just wonder if someone will read this...:)
im home...quiete* home...sitting here...listinning to modest mouse...i want to put after it something more powerful:)...god...all my friends...are such a bunch of SToNerS!!!damn...its not having a very good efect on me eather:)...ive noticed that im starring to smoke again...no way!!...i dont want..smoking is so useful and harming...and here im almost starring again...NO!!!!!!!i wont let it happen!!!im a strong powerful person that dont needs any sigarettes!!!yeah!!!:),god...:)...i saw 2 movies today,after school that i came to my friend(who waont stops smoking weed in the past week...just fuckin' all day long...its unbelivable..)we sam..hm...oh ye...SPIDERBABE or something..hhh..god...wierd movie..some chick..who got bitten by a spider:),dshe started to have special powers and everything's about sex..oh whatever..one hack of an odd movie..and the other one was...hm..something..dorm drone?..dorm done?...whatever...some kind of a teen movie..this movies not worth discausion..although 'spiderbabe' is really wierd..ive broke up from my 2 yeared boyfriend 6 monthes ago..(it kinda was mutual,somebody had to do it..then he wanted us back...bla bla..)...well...but then i had this other bf...for 2 monthes or something:)..it was nothing special..so im boyfriend lesslike 3-4 monthes(it seems alot longer..)because really when i was with the other bf for this 2-3 monthes i didnt felt in love../in relationship..i didnt felt nothing as i understand now..i just needed someone to take my mind off the har break-up from my first love..but..from today..i kinda want relationship with someone again..i always love to be bymyself too..but i dunno...winter is almost here,and i want someone to hug:)*oooh:)*..but the problem is..that im not finding candidats:)..its like taking me so much time to fall in love..and to get over i think..or not..well..whatever..(i wonder if someone actually reading my bla bla stories:)...i thought there was someone new to love..but everyday my feelings change 'bout him..one day i like..and one day i dont..so..i dont think it can be something real..and besides..we just cant be together..because..because..hm..:)..its...it will be really wierd..he even not suspects that SOMETIMES i feel for him something..but SOMETIMES im not:)..gosh,im so hard:)...but the only thing i know..that no metter what he always makes me laugh,and this is what i mostly adore about him..and my mood always rise when he's around..and bla bla bla:)..so..i dont know..i already drove all my friends naughts with all my thoughts..doubts..and stuff..everyone tell me im thinking too much..well..maybe:)..but..thats me,i guess:)..well anyway...if you read till here you've made my day:)...well,bye for now,hah what i wrote yesterday about that ill be back to write something when there will be what,i guess i came too early:)..