Everything always in time will come and i believe its all for a reason.

[silygrlsdontspk]

Last night I talked to you, and we cried. I miss you so much, I was just afraid because of all the stuff thats happened with joe and whatnot. I've only said the "L" word to one person and we all know how that happened. And I'm just afraid of the future, but as you say you can't worry about it. Jessica is the one I usually go to and we were talking and I realized, What the hell am I doing?!?!?!?! Here I have this great guy that cares about me who is soo beautiful in every way, even though he doesn't see, it I feel that I will never find anyone that even comes close to the affection that you've shown me and I'm not afriad anymore, this is for you...and i promise this isn't a Christian song...

"Oh sweet angel of mercy
with your grace like the morning
wrap your loving arms around me.
oh sweet angel of mercy
with your grace like the morning
wrap your loving arms around me.

Hey unfaithful i will teach you
to be stronger, to be stronger.
Hey ungraceful i will teach you
to forgive one another.
Hey unfaithful i will teach you
to be stronger, to be stronger.
Hey unlovely i will love you\
i will love you
i will love you.

and jesus im ready to come home.
jesus, i'm ready to come home
home, home, home.
i'm ready to come-hey ungrateful
hey ungraceful
hey unlovely i will love you
hey unlovely i will love you."

p.s
thats right i said the very word that i was so afraid of, but know im surrendering to it. I love you, Jon. Your beautiful, and the reason why you dont see it is because your a poor blind bastard. :-D