schedule, but.. are you free tonight?” Kyuhyun heard Sungmin, pausing in between as if weighing each word.
“Of course!” Kyuhyun answered without hesitance.
“Really?” Kyuhyun heard Sungmin answered, this time his voice filled with much joy, enlightening Kyuhyun’s heart.
“Of course. Same place tonight?” Kyuhyun asked, his heart swelling at excitement.
“Yes. See you.”
“See you.” Kyuhyun replied as he ended the call.
Kyuhyun’s condition went on a 180 degrees turn after the call; it’s as if he went from hell to heaven in a flash as he made sure that he looks fine for the umpteenth time before strolling outside the door.
“Yah! Cho Kyuhyun where are you going?! You have an appointment with Mrs. Jung later! Yah Cho Kyuhyun!”
*
Kyuhyun fidget on the bed as he waits for Sungmin to arrive. He unbuttoned the first two buttons of his polo then sat at the edge of the bed, his hands at his side attempting to look sexy once Sungmin arrives. But creeps crawl in him thinking he looks stupid, he then tried another position but was startled as he heard the door open and just settled on his first position.
He was supposed to croak out a snarky comment, wanting to show the usual cold demeanour his showing the older but it died down his lips as he saw Sungmin’s state.
“You’re sick!” Kyuhyun muttered worriedly as he stood up from his sit and went over the older man.
“I’m not. I’m just tired.” Sungmin reasoned.
“Oh my goodness Min! You’re hot!” Kyuhyun exclaimed as he cradle Sungmin’s face in his hands.
“I’m fine.” Sungmin muttered as he pulled his head away from Kyuhyun’s touch. “The clock is ticking; let’s not waste an hour for this.” Kyuhyun looked hesitant but his head suddenly shot up as he heard Sungmin muttered something. He looked at the other confusedly as if asking if he heard the right thing.
“Kiss me” Sungmin whispered again, looking with Kyuhyun with so much desperation.
Kyuhyun hesitated but his insides burn with the want to feel the other’s lips to his and so he doesn’t even need to be told again as he attached his lips to Sungmin’s, they claimed each other’s lips as if it’s their last time, taking every bit of pleasure they could get as they suck each other hard that their lips could almost mould as one.
Kyuhyun whined as Sungmin broke the kiss, but his heart stopped as Sungmin took off his shirt revealing his perfect white skin, that no matter how many times Kyuhyun laid eyes on, still never fail to amaze him. Kyuhyun shivered as Sungmin grabbed Kyuhyun’s hand and placed it on his chest, trailing it upwards until it reaches the smaller’s cheeks. Sungmin nuzzled his cheek on Kyuhyun’s warm hands, the beautiful affection, making Kyuhyun’s heart melt.
“Could you pretend to make love to me?”Sungmin whispered, his eyes closed as he relished the comfort of Kyuhyun’s hands, as if this was a dream.
Kyuhyun was speechless, he wanted to reason out but Sungmin didn’t give him a chance to find his voice as the elder gently grabbed his head and attached their lips together in a slow mesmerizing kiss.
Kyuhyun wined as Sungmin broke the kiss. But his insides shiver in delight as Sungmin unbuttoned his polo and took it off and then left soft kisses all over his torso.
His heart melts in an overflowing desire as Sungmin took time to shower soft kisses all over his skin, each kiss so gentle that it electrifies every inch of him.
He gasped as Sungmin un-zipped his pants, taking his denim off before gripping his hard member with gentle care and left the same kisses all over it.
“Fuck Min!” Kyuhyun screamed as Sungmin took Kyuhyun’s member in his mouth, his tongue slapping and tasting every inch of the hard shaft that Kyuhyun almost wanted to cry in frustration and thrust inside Sungmin’s mouth, but he didn’t need to as Sungmin started to bob his head to and fro, giving him the most mind-blowing blow-job ever. As he thought about it, no one else had really given him this extreme euphoric feeling other than Sungmin. Sure he has sucked and had been sucked countless of times that it felt like nothing, that it felt like a show where he needs to act. But with Sungmin, it all felt so real, it felt like the first time he felt the other’s hot cavern on his sensitive member.
They we’re so young back then but their curiosity and the burning want for each other had lead them to give in to temptations.
They were so inexperienced, both now knowing what to do, but once they we’re in each other’s arms. Everything just felt right. It’s as if their bodies have known each other for too long that it already knows that right spots to touch.
“Fuck Min!!” Kyuhyun growled as he released his entire cum into Sungmin’s waiting mouth.
He looked down at Sungmin, eyes close as the smaller relish the taste of Kyuhyun inside his mouth. The sight making Kyuhyun lose his breathe that he found himself grabbing the older’s head and attaching their lips in a hot messy kiss.
He gripped Sungmin’s locks hard in an attempt to deepen the kiss, wanting to feel more of those delicious creations that left him breathlessly insane. “Goodness Min.” Kyuhyun gasped from too much pleasure as he sucked Sungmin more.
He let his hands roam all over Sungmin’s smooth back until it reached Sungmin’s pants.
Kyuhyun growled from the fabric that’s hindering his hands to explore Sungmin’s wonders. Sungmin chuckled at the sight and wanting to give his all to Kyuhyun, he unzip his pants and pulled it with his boxers in one go, immediately attaching his lips back to Kyuhyun’s heavenly ones.
Kyuhyun smirked, definitely satisfied as he rest his hands at Sungmin’s soft plump ass. He caressed the globes in his hands, earning a gasp from Sungmin as he squeezed it hard. He pulled the lovely piece up and Sungmin immediately got the message and attached his legs across Kyuhyun’s hips, their hard crotches brushing together by the process. “Oh goodness Min.” Kyuhyun moaned as he gently laid Sungmin’s body on the bed.
He smiled as he looked at the perfection that laid on the bed for him to deavour.
“Kyu.” Sungmin whispered, his cheeks tinting red by the gaze.
Kyuhyun smiled wider, always loving to hear his name roll Sungmin’s tongue. So he immediately let himself be engulfed by the warmth in his heart as he bring Sungmin’s lips in another kiss, there’s just something in the others lips, like a magnet, that he can’t stay away from.
Kyuhyun pulled away from the kiss as he felt his member protest from the lack of attention he’s getting so he left another peck from Sungmin’s swollen lips before trailing his lips downwards, leaving the same kisses Sungmin gave earlier, throwing all of his love and affection in each kisses, showering every inch of Sungmin’s chest downwards until he reached Sungmin’s erect member.
He smiled as the healthy bud twitched as he kissed the tip. “Kyu. Please.” Sungmin muttered breathlessly.
He smirked as he licked the tip of the member before taking the head inside his mouth. Sucking its tip like a kid enjoying his favourite lollipop, and hell did he enjoy it as he sucked the head hard and swirl his tongue on it.
Wanting to taste more, he took Sungmin’s entire member in his mouth and devoured it like a tasty meal. He released the candy in one loud pop, ignoring the whine that came from the beauty beneath him. He grabbed Sungmin’s hips and angled Sungmin’s ass towards his face. Thank goodness for the man’s flexibility.
He kissed the twitching hole before bringing his tongue in effectively turning Sungmin into a loud moaning mess. He thrust his tongue in and out before deeming it covered with saliva and thrust one of his fingers in, and then another until three are stretching Sungmin’s insides. He thrust his fingers in and out until he thinks Sungmin is stretched enough for the real show. He grabbed his member and coated it with lube before pushing it inside Sungmin’s tightness. He heard Sungmin cried from the intrusion and he stopped a bit to shower soft kisses all over Sungmins face.
Sungmin smiled from the action, closing his eyes to relish the blissful affection. He sighed afterwards as he felt his insides craving to be touched, the feeling of half of Kyuhyun’s hard-on inside him not doing any good.
He brought his hand on Kyuhyun’s cheeks, leaving the other a soft peck on the lips before whispering in between the other’s lips. “I’m ready.”
Kyuhyun’s member twitched inside Sungmin’s ass, making Sungmin shiver at the touch. “Kyu please.” The older whined.
Sharing the same desperation, Kyuhyun grabbed one of Sungmin’s legs and gently threw it over his shoulder and then slammed his member all the way in Sungmin’s waiting hole.
Moans and screams filled the room as Kyuhyun thrust in and out of Sungmin’s hole, each thrust going deeper as it abuse the other’s lovely spot. Both came, screaming each other’s name as they reached the peak of their heaven.
Their bodies lay sprawled beside each other as they tried to get down from their high.
“I love you.” Kyuhyun froze from his spot as he heard those three words he haven’t heard for years.
“Min..” Sungmin immediately sealed his lips blocking all of the words he wanted to say.
“Oh looks like my hour is up.” Sungmin muttered as he broke the kiss, he then immediately went up from the bed and slip in his clothes leaving Kyuhyun dumb-founded on the bed.
“Goodbye Kyuhyun, thank you.” Kyuhyun heard Sungmin whispered as the man completely went out of the room.
This seemed to bring Kyuhyun back to his senses and he immediately shot up as he just realized that he let Sungmin slip away without even saying what he feels.
*
Kyuhyun can’t sleep that night, he wanted to find Sungmin and talk to him, he’s not sure if he’s ready to welcome Sungmin back in his heart yet, but his heart clench from regret from letting Sungmin go. He wanted to meet him, he’s not sure what for but he’s dying to see him. So he followed his senses and immediately went up, grabbed his coat and left his pad, hoping he’ll see Sungmin tonight.
Loud music filled Kyuhyun’s ears as he tried to pass through the myriads of people that filled the. He knows that it’s impossible that Sungmin would even come to work after the session they had but he have no idea where the man lives and this is the only place he knows of Sungmin. So he braved his faith, hoping that luck is with him tonight and that he’d at least get some information on where Sungmin is.
“Sungmin? Oh I’m sorry I have no idea where he lives, and I don’t think our boss would give you such information.” The bartender in duty told Kyuhyun whose excitement and hope immediately died down after hearing the words.
The bartender seemed to notice so he sighed, biting his lips as he called Kyuhyun who’s about to leave the bar. “I don’t know where he lives but.. I do know that at morning, he works at that café two blocks from here. The one beside the music shop.”
“Thank you! Thank you so much!” Kyuhyun muttered, grinning wide at the bartender who just smiled back at him.
So that night, Kyuhyun left the bar with renewed determination, now more sure on what he wants to tell the older man.
Kyuhyun immediately went to the café first thing in the morning hoping he’ll find Sungmin in there, but he saw someone different. And it definitely came as a shock to him when said person welcomed him with a slap.
“Heechul!” A man Kyuhyun didn’t know immediately went to Heechul’s side stopping the man from hitting Kyuhyun more.
“What?! How dare that man come here after what he did to Sungmin!”
“Wait. Where is Sungmin?” Kyuhyun immediately asked as he heard Sungmin’s name.
“Hell would I let you see Sungmin after what you’ve done to him!” Heechul growled as he glared at Kyuhyun who just looked back at him confusedly.
He wanted to ask what have he done to Sungmin exactly? Wasn’t he supposed to be the victim here? But before he could asked, the man earlier kneeled beside Heechul so he could look directly at the man.
“Heechul, I think it would be best if we’ll tell him where Sungmin is.”
“What?! Are you out of your mind?! It’s his fault why Sungmin is there!”
“Heechul, you know Sungmin needs him. Please, for your brother. He might be able to help.”
“What are you talking about? Where is Sungmin?” Kyuhyun interrupted the two as worry starts to creep in him. “Please, Heechul I beg you. Please I really need to see your brother. Please.” Kyuhyun begged the man on his wheelchair who looked at him and then to the other man before sighing hard.
“Fine!”
*
“Please forgive Heechul. He’s just being protective of his brother.” Leeteuk, the man earlier, whispered to Kyuhyun, ignoring the scoff from Heechul, as he drove the two to where Sungmin is.
“Where is Sungmin actually?” Kyuhyun asked, but his heart started to tremble in fear as the car stopped in a particular place.
“We’re here.” Leeteuk muttered as he guided Heechul to his wheelchair and nudge Kyuhyun to follow them.
“But.. how - what..” Kyuhyun started not knowing how to grasp his thoughts as millions of questions flood in him.
“He had been over-working himself for these past few months that his body reached its limit and he collapsed.” Leeteuk answered for him.
“Why would he do that?” Kyuhyun asked confusedly.
“He had been having 3 jobs to be able to afford you, you bastard!” Heechul answered this time. He widened his eyes as everything seemed to be much clearer now. He felt his heart clench as realization hit him. He knows it’s impossible that Sungmin could afford his expensive services but he ignored it because deep inside he’s elated to be able to have Sungmin, but he’s too stubborn to admit it thus he used his job as a way to be able to have Sungmin.
“And he even managed to escape last night making his condition worse and even if he won’t admit it, I’m sure he came to you! You heartless brat!” Heechul added.
“I didn’t know. I’m so sorry.. I.. “ Kyuhyun croaked as tears fell from his eyes. His heart clenching in pain as his conscience eat him up.
“Heechul..” Leeteuk started but he stopped mid-way as he looked at the commotion at his front. Kyuhyun saw as his and Heechul’s eyes widened as they run towards the commotion.
Fear suddenly enveloped inside Kyuhyun as he hope against hope that it’s not what he think it is.
“What are you doing?! Where is Sungmin?!” Heechul screamed, panic written all over his face.
“I’m.. I’m sorry, we tried our best.. He started thrashing in his sleep earlier, complaining that it hurts everywhere..”
The doctor’s explanation seemed to be blurred in Kyuhyun’s mind as he saw the nurse wheeled the bed from the room.
His heart thump in fear as he stared at it, his whole body weakening as he prayed to God that it’s not yet too late.
“What’s this?” Sungmin asked as he let Kyuhyun put the necklace on him.
“Nothing, I just saw it in the market and I immediately thought of you. And I was right it looked beautiful on you.”
His knees tremble but he willed himself to walk closer to the figure, each step seemed to take forever as time stopped and all he could hear is the drums in his heart and the loud weeping of his heart.
“It’s beautiful Kyu. I love it.”
“If you love it, then why are you frowning?”
“I just feel so bad that I can’t give you anything.”
He clenched his hand, as he blames himself for everything. He hated Sungmin for leaving him, for causing him endless pain, but because of that, he had failed to remember that Sungmin had given him the best things in life, the best memories, happiness.
“But you don’t have to give me anything you’re more than enough for me. I love you.”
“I love you too. So much.”
Kyuhyun bit his lips, preventing himself from screaming as he felt thousands of swords attack his heart as he finally saw the figure under the sheets. But the pain was too much, much more than that night Sungmin left him. Because this time.. it’s for good.
“I can’t give you all of the riches in this world but I promise to give you my all. My heart, even my life, it’s all yours Kyuhyun.”