White knuckle rides of the mind
This last week has been such a roller-coaster of emotions for me, for different reasons. I injured quite badly last weekend & it didn't make anything 'better' I feel so fat & ugly, it is so painful to even think about it. I just feel like I am losing all control of everything & I NEED CONTROL!! I seem to be losing my closest friends for reasons I cannot control & I don't know how to stop that happening, although you would think I'd be used to having no friends by now. I never seem to be able to keep hold of people - I am assuming this is something inhererantly wrong with me? You know that quote "If a man betrays you once it is his fault. If he betrays you a second time it is your fault." Not that I have been 'betrayed' you know what I mean, don't U??
This was meant to be a big update of things, because I have so much I want to say, but I am so confused right now, my head is jammed with confusion. Maybe tomorrow at a more decent time of day I can update & actually think straight. I am going to the 'Carmelite' convent tomorrow to sing carols with someone I know from the Chapel, I love Christmas carols, so it should be helpful in cheering me up abit.
Endraia I hope you got my email 3x's sorry about that my computer was being an ass, so I got Louise (yet another one) to send it from her computer.
This was meant to be a big update of things, because I have so much I want to say, but I am so confused right now, my head is jammed with confusion. Maybe tomorrow at a more decent time of day I can update & actually think straight. I am going to the 'Carmelite' convent tomorrow to sing carols with someone I know from the Chapel, I love Christmas carols, so it should be helpful in cheering me up abit.
Endraia I hope you got my email 3x's sorry about that my computer was being an ass, so I got Louise (yet another one) to send it from her computer.