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Ok, 4wks without SI'ing, pretty good huh?
So why do I just feel so bad?? I feel more 'exposed' & 'vulnerable' without my SI, is that right? I want to cut, to know I still can. I am trying to be so damn positive all the time, its tiring!! I just don't want to be me - simple!!!!
I haven't heard anything back from the hospital about the Auxiliary post I applied for, which is annoying, I wish they would just tell me one way or another, I assume I've not got the job, I don't know why I thought I would stand a chance anyway. I go for a 'voice test' on Wednesday to see if my voice if suitable to record the local newspaper for visually impaired people, I'm excited about that, I know I have a good talking voice, lots of people have told me.
It's Wendy's birthday today, I sent her a card, which I hope she liked. It's also my cousin Louise's birthday too, although we don't really talk now, which does upset me b/c we were like sisters when we were little - she is 6wks older than me.
And last but not least, it's Endraia's 18th - HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
So why do I just feel so bad?? I feel more 'exposed' & 'vulnerable' without my SI, is that right? I want to cut, to know I still can. I am trying to be so damn positive all the time, its tiring!! I just don't want to be me - simple!!!!
I haven't heard anything back from the hospital about the Auxiliary post I applied for, which is annoying, I wish they would just tell me one way or another, I assume I've not got the job, I don't know why I thought I would stand a chance anyway. I go for a 'voice test' on Wednesday to see if my voice if suitable to record the local newspaper for visually impaired people, I'm excited about that, I know I have a good talking voice, lots of people have told me.
It's Wendy's birthday today, I sent her a card, which I hope she liked. It's also my cousin Louise's birthday too, although we don't really talk now, which does upset me b/c we were like sisters when we were little - she is 6wks older than me.
And last but not least, it's Endraia's 18th - HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!