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[simba3legs]

I hate my life!!! Just spoke to Wendy, basically she said I just need to 'take charge' of myself & don't bother if people like me or not, because in her words "At the end of the day, friends will come & go, what really matters is your family & yourself." so basically her friends don't mean very much to her, I find that hard to accept or adopt as a way of thinking. She said she would be there for me to talk to, but how can I talk to her about anything, when she cannot 'handle' what I have to say. She finds me so hard to communicate with (as I said yesterday) which makes me feel like I have to be false around her. Then she also said, she finds it hard to understand why I find it hard to open up to her when she has told me 'intimate' things about herself. I love Wendy to pieces, I told her that tonight, but I don't know if that's enough to be friends with her or not. I'm so confused, if I don't have Wendy I have no-one & that makes me wanna try so hard to 'keep' her but she hurts me so much with some of the things she says to me.

I will love you...if your perfect!! I want to be beautiful, slim & perfect!!